Chosen Novel
CHAPTER 82

Chapter 82

“What happened in the hallway?” My look went hard as I knew he was deliberately avoiding the answer. I knew if it was truly something to worry about he’d have said something, so I didn’t pry any further and just nodded at him. The subject was fairly quickly dropped.

It wasn’t long before the doctor returned with a tray full of dental equipment. I hadn’t seen half of that stuff in years so it was a bit strange to me. I opened my mouth when he asked me to and the cloth pocket square was removed leaving the missing tooth gap to be on show.

“Goddess, That looks sore! The doctor exclaimed as he quickly turned to get the local anesthetic injection ready. He explained that he was going to numb my mouth in order to remove what could only be described as shrapnel. “Sharp pinch…” I winced as I felt it slide into my already swollen gum but it quickly became numb. He then took what I would call a pair of pliers, of course they were medical grade, and began to roughly and efficiently pull the remainder of my tooth out causing more blood to fill my mouth.

He placed a cylinder shaped gauze into the gap and told me to bite hard to stop the bleeding. He removed his rubber gloves and wrote a few notes down in my folder before flipping back to the page which I know to be my burns.

“While you are here, would you mind if 1 clean your burns and apply the salve to them? I nodded allowing the doctor to get to the work he wanted to do so that I could get to bed early.

Once done I said my thank yous and quickly made my way back to my own bedroom with Lewis in tow.

“Now are you sure you’re ok?” I nodded my head and smiled at him before opening the door to the room. Instantly I tensed up. I had the same reaction every single night. My body would betray me and my mind would wonder to all the abuse I’d felt up here. I took in a deep breath and held it for a few seconds Id realized doing this curved the panic attack that always began to rise.

“I’m ok, get some sleep. I closed the door and slid my back down the wooden panel I curled myself up into a ball for comfort and focused on my breathing. After 10 minutes I was able to climb into bed.

Sleep met me fairly quickly, but I didn’t realize I’d be plagued with nightmares. I was only out for an hour before I woke myself up screaming in terror. Sweat was pouring from my head and my heart rate was most definitely going too fast.

I hadn’t realized anyone else was residing on this floor while King Josh was away but the royal beta was far too quick getting to me. Perhaps he was residing in king Josh’s room for the time being. He barged into the mom at top speed and ran straight over to me, head tumed to him in shock as I tried to come to terms with actually being awake now.

“I’m ok…” Lewis shook his head at me, exasperation crept in his face as he placed his hands on my shoulders,

“Stop saying that when you’re clearly not ok. Before I knew what was happening he brought me into his chest, his strong heartbeat met my ears and began to lull me into a sleepy trance once more. “You don’t have to be so strong all the time you know, what you’ve been through, I can’t imagine anyone being ok after everything.”

He was wrong though, I wasn’t trying to stay strong, I was just too weak to admit how damaged my mind had become, I was too weak to say out loud

that I wasn’t ok

“Tm ok.” I whispered as my mind began to fog over, sleep began to take over me, which was when I realized that I really did feel safe with Lewis. In his arms right then and there I was comfortable, for the very first time since living here. I felt semi peaceful.