Alpha Nicholas
Chapter 56 –

Bonnie

I wake up, and instantly my whole body feels like it has had one hell of a workout, and then I can't help but smile when I remember that it has indeed had a workout. My life has mostly been clouded by darkness and whilst there was a loud voice that would constantly tell me that I wouldn't get a mate, that my mate wouldn't want me, I would still get my moments where I would imagine myself meeting my mate, him wanting me and, of course, I always wondered what my first time would be like. Although in my imagination it would take time before we got to that point. In no way did I ever imagine that it would happen so quickly, but I don't regret it, not at all.

When I came to his room the thought of us mating hadn't even entered my head, but the moment he kissed me and then pinned me to the door, I quickly started losing all of my senses, then he went and said those words... those sweet words that I could see he meant, and I just forgot everything. He got me so worked up that my nerves were few and far between, and I'm thankful for that. Don't get me wrong, it was painful at first, but nowhere near as painful as I know that it could have been and Nicky... Well, Nicky is not a small guy, so I'm grateful for how he took care of me.

I stretch out my aching body, but I don't feel any discomfort. I keep replaying last night's activities in my head and quickly notice how ridiculously happy those memories make me feel. How ridiculously happy my mate made me feel and I can't wait to see what happens next. If that was just the start and things only get better within our relationship both sexually and mentally, then I already know that I'm in for one pretty incredible life.

Suddenly, I feel my whole body tense as that loud vice that lurks inside of me decides to rear its head. What if he regrets it? What if he wakes up and remembers seeing and feeling my scars and is disgusted? What if he just wanted to experience what it would be like to sleep with his mate? What if he said all the right things just to get me into bed?

What if when he wakes up he doesn't want me anymore? He didn't mark me or even mention it, so what if he has never had any intention of doing it, and he rejects me and sends me on my way? I know that I was prepared for his rejection before, but after being with him, and after giving him my virginity, I don't know if I'll be as calm about it this time. I'm not sure how I'll be able to keep going, but I'll just have to somehow I guess.

"Whatever you are thinking, stop it right now." I'm so lost in my feel sorry for myself moment that Nick's deep voice makes me jump. "What do you mean?" I'm a shit liar but maybe he hasn't figured that out yet and I can get myself out of an awkward conversation. "Dont try that crap with me. I was awake before you. I knew the second that you woke up and I felt you tense up like a bowstring and I'm surprised that you didn't snap. We both know you're thinking bad things and I know that I won't like any of them." I can maybe get him being aware of when I woke up. As an Alpha he has been taught to be aware of his surroundings and to not miss a trick but how the hell could he know what I was thinking? He may know some stuff about me but surely not even he can know my thoughts already. "I don't know what you mean?" Yep, thats right, I'm still trying my luck.

I let out a squeal when Nick's face is suddenly in line with mine as he swiftly climbs on top of me digging his elbows into the bed and keeping most of his weight off me. "I know what you're doing but it won't work." For a moment I almost told him exactly what I was thinking but then I lost my nerve. As much as he could tell me that I'm wrong and that he wants me, he could just as easily destroy my world if he tells me that I'm right.

"Is it ok if I use the shower? I won't be long in there." I suddenly feel like I can't breathe, the scent of my mate is driving me wild and Lexi is not helping. All she wants to do is go straight for round 2. I watch as a slight smirk appears on his face and then he nods his head. "Of course, darling. Take as long as you need. Use whatever you need, there are fresh towels in the cupboard at the side of the sink."

I thank him and wait as he decides to take a few moments before he slowly clubs of off me and rolls to his side of the bed before he sits up against the headboard causing the sheet to drop to his waist and make my heart beat a little faster. Goddess, he has one incredible body. I take the second sheet and quickly wrap it around my body hoping that I manage to cover everything before swiftly heading to the bathroom without looking back. Goddess, what have I done to myself?

Alpha Nicholas

Last night was so much more than I ever imagined it could be. I'm no virgin and while I may not be classed as a man whore I have still had my fair share of women in bed but none of them and I mean not a single one could even compare to what I experienced with my mate last night. And I don't just mean the sex. Of course that was the most incredible sex that I have ever had but it was the emotional side that sucked me in more than anything.

She's my mate and I've wanted her since the first moment I laid eyes on her but I never would have imagined how close I would feel to her, how connected I would feel. Once I grew a set of balls and realized that I did want her, I instantly started having feelings for her but after last night... fuck... Fuck, I think I'm already in love with her. No joke.

When I woke up this morning and she was the first thing that I got to see fuck, that feeling was just incredible. It was a feeling that I have never experienced in my life. Of course, when Lottie was little and she would climb into my bed and sleep with me I felt a familiar feeling, but it was a different kind of feeling to what I felt waking to Bonnie and fuck, I felt like the happiest man alive.

If there is one thing I am good at in life it's being aware of my surroundings and noticing the slightest change so of course, I noticed the moment she woke up and especially the moment that her whole body tensed up and as much as she wants to try and make me think different, I know her mind as gone to the dark side.

I watch as she walks to the bathroom, her ass swaying under that thin sheet, and before she even reaches the door I'm hard as a rock. Just knowing the body she's trying to hide from me drives me crazy. She thinks that I don't want her. She thinks that I've changed my mind about her but she's so wrong that it's laughable. I also know that no matter what I say she's still going to think those things so instead, I'm going to show her exactly how I feel about her, exactly what I think about her and her sexy little body.

She closes the door to the bathroom but she doesn't lock it which gives me a great opening. Once I hear the shower water running I give her exactly two minutes before I leave the bed and head in her direction. I quietly open the bathroom door and I'm thankful that she's already in the shower. I slowly walk towards the shower and it's at this moment that I realize that I have never been more thankful for the glass shower door that I currently have.

The glass is fogged up but that doesn't stop me from being able to see the outline of her body and it just makes my cook even harder than before and as eager as ever. I slowly open the door hoping I don't scare her too much and can't hold back my chuckle when she lets out the cutest squeal and then laugh of surprise when she sees me.

Within seconds I watch as all of her fears slowly begin to set back in and I'm not happy about it nor am I about to let it carry on. I step inside the shower and watch as she goes to take a step away from me but I'm quicker and wrap my arm around her waist and pull her into me before she can move more than an inch.

"Those thoughts that you are having right now, they ain't true." She shakes her head as sadness looms in her eyes. "You can't possibly know what I'm thinking." Oh, how wrong my girl is but that's ok, because I'm about to prove her wrong and I'm going to love every second of it. Once again she tries to back away but I tighten my hold on her and walk her backwards until her back is against the shower wall and I stand right in front of her so that the water is rushing down my back and doesn't go on her.

"You think that I regret last night. You think that I regret my decision to have sex with you. You think that I'm still going to reject you and send you on your way amongst other stuff. Now, you can tell me that I'm wrong but only if you truly believe it." She opens and closes her mouth several times but no words come out. "You think that I don't want you but you're wrong, mate. So very fucking wrong!" I lean in and place a swift kiss on her lips before pulling back. "Tell me I'm wrong."

She stares at me for several seconds before she lets out a huff and shakes her head. "No, you're not wrong, ok? You're not wrong. I'm just being realistic. I have to be."

"No, baby girl, you're letting your head rule over your heart. You let yourself believe all of those bad things because you can't accept the good that is happening, the good life that you are going to have but that's ok because that just means that I'm going to have to prove it to you and quite frankly, sweetheart, I'm going to enjoy every minute of doing just that.