Bullied Mate Of The Lycan Kings
Chapter 80

Lily's POV

Immediately Zac drove off, I wasted no time pulling Ren into the house and up the stairs to where Fiona was laying on my bed, still fighting for her life.

I didn't miss the anger that engulfed him as he took in the state of disarray as we moved through the house and I shifted my worry about what was going to happen after this to the more pressing issue. My dying pet. Sitting on the bed, I fought back tears as I touched her fur that was already so cold to the touch and looked at Ren with tear filled eyes. "Is she dead?"

Ren closed his eyes and exhaled slowly as he placed both hands on Fiona and immediately he opened them, they glowed in a way that would have had me dumbstruck if I wasn't panicking about my cat. "No, but if I don't do something now, she will be."

Quickly taking off his jacket, he rolled the sleeves of his shirt up and then propped a pillow under Fiona's head. He placed both of his hands on her again.

Taking a deep breath, he closed his eyes and I watched in awe as Fiona's blood started to clot immediately and new skin started to knit over the wound.

He was so breathtaking to watch as he practically gave life to my cat again and all I could think about as I looked at him work was how stupid I was to not have even bothered to fight for him. How could I have let him go? It was a mistake that I would forever regret. "I'm trying my hardest to make this work but you won't even take my hand."

"Mauve and I will never work out, I just wanted to let you know, so stop bending over backwards for her."

"I wasn't just breaking up with her because you asked me to, I was breaking up with her because being with her f*****g hurts and you gave me the courage I needed to do what I should have done a long time ago."

I had always suspected his relationship with Mauve wasn't all roses and sunshine but I didn't expect that he was so miserable in the relationship that he wanted to leave her.

He had been right when he called me out that day for going out of my way to please Mauve who had been nothing but sketchy towards me because I cared about what others thought of me more than what I wanted.

It was something that I had not been able to shake off since my father was accused of treason and killed, my need to please, to fold myself into a box and over compensate for everything I'm not.

A pathological people pleaser.

Even when I was dating Cade, I had tried my best to be small, subservient, so that people would like me, regardless of whether or not I even liked them. I had tried so hard to please the likes of Tate and Lana, knowing that what they were doing to me was not fair but I was more scared of what they would say if I stood up to them. Too scared of what they'd do.

I don't want you. I had lied through my teeth. Please don't misunderstand me. When I had been dying to walk into his arms.

He was right. I was a coward. A big one that pushed away the one good thing I wanted.

A meow dragged me out of my chaotic thoughts and when I looked at Fiona and touched her, her body was warm to the touch.

Looking at Ren in awe as he led my hand towards her pulse, I could only look on in shock when Fiona opened her eyes and Ren lifted her from the bed gently, cradling her to his chest like a newborn.

"Can you help me get her some water?" He asked and I nodded, still dumbfounded as I rushed downstairs to bring a bottle of water and back up, replaceing her bowl under some scattered books and pouring water into it.

"Hold her. Feel her for yourself." Ren whispered, handing her to me and when Fiona purred as I carried her and scratched under her chin, tears trickled down my cheeks, a sob escaping my lips.

Lily's POV

Immediately Zac drove off, I wasted no time pulling Ren into the house and up the stairs to where Fiona was laying on my bed, still fighting for her life.

She was breathing like nothing had even happened. It was a miracle.

Gently, I lowered her to the floor and watched as she lapped at the water like she had never even been injured and when I looked back at Ren, he was smiling.

"She's okay, Lily. She'll just need some rest. She's still a little shaken up but she'll be fine." He whispered, reaching out to wipe my tears and when I moved closer to him, he pulled me in for a hug, stroking my hair gently.

I didn't know where I found the courage but when he pulled back to gaze at me, I placed a tentative hand on his face... let it stay there.

His eyes widened, his breathing stuttered as he gazed at me with a hesitant expression on his face as if he was waiting with bated breath to see what I'd do. I couldn't believe what I was doing! I was touching him. Him! Ren! Oh gods.

My thumb stroked his cheekbone softly, marveling at the smoothness of his skin, the delicateness of his bone structure. It's something I didn't even know I had wanted to do for a long time, but now that I was doing it, it felt so right. He hadn't shoved me away yet, so I took it as a good sign and leaned in closer until I was only a breath from him.

"Please," I whispered, my eyes fluttering close as I tilted my face. "Please, don't push me away for this."

And I pressed my lips to his.

I tasted heaven for a brief second, but to my horror, he gripped my shoulders, pushing me back and he moved away, faster than lightning, breathing hard as he leveled me with an unbelievable stare.

