Divorce Anxiety
Chapter 175

Chapter 175 Why Did You Do That

Kathleen pushed Samuel away and sat aside with confusion written all over her pale face. “Why didyou do that?"“Because I missed you.” He slowly buttoned his shirt back up and sorted out his

attire As she watched how the man returned to being the elegant, noble elite he was, she could notassociate him with the possibility of self-harm.Samuel did not look like he would do such a thing.Heis a self-centered man. Why would he harm himself because of sentiments? Furthermore, it's such asevere case of self-harm.Kathleen's mind was in a mess.Samuel looked at her with his dark,unfathomable eyes. “Kate, I'm the same as you. I miss the children too.”She froze.”Because of mymistakes, I've caused harm to my own child, and my beloved wife left me.” A bitter smile appearedon his refined face as he continued, “I can't forgive myself for ruining what could've been a lovingfamily with my own hands."Kathleen’s heart ached when she heard that.”"Don’t I deserve to die?”Samuel said in a husky voice, his dark eyes gazing deeply at her.She did not know how to respondto that.As he looked at the woman's lost and uneasy expression, he was certain about heranswer.She had thought of wanting me to die.Meanwhile, Kathleen could not explain her feelingseither.When she lost her child, she had indeed thought of wanting Samuel to die.If not because ofhim, her child would've been safe and sound.However, right then, when she saw the state Samuelwas in, she did not want him to lose his life.The internal wounds within her were not healed.Instead,they were buried deep within her heart.Despite that, she knew very well that she could no longeraccept Samuel anymore. Even when he was in his current state, she felt it was unacceptable.Thewoman started sobbing.It was too much for her to bear.She thought she could be cold-hearted, butupon seeing the wound on his body, she was caught off-guard and abruptly broke down.Samuelcautiously moved over to embrace her. “I'm sorry for making you go through so much."Kathleensobbed, “Samuel, things can't go back to how they were before. We can’t go back anymore. Nomatter what you say or do, there will always be a thorn in my heart. The closer you are to me, themore pain I would feel.”He stiffened.”It's too excruciating,” Kathleen choked out. “It's been a year,and I thought things would change. However, I realized nothing has changed at all."Samuel grew alittle panicked. “Don’t cry. I'm not trying to make you feel sorry for me. I'm really not."He truly wasnot trying to make her feel bad.It was just because she asked, and he did not want to lie to her.Hehad lost her trust before and said never to lie to her again.Unfortunately, he still lied to her oncemore, albeit it was eventually exposed by her.He lightly patted Kathleen's back, comforting hergently.That sense of helplessness and fear swept over him again.To be honest, he knew better thananyone that once they started to discuss the matter, he and Kathleen would not have a futureanymore.It was not that he wanted to give her up.However, he could not bear to see her goingthrough such a miserable time.He embraced the woman and carried her on his lap. Then, he toldTyson to get back into the car.The latter did not dare to ask any questions and only focused ondriving.Samuel did not say anything either. All he did was held onto the young lady in his armstenderly and cautiously.There was no other expression on his handsome face, but Kathleen, whowas in his embrace, had a very conflicted look.Soon, they arrived at their destination.Samuel askedTyson to get out of the car to make preparations.Kathleen had stopped crying by then. Sheremained silent while still snuggling in Samuel's arms.He gently stroked her head. “Did you bringyour makeup kit?"She nodded.He flashed a gentle smile. “Your makeup has smudged, you messykitten."Kathleen lifted her head. “Samuel, I—"He put a finger on her red lips. “Just indulge me thisonce, all right?"Samuel’s Adam's apple bobbed as he gulped. “I know what you want to say. Frankly,I didn't want to tell you about this at all because you're going to forgive me. Once you've forgivenme, you'll no longer hate me, and you won't have any feelings toward me anymore."She staredblankly at him. “You know me too well.”“Touch up your makeup first. The opening ceremony isabout to begin. After we settle the event, let's replace a place to talk about this, okay?” he askedhoarsely.”"Mm."The opening ceremony was a straightforward task.After Kathleen finished touchingup her makeup, she followed Samuel out of the car.She looked radiant and stunning as she carried aprofessional smile, behaving demurely.The way she held onto Samuel's hands was very natural aswell.Once the opening ceremony ended, a group of reporters came over for an interview.They fixedtheir eyes on Kathleen while asking, “Ms. Johnson, what's your current relationship with Mr.Macari?"Kathleen gave a confident and beautiful smile. “We're friends and working partners."Thereporters were astonished.Her lips curled up gracefully. “Nobody said a couple can't be friends aftera divorce, right? Moreover, Mr. Macari and I have moved on from our past. We will continue to lookahead in the future.”Samuel looked at her silently with an unfathomable gaze. That's good. She canlet go of the troubles in her heart and accept a new life. That's better than anything else.Thereporters wanted to ask Samuel more questions.However, his countenance, albeit handsome, was asscary looking as a Grim Reaper, and the reporters were afraid to ask further.The interview finishedshortly after.Samuel then led Kathleen to the hotel next to them to rest.He took her to thepresidential suite and said, “Get some rest. I'll be back later.”She hesitated. “Samuel..."He turned tolook at her.As she walked toward him, her dark pupils reflected the handsome man’s face.Samuellowered his head. He cupped her face in his hands and said, “Rest well. If there's anything, we'll talkabout it tonight."With that, he lowered his hands and left.Kathleen knitted her brows slightly. Whydid he leave in such a hurry?still, Kathleen rested obediently.After crying so much, she actually had aheadache.When she woke up from her nap, she was startled that somebody was sitting by thebedside and hurriedly sat up.Samuel grinned. “Did I scare you?"She nodded.He said in his solemnvoice, “I wanted to ask you to get something to eat downstairs, but I couldn't bear to wake you upfrom your sleep.”She pursed her lips.“Come and sit here. Let's chat.” The man pointed next tohim.Kathleen sat over to where he pointed with the blanket covering her legs, tilting her head tolean on his shoulder.He felt a slight clench in his heart.”l agree with what you said today about howwe should look forward. Nonetheless, it's easier said than done,” Samuel stated in his husky

voice Kathleen remained silent.”I've said in the car that I know you'll forgive me when you replace out Iharmed myself. Our love and hatred will be wiped clean. From today onward, you won't have anyfeelings toward me anymore.”“I'm sorry.” She gripped the blanket.”It's not your fault. We all have topay for our mistakes. Since I did something wrong, I deserve it,” he said self-deprecatingly.Her eyesturned red.”Katie, can you please call me Sam one last time?” he requested hoarsely.