Alpha Nicholas
Chapter 21 –

Alpha Nicholas

I can feel Lexi pulling away from me. She wants to run and while I don't blame her for that, I still can't let her do it. I Can feel Bonnie slowly fading and it's driving me fucking crazy. If it comes down to it I will haul her ass back to the pack house and deal with her anger later as long as she gets taken care of I don't give a fuck, but I'd like her to come willingly. I don't deserve it but I just need her to trust me. Deciding to give her a little something I get down on my knees so she's standing over me and pretty much beg her to let me help her. "Lexi. I know you have no reason to trust me, I get it, I really do. But I promise that nothing will happen to Bonnie. I just want to help. I've not been acting as I should, I know that. I've been a fucking fool! but I just want to help, that is all." She lets out a whine but doesn't give me any kind of answer. "Let me talk to her." Storm's voice booms in my head. He's so worked up that I can feel how tense he is. I agree and once again sit back while he comes forward. "It's storm, sweetheart. Look, we both know that my human has been a major asshole and for the record I havent agreed with any of it and I'm sure he'll confirm that for me but I promise that he only wants to help. Neither he nor I will let anything happen to either of you."

I can feel his emotions as he slips to the back of my mind giving control back to me and it suddenly hits me how hard this has been for him. "He's right Lexi. He didn't agree with me and trust me, we have had many arguments over it and he's also not been shy in calling me a few names, but he's right when he says that we won't let anything happen to either of you.

I feel the moment that she lets me in and I swear that I almost faint when I hear her voice. No, I'm not joking. I can hear Lexi's voice as she communicates from her wolf to my human form. I know Alpha wolves have more abilities than other wolves but I don't think that I've ever heard of a wolf communicating with another wolf that is in human form.

"If I trust you to look after her and you break that trust, I promise that I will tear you apart limb from limb, Alpha or not!" Her growl is fierce and yet, her voice sounds like butter and has Storm rolling over and panting. He's already spoken to her and heard her voice but for some reason hes only now reacting and is acting like a puppy.

"I swear on everything I hold close to my heart that I wont break your trust. I swear, Lexi." She stays quiet for a couple of minutes while I try and get over the shock of our communication. "Did you know I could do that, Storm?" He hasn't been my greatest fan lately so I wouldnt be that surprised if he knew about it but didn't tell me. "Hmmm, no, I didnt know that." His answer is vague and has me curious. "Ok, so what do you know?"

"Last night when our mates were in the office I was able to communicate with Lexi. We couldn't talk for long because you had blocked me out so it made it harder. Afterward, I figured that if I could do that then there could be more that we don't know about but I didn't know that you could do this." As much as I'm pissed at him for not telling me about what happened I imagine he hasn't been in much of a rush to talk to me.

"Ok, I will give you Bonnie but I meant every word that I said. And one more thing, Bonnie is mine, not yours and once she is better I will be taking her away somewhere that she can be safe and happy." Lexis's voice drags me from my conversation with Storm and whilst I feel nothing but happy at her finally letting me help Bonnie, I cant deny that I'm angry at her saying that she's going to take her away once she's better. Yes, I know I have no right to be but I am and there's nothing I can do bout it. "Ok." I don't say anymore afraid that I will say something to change her mind.

I stand up when I see her start to shift and swallow back a growl when my mate appears on the ground curled up in a ball naked and unconscious. I swiftly take off my shirt and drape it over her before slowly picking her up and holding her close to my chest. Her head rolls until it comes to rest on my chest pleasing the possessive Alpha in me. My mate is battered black and blue and way too skinny but she's going to get the best care that there is. Lily runs over to quickly check her over then leans in and places a kiss on her cheek before Shane pulls her away. "Let's go!" I bellow.

We arrive at the doctor's office in quick time and he already has a room ready for Bonnie and I make a mental note to thank who ever got the word to the doctor before we got here. "In here, Alpha." He hurries me inside with her while Will, Shane, and Lily take a seat outside of the room. "Shane, can you send in Lily, please." He lets me know shes on her way before I turn my attention back to my mate. "You asked for me, Alpha?" Lily comes to stand beside me with a look of devastation as she watches the doctor look over her best friend.

"Yes, I did, Lily. I'm not sure why... I just... Fuck, look at her!" I know I'm appearing weak in front of her but right now I just don't care. I have so many thoughts and feelings rushing through my head and I'm not sure how to handle them. I feel a small hand on my arm and want to break down when I see the look of compassion and sympathy on Lily's face and it's then that I notice how small she actually is and so is my mate. I swear when I carried her back she felt weightless. Jesus, what is it with these girls being so small? "Everything will be ok, Alpha. Bonnie always says that everything will work out as it's supposed to and after many recent events I'm starting to believe her." She looks at Bonnie with a warm smile but all I do is snarl and growl when I see the doctor pulling my shirt away from her body. "Do you know that she told me that she understood the fact that I didn't want her as my mate? That she knew that sometimes it just didn't work. How can she be so positive about life?"

"Yes, she told me what she said. She meant it you know... she does understand that sometimes a wolf doesn't want a mate and she understands that a wolf doesn't always want their destined mate either and she's okay with it. Of course, it physically hurts her and the rejection won't be pleasant but she is not mad at you for that. If anything she just wants you to be happy, Alpha Nicholas." Fuck, this girl is something else.

"It's not that simple you know? It's not a case of I just don't want her or that I'm repulsed by her in any way..." I can't say anymore, I won't but it seems that Lily already understands that. "I guessed as much, Alpha and so has Bonnie. You have your reasons and that's ok. Neither Bonnie nor I thought we'd ever replace our mates and certainly not so soon in life but now that I have I couldn't be happier and I just wish it was the same for my best friend.

I'm not saying this to try and make you feel bad or anything but maybe... maybe you could tell Bonnie your reasons. It would be nice for her to know that you're not repulsed by her." I nod taking in her words. Explaining things to Bonnie is probably the right thing to do but I'm not sure if I can. Opening that can of worms could stir up feelings that I spent years trying to bury.

"I knew things were bad but this... Jesus..." She shakes her head as a lone tear rolls down her cheek and it triggers something inside of me. Aside from her being my mate's best friend, she is also my brother's mate which makes her family and I don't like seeing her upset but I know if I ask her anything now she won't tell me no matter how much I want that.

"I know that something is going on with Bonnie and there's possibly more to your story also and I want to help but I can't if I don't know the details. You are my brother's mate and once you officially move here I will be your Alpha. I know I've started on a rocky patch but I want you to know that you can trust me and I will do all I can to help and protect you if it's needed, Bonnie too."

She smiles at me and pats my arm before turning and leaving the room. I don't know if she's going to tell me what's going on but I hope she does, and Bonnie too. "Why do you care enough to want to know what's going on with her when you're just going to send her on her way once she's better? Storm's shitty attitude is back and I guess I can't blame him. "It's always been the plan to reject our mate, Storm, you know that,"

I say the words that I have said so many times in the past, even more so in the last 24 hours, and yet those words have never been so painful to say before. This girl is throwing me through a loop and if I'm being honest with myself I can admit that she has been since the first moment I laid eyes on her and I'm not quite sure what to do about it.