What had I been expecting? For him to kiss me back after rejecting him? He had been on a date right before coming over here. That should have told me everything that I needed to know about him moving on.

My heart felt like it was splitting in two and I bit my lip hard. It was all I could do to stop myself from crying again.

"I'm sorry. I don't know why I did that." The words rushed out, incoherent and jumbled up. My heart was breaking to pieces.

I turned away, about to run out of the room when his arm grabbed me and crushed me to his chest. He grabbed my chin, his eyes alight with a certain wild look I have never seen from him.

"You started this, Lily. Take responsibility for what you've done and finish it."

He smashed his lips on mine, kissing me senseless. My stomach flipped. I melted into his arms, wrapping my arms around his neck, tugging hard on his hair. He groaned, his breath hot and heavy, his hold on me was tight enough to bruise.

He dipped his tongue into my mouth, moaning when our tongues connected and going absolutely feral as he kissed and sucked and tugged and nibbled on my lips. He was kissing me like he was starving, like he was running out of air and I was oxygen. He gripped my thighs tight, practically leaving bruises on my body as he lifted me up and into his arms, walking towards the bed.

But it didn't matter. Nothing else mattered right now but how my entire body felt. I have been lit on fire and dipped in gasoline. Stars were exploding beneath my eyelids. My toes curled, my heart beating faster as Ren pushed me to lay back on the bed and wedged a knee between my legs, his kisses hot and heavy and hard.

It was everything that I had imagined it to be and more. I didn't ever want him to stop and could not imagine why I had even rejected him in the first place.

My mind was foggy, a distant part of me trying to remind myself that I was forgetting something important, that there was a reason why I should not be doing this in the first place but it didn't matter. All I wanted was his skin against mine, his tongue in my mouth, our souls intertwining.

He stopped and looked at me as if he couldn't believe his eyes. As if he couldn't believe that this was really happening.

"Lily. Are you... is this real?"

He was heaving, his hair a tousled mess, his pale skin flushed, his eyes wild.

"Yes. I'm here. It's real," I whispered and he took my lips in his again, kissing me even harder.

I grabbed his collar, lifting my body up to his, wanting to crawl into his skin. And as he pulled off my blazer, I started undoing the buttons of his vest, my entire body hot as his hand squeezed my thigh, my hips, my sides, massaging my entire body.

It wasn't until his hips dropped to mine that I realized how turned on he was. For me. And no one else.

I let out a helpless moan I'd probably be embarrassed about later.

It was exhilarating to feel all that hardness in his crotch against me and he caressed my thighs and wrapped both legs around his hips. A second heartbeat started pulsing between my legs and just as I thrusted my hips up into his and grinded into him, needing to feel that hardness against the most intimate part of me, he froze.

One minute he was on top of me, the next he was all the way on the other side of the room, breathing hard.

Wondering if I had done something wrong, I sat up and turned to look at him, only to realize that his eyes were glowing a bright amber, a feral look on his face as he tried to keep his wolf at bay.

"Oh, I'm sorry for being so forward." I whispered, my heart beating faster than the wings of a hummingbird.

He shook his head immediately, panting.

"No. I should be the one apologizing. I'm sorry for taking advantage of this situation. Your emotions must be heightened due to everything happening and here I am, preying on that for my own selfish gain." "What- what do you mean?" I asked, confused by what he was saying.

"I know that you kissed me because you were feeling vulnerable and needed to be comforted." He whispered through gritted teeth and when I saw the pain in his eyes as he looked down at the floor, my heart broke.

I had done that. Made him doubt how much I felt for him.

I don't want you. Please don't misunderstand me.

He had believed me.

I didn't allow any of my intrusive thoughts stop me as I rose from the bed and walked over to where he was, cupping his face in my hands and staring into his eyes.

"I'm going to open my mind to you so that you will feel everything that I am about to say right now, okay? Because I mean every word."

He nodded, his breathing still laboured.

"I... I know I said some things to send you away, but the truth is that I lied. Before I met you, I was drowning in darkness. I was so sad and didn't even think I could see another day and then I met you and you were a bright beacon of light, filling me up in the sweetest way possible. You made me look forward to my next days, you made me excited to come here despite the horrors of the school. You treated me like a human being and tried your best to help me out. How could anyone not love you?" I laughed sadly. "I didn't kiss you because I was feeling emotional or grateful. I kissed you because that's what I've been wanting to do for the longest time. I kissed you, Ren, because I have fallen for you too and because I want to be with you."