Coming Home For Christmas -
Chapter 85
Lacey's P.O.V.
"Logan, tell me why am I doing this again?"
"I'm f****d if I know, love"
He growls and I let out a sigh as I grab hold of his free hand that's sitting on his thigh.
"I know you don't agree with this, baby..."
"You're damn straight I don't agree with this, Lace"
Logan said as he briefly looked at me with a glare before looking back at the road.
"I thought we'd made it crystal clear that this was it... that Luca hitting you and coming to our home acting like a drunken fool was the final straw but no, you wanna give them one last chance to redeem themselves when in all honesty, Lacey, none of them, not one single one of them have got any redeeming qualities in them, especially your dad, Luca and Dylan' "Yeah, I know, babe but that's them...I wanna at least try and give my mom and Liam a chance to redeem themselves, at least then I can say I tried and I don't have to live with all of the what ifs"
"Hmm, I guess so"
Logan muttered under his breath.
I looked at my husband for a few more seconds before I looked out the window huffing in frustration.
I know you're all probably facepalming and thinking I'm crazy for doing this and I probably am but this is more for my own sanity because I wanna move forward knowing I at least tried to the fullest extent and didn't just give up.
If things work out then great but if they don't then at least I can move on knowing I tried.
We pulled up to the estate where my parent's mansion is and my eyes narrowed when I noticed that we weren't alone here. "Are my parents having a party?"
"I don't know...maybe they're celebrating because Luca has finally got out of diapers and was able to sleep a whole night in his big boy trunks without peeing the bed"
Logan said and I rolled my eyes but I was laughing on the inside.
Logan parked up behind a car I knew all too well which was Abby's car, we then got out and walked towards my parent's mansion hand in hand.
I don't know what I was expecting as we walked through the open front door but it certainly wasn't for me to hear something which completely shattered the last part of my heart that I was tightly holding on to.
"It is true, James...I've always known it and even your father knows it, I just wish that you'd admit it, if for nothing else tha for your own sanity, son"
My grams said and I narrowed my eyes briefly to Logan before looking at the group of people in front of me which included my grandparents, my parents, my brothers, Dylan, Klayton and Abby.
What the hell is going on here?.
"Ok fine....I admit that in the beginning, I despised the fact that Lacey was a girl because I never wanted a daughter, I onl wanted my boys but..."
My dad said and I gasped as tears filled my eyes and my breathing became laboured.
My dad never wanted me.
He despised me because I'm a girl.
It shouldn't shock or surprise me that my father would say something like this because he's always had his sexist ways and he would always subtly say s**t that would either be very sexist or demeaning.
Like for example when I wanted to be a teacher and I expressed my desire to teach the future generation and prepare them for high school, my dad scoffed and laughed as he said 'figures my daughter would want to be a teacher, only women and p***y's want to teach kids'
Do you know what's so funny about him saying this? what's funny is that my dad is also a teacher, he hasn't got a degree but he's still a teacher because he taught all of his children life lessons, he taught us all to be good people and to be kind to others and he taught all three of his sons to be businessmen, so is he inadvertently calling himself a p***y by saying that?.
You don't necessarily need a degree to be a teacher, you just need to have life experience to pass on your knowledge to your future generation, that's all.
Speaking of which, what am I supposed to teach my children? what do I teach my children about family?.
Do I teach my babies to always love and respect each other? to always be there for one another? to never hit or hurt one another whether it be with their fists or their words? do I teach them that family means no one is left behind? because if I do, then I'd be a liar and most likely a hypocrite for not practising what I preach with my own family.
"Princess"
I was brought out of my thoughts when I heard my dad's voice and heard him whimper and sob.
I take several deep breaths to calm myself down before looking up at my dad through my teary eyes. "Princess? is that a joke?"
I ask angrily.
"Lacey honey, you shouldn't be here, you can get them in a lot of trouble now that they've officially been served" "Oh don't worry, Abs, I'm officially done with this pathetic family now"
I say whilst glaring at my family.
I then turned to walk away but I was stopped by my dad who had rushed over to me and grabbed me by my wrist.
"Lacey baby, please listen to me, I didn't mean it like how it sounded"
My dad pleaded with me as I turned to look at him.
"Then how did you mean it, dad?...you said you never wanted a daughter and you despised me because I'm a girl...what's there to explain?"
I ask as tears stream down both mine and my dad's faces.
"I only felt like that in the beginning, Lace but then I fell in love with you and I was so proud to call you my daughter.... stil am very proud of you"
"Ok...answer me this then and answer me honestly, dad...when Logan asked you for his permission to marry me, did you say yes because you wanted to and because you were happy that a good man like Logan wanted me and because you knew he'd love me, protect me and keep me safe?...or did you say yes because that would mean I wasn't a complete waste of space after all and you'd get a strong alliance with the Black family through your useless, unwanted daughter?"
