Bullied Mate Of The Lycan Kings
Chapter 34

Lily's

POV

"Oh, this was what you meant by bad when we spoke over the phone. It's bad, sis. Bad bad." Bia said as she stepped into my bedroom and stared at me where I was sitting on the bed, staring at her. I would have been able to say that I was happy to see her if I didn't feel like throwing myself off a bridge.

"This whole place looks like Thanos paid a visit and won." She said, raising her brows at me as she avoided all of the garbage on the ground which I had not bothered to arrange after my mother left the room yesterday. In fact, I had not touched anything or even tried to put things back in the places that they were, too weak and uninterested in doing anything but wallow and when I had received a call from Bia and specifically told her not to come, she had shown up, like I knew she would whenever she heard the word no from me.

"I love you babes, but this place reeks and you stink. What have you been doing since this happened? Sitting there and wallowing? Okay, don't even answer that because it looks like exactly what you have been doing. You're still in your uniform for f***s sakes and it's Saturday. Okay, this is bad bad. I brought some food though." She said with a smile like that was going to solve anything but I guessed to her, it was because she found her way to me on the bed, well the part of the bed that was not covered in a bunch of stuff. "I'm not hungry," I sniffed.

She rolled her eyes. "Young lady, I did not come here for you to give me that attitude. Now, you are going to be a good girl and allow me to feed you, okay?" She raised her eyebrows, daring me to say no and when I didn't, her smile was satisfied.

Bia reached into the bag she had brought with her and pulled out a container filled with my favorite homemade pasta. The delicious aroma filled the room, momentarily overpowering the stench of neglect that lingered in the air. She handed me a fork and sat down next to me on the cluttered bed, nudging aside a few items to make herself a small space.

"Come on, Lily. You need to eat something," Bia insisted, her tone softer now. "I know it's tough, and I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through, but you can't keep neglecting yourself like this."

I reluctantly took a small bite of the pasta, the flavors exploding in my mouth, momentarily distracting me from my pain. Bia watched me intently, her eyes filled with concern. She knew me better than anyone else, and she knew that food was a way to comfort and nourish me, even in the darkest of times.

As I chewed the pasta, tears welled up in my eyes. "Why?" I choked out, my voice barely audible. "Why me? Why all this?"

Bia put her arm around my shoulders and pulled me closer, comforting me in her silence.

I didn't remember what had happened after I blocked Ren, just that I had climbed onto this bed and wondered for hours who could have done this. The problem was that I came up with too many answers, not even because I had done anyone harm but because I knew that even back in Gold crest, I was hated for just existing.

That knowledge had made me feel even further depressed and to add to that, I had not seen or bothered to speak to my mother since I told her to get out of my room yesterday after that slap and I supposed it was a good thing, seeing as she would have an aneurysm if she came up and saw that the room was the exact same way that she left it.

I still could not believe that she had hit me. We had already been growing distant from the start since my father died and this had just taken us miles back, further away from ever going back to the way things were. I didn't even know that I could forgive her for this. The sting of her slap still lingered on my cheek, a painful reminder of the fractured relationship between us. I had spent the night replaying the events in my mind, trying to make sense of it all. How did we end up here?

How did I end up here? WHY did I end up here? It seemed like there was no end to this. To the darkness and pain.

After managing to force some spoonfuls of food inside me, Bia led me to the bathroom which had thankfully been untouched by the savages that did this mess to my room and as she helped me into the bath, she asked me to talk to her about everything that had happened while she tried to fix my bedroom. Keyword; Tried.

It was an order and one that I realized I didn't mind receiving because I needed to speak to someone about it or I was going to go crazy.

By the time I came out of the bath, Bia had done her best to arrange my vandalized room. She had taken down most of the pictures, there seemed to be a gazillion of them everywhere, and she had made the bed. Red paint still dripped from my walls, my curtains were ripped off, my lamp and reading desk trashed.

She helped me into a dress and we worked in silence, clearing out the room.

I picked up one of the pictures, my fingers trembling, my heart racing. Stupid Lily. Naive. Pathetic.

I was going to cry again. Bia pulled me in for a hug and I didn't know how long we stayed like that but what broke the hug was the fact that she needed to pee, which she had pointed out dramatically, making me crack a smile.

"So, about Ren," she started as she sat beside me again and I hated how my heart jumped at the mere mention of his name.

I was not supposed to still be thinking about him after everything that happened yesterday. Wasn't it more than enough of a sign for me to know that I was being delusional and treading dangerous waters by talking to him when it was possible that he was probably aware of those who had done this to me?

"I don't know him, but from what you've said about the guy, I don't think that he's capable of doing something like this to you. I don't believe that he would be aware of this plan to hurt you and stay still, Lily. Why don't you trust your heart and what it says about him? You said that he makes you feel the happiest and peaceful whenever he's around you."

Her answer made me laugh and I shook my head immediately.

"Do you by chance remember Cade? Also known as the boyfriend who gave me peace and ended up ruining my life? Well, yeah, I'm not about to believe anyone else just because they are kind and sweet too."

Even as I said it, I knew that it would hurt even more if Ren turned out to really be one of the bad guys.

"f**k Cade" Bia cursed and then she turned to me, her eyes brightening in a way that told me she had just gotten an idea.

"So, hear me out, what if it isn't Ren and his goons but Cade? I mean, who else would have these pictures of you still except that psycho? You should sue him for this." She said and when I snorted, her smile turned into an accusing frown. "What? What's so wrong with my idea?"

I gave her an 'are you kidding me?' look, one skeptical eyebrow arched at her. "Your mission must be to make my life even more miserable. Because advising me; a nobody... No! Even worse, an outcast, to go against the son of the oldest family in this country, a popular golden boy with a family of well respected billionaires and sports stars is downright suicidal. I'll be digging my own grave if I do that."

"Oh." My best friend said, her shoulders slumping and she allowed herself to be sad for all of five minutes before she stood up and shook her fist.

"We can't keep moping around like this!"

"Well I can." I answered and she glared at me, about to reply when her phone dinged and when she looked at it, her expression changed, making me really curious about what she had received.

"Well, what's up?" I asked and she shrugged.

"It's nothing. Just friends from school and I planned to hang out with them tonight because one of them is throwing a birthday bash but I needed to be here for you so I canceled and now they won't take no for an answer." Way to go, Lily. Now you have dragged your best friend into your misery.

"Oh, please go ahead. I'm much better now." I said, quickly feigning a smile that made Bia roll her eyes and she was about to reply with what I was sure was a sarcastic remark when her eyes brightened up in excitement. "You know what? We are both going to go to that party and have fun! And I'm not taking no for an answer, Lily."