Alpha Nicholas
Chapter 43 –

Alpha

Harold

truly needed.

My life is crazy, being Alpha is no easy fate and it can be a lot to deal with and lately, for me, it's becoming a lot to deal with way too often which is why I decided to take a vacation and visit my sister at her pack. I haven't taken a vacation in almost 4 years and it's Of course, being an Alpha means I'm never free to travel alone because even if I have no enemies that I am aware of that doesn't mean that someone out there won't decide to attack me if they spot me alone, especially a Rogue so I may be on vacation but I'm still not alone. I have five guards with me and while I'd rather be alone they have been very good in staying close enough to protect me but also far enough away that I still get a sense of peace.

I've missed my sister over the last four years that I haven't seen her but I just couldn't face visiting her. It's not that I haven't wanted to but the last time I did my Luna, my wife had been by my side. The day she died devastated me in more than one way. She was my soul mate and we had been lucky enough to meet when we were both 18. She died at the age of 57 so after 35 years together I'm sure you can imagine how hard it is to try to live without her.

I'll never know why she died. It happened in her sleep and I decided against any tests to replace out the cause. She was already dead poking and prodding her wouldn't have changed anything. She deserved to be left alone in peace and as much as I don't regret my decision, there is a small part of me that wishes I knew why she had to die so young. If truth be told the day she stopped living so did I. Yes I'm alive but I feel like I just go through the motions of everyday life just because I have to. I'm an Alpha, I have a pack that looks up to me and to me for guidance and I can't let them down, I won't. Rose would be so mad if I did, she loved the pack and dedicated her life to every single member.

The whole drive to my sister's pack had me reconsidering my position as Alpha. It's something I've thought of more than once since my wife's death but even more so these last few months. Yes, I'm still incredibly fit and capable of fulfilling the Alpha role, I work out every day to keep myself in shape physically but mentally I'm not completely there. My pack deserves so much more from me but no matter how hard I try to get my head back into shape I just can't. I'm fed up and more than anything I'm tired, tired of the constant bullshit that comes with being an Alpha. Don't get me wrong, you expect bullshit when running a pack and dealing with many outside issues but there are also perks to being Alpha but lately, I'm only seeing bullshit and it's dragging me down. If I'm being honest with myself I would have given up my title ages ago but I don't have any sons to take over the Alpha title. My wife and I were blessed with our daughter Ariel but no sons. She had a hard time giving birth to Ariel and it was recommended that she didn't have any more children because the risk of her dying was quite high. Of course, Rose tried to insist on giving me a son too Despite the doctor's warning, she felt that it was her job to give me an heir but I wouldn't hear of it. Would it have been nice to have a son? Yes, of course, but worth the risk of losing my wife? No! I've never regretted the decision not to have any more children but it's making the idea of stepping down and handing over my title to someone an almost impossible task.

Of course, I can pick whoever I want to take over the role and I want someone who I know will give it everything they have and put the pack's needs before his own, and whilst usually the sensible answer would be to give it to my Beta, I just can't. I've not told anyone this but I just don't trust him enough. I used to have complete faith in him as my Beta and as a potential future Alpha but it's changed over the last few years, even more so lately but I don't know why. I feel like he can't be trusted even though I have no reason to think it, I have no proof but I just feel it deep inside my gut and my gut is never usually wrong.

All of this bullshit constantly niggling at my brain is one of the reasons for me heading to my sister's pack for a break. Of course, seeing her and her mate Autumn is also another reason, and the fact that my daughter will also be there is the best part of all. She has been away traveling through packs with some of my Warriors for several weeks and I've missed her terribly.

She's not a Warrior but she's a bloody good fighter and often likes to travel through packs to help my guys out. I think it helps keep her busy after losing her mom. They were the best of friends and she was only 17 when she died. She's also still mateless and I believe that some of the reason for her travelling to different packs is to try and replace her mate. I can't wait for her to replace her mate so that she can experience everything that comes with it, but I also can't deny my fear of losing my little girl if her mate ends up being from another pack which is what is appearing to be the case. I know it often ends up that way but it doesn't make it hurt any less.

"Alpha, there's an emergency call waiting for you in the Alpha's office. I jump at the sound of one of my guy's voices. I've been standing in the hallway staring out of the window for goddess only knows how long and didn't even hear him coming which isn't great considering I'm not even on my own pack lands. I give him a nod and swiftly make my way to the Alpha's office and after showing him my appreciation for him allowing me to use his office and him leaving me to take the call in private I take a deep breath dreading what I'm about to hear. My Gamma would have taken this call at my pack and have deemed it serious enough to pass on this number for contact so it can't be good.

"Alpha Harold speaking."

"Alpha Harold, this is Alpha Nicholas of the Diamond Pack. As you are aware I currently have your Beta, Future Beta, and the twin Beta daughters at my pack lands." "Yes, that is correct. Is everything ok? Has something happened to them?"

"Well, actually there is quite a lot to discuss but I'll just run through the basics for now. I can fill you in on the rest when you arrive here." Arrive there? Fuck, if he's already assuming that I'm going to be there then this must be even more serious than I I thought. "Please tell me that they are alive and well?"

"They are all alive, Alpha Harold. So first of all, it turns out that Bonnie is my mate." I hear the excitement in his voice and replace myself smiling. "That is amazing news, Alpha Nicholas. If truth be told I've always had a soft spot for Bonnie and knowing that you'll be the one to look after her brings me much joy."

"Thank you. I appreciate that."

"So if you're not calling to tell me the good news then I'm guessing that there is an issue needing my attention?" I take a deep breath as I prepare myself for what he's about to say next. "Unfortunately, yes. Eailer today I caught your future Beta trying to kill Bonnie out in the forest. He wasn't alone, he had help but that person isn't from your pack. She's connected to my past and will be dealt with accordingly." Instant anger consumes my entire body. "You fucking what!"

"I'm afraid so and that's not all that I need to inform you about but I would much rather talk in person if that is possible?" Usually, I would insist on more details before going to another pack about any issues but the issue with my future Beta is enough to warrant a visit of me. If he has attempted to end Bonnie's life, to end a future Luna's life then he will die there's no doubt about it. Alpha Nicholas will want to end him for his crime and if he really has done it then I won't be stopping him.

Alpha Nicholas didn't mention any names in relation to the other crimes so I can only assume that my future Beta is also involved in them to, so there's no doubt that I'm going there and there's going to be trouble. Fuck, if this is true, if Rown really did try to kill Bonnie then it's going to be a race to see who can end him first because I will quite happily do it myself!

After just a few minutes of talking to Alpha Nicholas, I get my men informed about the situation and we leave for the Dimond pack lands. Luckily for me, my sister's pack is only 3 hours away from the Diamond pack making this a much quicker trip than if we had traveled from home, and before I know it I'm standing in front of my future Beta while he's tied to a chair and looking like he's about to have a heart attack.

"Well hello, Rowan. What the hell have you been doing?"