I ask hoping to hear the answer I wanted but unfortunately, all I was met with was silence.
My dad didn't answer me but he didn't have to, his face said everything.
"You're not useless, Lace and you're not unwanted either, if you'd just let me explain..."
"Like I said, dad, there's nothing to explain"
I said while looking at my dad in his baby blue eyes before looking at Logan who had an expression on his face like he had just stood in dog crap.
"Lacey baby, please listen to your father, he never meant what he said"
My mom said and I scoffed as I shook my head.
"How did I know that you'd stand up for him, mom? I know he's your husband and it's your job as his wife to stand up for him...but not against your own kids and especially not when he's in the wrong" I say and she looks at me shocked but I didn't care, I was done, officially this time.
"Logan"
I say my husband's name and he looks at me, his face changing from a glare to a sympathetic expression, he was still angry but his affection for me was way stronger than his anger for my family. "Can we leave, please?"
"Sure, babe"
He grabs hold of my hand and kisses the back of it before leading me out of the house.
Even though I felt like I was running on autopilot as Logan led me out of my childhood home, I could still make out my parents and my brothers shouting for me as Klayton told them to leave me alone otherwise he'll call the police on them for going against the restraining order even though it was me who showed up here and put their freedom at risk. Some paragraphs are incomplete if you are not reading this novel on Ebookex.com. Visit Ebookex.com to read the complete chapters for free.After getting in our car and putting our seatbelts on, Logan sped out of the driveway and took us back home or at least that's what I thought.
When the car was finally parked, I looked out of the window and saw nothing but a blanket of snow, trees that were just branches and there was even a lake which looked more like an ice rink right now.
"Why have you brought us here?"
I ask Logan who was looking out at the beautiful scene in front of us that looked like a Christmas card as he stroked his stubbly chin.
"I wanted to calm down and this is where I always come to when I wanna relax"
"I'm sorry, babe"
I say and he lets out a sigh as he grabs hold of my hand.
"It's not your fault, babe, it's your family's fault but hopefully you've learned your lesson now that they don't deserve a second chance with you"
"Oh, I know Logan, I think I knew before that they didn't deserve it"
"Then why put yourself through this, Lace?"
He asks and I shrug my shoulders.
"Maybe I'm a masochist and I enjoy the pain that others inflict upon me or I'm just a glutton for punishment"
"Or maybe you just wanted your family to be in both yours and our baby's lives which isn't a bad thing and it's not wrong f you to feel that way but you need to realise that not everyone deserves to be in your life, babe even your own family" He says and I nod my head.
"You're right and I understand that now"
I say whilst letting out a breath.
We were silent for about a minute before Logan asked me a question which made me smile.
"So, what now, love?"
My smile was big and bright as I looked at my handsome husband.
"Now, it's all about you, me, Logan Junior, Dayton and Teddy and us having the best first Christmas together as a comple family, now we can focus all of our time on each other and making new memories and doing things together as a family without any interruptions or worries that my family or GiGi will one day rock up and ruin everything for us"
I say while rolling my eyes at the end.
"We can go to the Christmas markets and have Christmas movie nights, ooh and we can also go to the theatre and watch a show, I've always wanted to see A Christmas Carol in the theatre"
I say excitedly.
"I'm not sure if they still do that, baby and if they don't then I'll make it happen for you because you deserve it"
Logan said with a slight chuckle while I sighed in contentment feeling blissfully happy.
"Thank you, Logan"
"For what?"
He asks whilst narrowing his eyes at me in confusion.
"For being my rock, especially in my weakest times like now"
I say whilst letting out a sad sigh as I rest my head against the headrest.
"I just really wanted to give my mom and Liam a chance to redeem themselves, Logan...I was hoping that maybe if I couldn't have a relationship with my whole family then I at least could with my mom, Liam and Justin and our kids would know more of their family than just your side and they'd have a relationship with them as well...but now...now I think if I ever see them again it will be too freaking soon" I say with a slight sob as a few stray tears fall down my face.
I don't know why I was crying but I know for a fact that it wasn't because of my family who weren't worth me shedding a tear over, especially not after today's performance.
"Don't cry, baby, they're not worth it"
Logan says as his warm hand cupped my face and gently wiped my tears away.
"I know that now, babe"
I say with a smile and he smiles back at me as he leans in and kisses my lips.
"You don't need anyone else, baby, you just need me and the triplets"
He's right.
All I need is my little family and my friends.
You can't pick your family but you can certainly pick who can be a part of your inner circle and those people have to be the ones who care more about building you up and strengthening your sanity, not weakening it like my family has with me. From now on, it's only about us and the ones who we love and care for, not anyone else.
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