Let Me Love You Again
Chapter 19

Nate

I went back to the office on Monday, after spending the weekend keeping images in my mind, images of me and Maya on the bed, on the table, and on the armchair. She kneeling in front of me, with my c**k in her mouth as she sent me into ecstasy, me with my face between her thighs.

Images that one after the other looked out like a river in flood, very tarnished by alcohol but there were, they were proof that it was real, what had been between me and Maya was much more than real.

Together we were a tornado, able to destroy everything in its path, and we were great, as I had never been with anyone else. I could not deny that I wanted her again, God, if I wanted her again. My whole body was still longing for her. It didn’t matter how many other chicks rubbed against me on Saturday night. My c**k had not yielded to anyone, as if it were now claimed as if it were written on it: OWNED BY MAYA SHEPPAR.

I must say that even my little interest in others had not helped. My coworkers said I was bad company on Saturday, not as usual.

Well, at least I went out with them, unlike Chris, who had locked himself in his apartment with the very small and inconspicuous Sarah Spring.

Looks like the wedding sparked. Chris spent the whole weekend with her and this morning I couldn’t help but notice the satisfied smile, as well as the sparkle in my colleague’s eyes.

God, I envied him so much.

All weekend, I couldn’t get anything. I couldn’t go to my sister and ask her for Maya’s number, she would cut my balls off before I even asked.

But that day, that day she would not have escaped me.

My sister’s office was right next to mine, and at that moment she was with Dad at a meeting with a potential client, so I walked up to the door, without being noticed, of course. I was the master of intrusion.

I opened and closed the door behind me.

There was a diary on her desk. I approached it and I opened it. For that day she had no plans but for the evening it was written only Axel all night.

Why does my sister have to keep Axel all night? Does Maya have an appointment? An appointment that could go on long? God please no.

She can’t have a date! Not when she and I… she and I what? We f****d for a whole night, nothing more.

But I wanted more!

I opened her desk drawer, and there I found him. Jess’ cell phone.

I turned it on. It wasn’t hard to guess the code. Either it was his wedding date or Andrew’s birthday.

Bingo

I went into the chat rooms and found the one with Maya. It was from the day before.

Maya and Jess were talking about the plus and minus, then Maya sent over a picture of Axel, and Jess asked if they’d have a girls night on Monday. Maya had replied that she could not because she had a night shift and would have to leave Axel at her mother’s, but Jess, the great and young Jess, had offered to take the baby and keep it all night.

Oh thank you, Jess, you’re so helpful sometimes.

I wrote down the number of little Maya on a piece of paper and went back to my office. Could I feel satisfied? Absolutely not. But it was a start. That night was supposed to satisfy me, and I wasn’t gonna stop at anything.

Maya

The night shift was torture. All the while, my body was clamoring for a warm bed, and a good night’s sleep, even though I took a nap before work and left Axel at Jess’s.

My shift ended at 7:00 and it was 3:00 in the morning. Luckily, now I had an hour’s break where I could go to the staff room to rest for a while.

I was no longer accustomed to certain hours, I was no longer used to working at night.

A yawn slid from my lips as I walked toward the small room. Luckily, they moved me to the NICU, so everything was pretty quiet.

I have to say, it’s post-partum hormones, but I didn’t mind the NICU at all. Being around all those women who were about to give birth to someone else, and helping them made me feel more useful. Then I loved to deal with children, and treat them.

My dream was to specialize in pediatrics but, unfortunately, I couldn’t. I don’t think that in the future I will have the chance to start medical school again, not with all the time Axel takes.

I couldn’t get to the room when my phone rang. I took it out of my pocket and noticed that I had received a message from an unknown number.

Are you having fun on your shift?

I squinted my eyes surprised, but I didn’t answer, I continued on my way until another message arrived.

You don’t have a ten-minute break, May?

What the hell is that?

Who are you? I answered immediately.

I’m your s*x dream.

He answered immediately. What the f**k.

Nate.

He added later.

How the hell do you have my number?

How the f**k did he get my cell phone number? It wasn’t the right time.

A true strategist never reveals his secrets.

Nate replied immediately.

So you’re a strategist now?

Oh, I’m a lot of things, May, and I’m ready to show you all of them.

Oh please shut up.

But tell me, do you have a break?

Of course, I have a break, I’m going to sleep right now.

Great. I’m out here. Get out.

What? Are you out of your mind? I’m not going out.

We need to talk.

No.

Maya, either you go out or I go in and I start looking everywhere, and I promise you I won’t be gentle at all.

I looked at the screen stunned. Damn him.

I took my sweatshirt and went out into the parking lot. There were a few cars but one was still on and I could gamble everything I could replace Nate in there.

I took a deep breath and walked toward him. You can do it, Maya. You’re strong, you’re smart. You can do it.

I just needed to set the record straight. The s*x was, I think, fabulous, but there’s no way it can happen again, so the sooner we get that over with, the better for everyone.

I got in the car and found him there. Sitting behind the wheel, wearing a sweatshirt and jeans that highlighted the blue of his eyes.

As soon as I got in the car, he turned off the engine and locked it. He laid a knee on the steering wheel and looked at me as I got comfortable, despite my heart beating wildly in my chest, so much so that it seemed like he wanted to burst from my chest.

Relax Maya.

He gave me a broad smile “Now we can talk” he said.