Bullied Mate Of The Lycan Kings
Chapter 113

Lily's

pov

I love you so much, Lily.

Do you like that?

You're everything to me.

You're mine now and always.

I need you.

I love you.

Come for me, my goddess.

I looked at the time and saw that it was almost three in the morning and I didn't even feel sleepy. Not when my entire thoughts were consumed with Ren even though he was sleeping right next to me.

It wasn't just the thoughts, it was the feeling. His feeling of love and devotion filtered through the barely developed bond link between us, and even as he slept now, soft puffs of peace and satisfaction warmed my lovestruck heart. Mine. Mine. Mine.

I couldn't believe it. I was bonded... to a royal of all people. Who would have thought? Although, I should know by now, that's not the most amazing thing about me right now. My own wolf was a blood thirsty, cantankerous, shape shifter that was too ambitious for her own good, but even now, she seemed to be writhing with joy in my consciousness at having bonded with Ren.

"Only one of my mates," she felt the need to remind me and I rolled my eyes at her greed.

"One's all you'll get," I told her, trying and failing to believe my own words. Even now, I burned with need through the soft halo of peace and contentment, like I wanted more. Needed more. A hole in my heart, even Ren- kind, loving, perfect Ren- could not fill. It's a good thing he was asleep and couldn't hear my thoughts.

"We'll see," was that a chuckle?

Well, at least she seemed to be in a good mood and I felt our connection go taut.

She was a stronger force within me since I bonded with Ren hours ago. Like being mated to him gave her a power trip and I had no intentions of testing it out. I shouldn't worry though. I was safe for now. Only Aiden could really set her free. So for now, as long as I don't bond with him, I'm fine. We're all fine.

I settled back against Ren's chest, sighing in contentment as he wrapped his arms around me, aware of me, even in his semi conscious state.

Everytime I closed my eyes, i relived our first night together and my entire body trembled in delight as I remembered that we were truly bonded now. The idea did not even scare me like I thought it would and whatever doubts I may have had, however little, that Ren was mine had been extinguished.

Throughout the night, I was hyper aware of him holding me tightly in his arms even though he was deeply asleep and right now as his head rested on my shoulder, his leg draped over mine with my back against the bed, I turned sideways to stare at him, a gentle sigh escaping my lips as I watched him sleep, his white-blond hair spread across the pillow like a halo.

The soft moonlight filtering through the curtains caressed his features, highlighting the delicate lines of his face. He looked so peaceful, and for a moment, time seemed to stand still as I admired the sight before me for the umpteenth time tonight. Ren's hair, like silk, gleamed with an otherworldly radiance that reminded me of his majestic fae ancestry. It was as if the moon's luminous beams had woven themselves into his locks, creating an ethereal glow around his head. The strands were so fine, like the whisper of snow droplets, falling delicately across his forehead and slightly brushing his closed eyelids.

His face, was probably one of the most well cut faces that I had ever seen in shadow cove and my heart felt full as I stared at him hard. His features were a blend of strength and tenderness. His high cheekbones accentuated his jawline, giving him an air of sophistication even in slumber. His lips, gently curved, hinted at a serene smile, making my heart flutter as I wondered whether he was thinking about me like I had spent the entire night doing the same. Gently, I brushed a strand of his hair away from his face, careful not to disturb his slumber. His skin felt soft under my touch, and I couldn't resist the urge to lean down and place a tender kiss on his forehead.

In that moment, I realized how lucky I was to have him in my life. I couldn't help but feel a rush of gratitude and affection for the wonderful person he was, both inside and out. It was still so unreal that someone like him wanted someone like me but I was determined to not question it anymore.

To just accept and roll with it.

Feeling so overwhelmed by how much I loved him, I turned back around so that my back was facing me and I noticed how he immediately spooned me even though he was unconscious, holding me even tighter as if he thought I was going to run away and immediately his breathing changed, I felt it.

"Are you okay?" He breathed into my hair, kissing my temple and my insides trembled with red at the way his voice washed over me. "You've been stirring all night. Is there something that is not to your liking? I'll fix it if you would just tell me." He added and I turned around and buried my face in his chest, breathing him in.

"I'm fine. You can go back to sleep. It's my first night here so it's a bit difficult to fall asleep."

"Okay, love." He whispered and i smiled to myself as he started gently patting my back, praying to the goddess as I fell asleep that if this was a dream, I was not ready to wake up.

I had no idea how long I had slept for but the rays of sunlight touching my face was what roused me from sleep the next morning and when I woke up, I turned, searching for Ren's warmth only to slowly realize that he was no longer in bed with me, his side of the bed cold which meant that he had woken up a long time ago.

Eyes wide with horror, I jumped up from the bed and looked around for him but there was no sign that he was here.

Against my will, my thoughts immediately spiraled into dark places. My heart pounded painfully in my f*****g chest as I started to breathe erratically.

Where is he? Where's my mate?!

Panic made it hard to breathe.

Had last night been a mistake for him? Did he wake up and regret sleeping with me and bonding with me? Was that why he was not here? Was I really being delusional to think that someone like him could be with someone like me.

I tried to stop it but I could not help the influx of memories of how Cade had made me fall in love with him only to disgrace me right after.

Ren was nothing like Cade, right? Just as I mentally asked myself that question, many unwanted memories of how Cade had gotten me to trust him only to play me for a fool filled my thoughts and I shook with cold rage as I remembered just how much I had liked him and how gullible I had been, desperate for someone to love me.

More than anything I hoped that I was jumping to conclusions but I was horrified that history felt like it was repeating itself all over again. Quickly looking around for clothes to wear and replaceing nothing, I remembered how Ren had ripped it and I could not help the tears that trickled down my cheeks in agony as I wondered if Ren had really been with me only to disappear when he got what he wanted.

Don't be unreasonable, the more rational part of me chided.

But I couldn't... couldn't stop as the memories came back with full force. The pain, the shame and humiliation, details of which I refrained from sharing with anyone to this day. Even Bia only knows the rundown version because going indepth is a pain fest I have no intention of revisiting.

I stopped myself from spiralling and immediately thought of what to do. I'd be damned if I take this lying down like last time.

My eyes sighted one of Ren's robes in his armoire and I hurriedly put it on, my hands shaking as I knotted the rope twice around my waist and wiped my eyes.

If Ren was really done with me, then I was going to have to hear it from his mouth this time. No more running. It would hurt like nothing I had ever experienced before if I didn't clear my conscience and confront Ren, well it would hurt either ways but I was ready. Immediately, I grabbed the door, ready to dash out only to bump my nose into Ren's chest and see his brows filled with question as he raised a food tray above my head and stared down at me with worried eyes.

"Lily?" A worried gasp, genuine eyes and I immediately felt sick for not trusting him all over again. "What's wrong?"