My Heart only Beats for You (Natalie Godfrey)
Chapter 1222

Selina consoled herself. Matthew had probably left early for work, which meant he was extremely busy. She should be understanding and not complain.

Erine put down the watering can in her hand. "Miss Whitlock, breakfast is ready. I'll serve it to you now."

"All right."

Walking to the kitchen, Erine served Selina scrambled eggs, French toast, milk and so on.

Selina took a sip of the milk and asked, "Erine, did Matthew manage to have his breakfast?"

"No. He left in a hurry this morning," Erine said.

Selina felt sorry for Matthew.

Matthew's work was so hectic, he didn't even have time to eat his breakfast.

"Miss Whitlock, what would you like to eat for lunch? I'll prepare it for you." Erine was busy clearing up the plates.

Selina laughed out loud.

"I'm still eating my breakfast. Why are you asking about lunch so soon?" Erine was embarrassed. "It's nothing, I just like to be prepared. Miss Whitlock, what would you prefer?" Selina thought for a moment before she replied, "Let's have Matthew's favorite dishes for lunch."

"Is he coming back for lunch?" Erine asked in surprise.

Selina shook her head. "He's so busy that he probably won't even have lunch. I will go to his office and bring him a lunchbox. Or else, his body might collapse."

Erine agreed with her. "That is a good idea, he tends to skip meals if he is busy with work. I'll hurry up and prepare lunch now. Miss Whitlock, you can send it to the office at noon."

At the office, Matthew had prepared official documents of estate transfer for all his assets.

It was impossible for him to betray Selina.

Yet, he owed Saoirse too much.

He had to make a choice between the two of them.

He could not be with Saoirse, but as compensation he would give up everything he had worked so hard to establish.

Matthew met up with Saoirse.

Saoirse's complexion was pale, and her eyes were puffy.

Liselle was standing aside, staring daggers at Matthew.

"Saoirse, I'll tell you the reason why I suddenly disappeared eight years ago." Matthew broke the silence.

No matter what, he had to explain to her why he left and disappeared without a trace eight years ago.

Saoirse nodded, her eyes red.

"At that time, I was on a plane to Glevania. The plane encountered strong turbulence, so all the passengers had to disembark using a parachute. When I jumped, my previous trauma overwhelmed me." Matthew paused.

Blood, bullets, and smoke appeared in his mind.

Even after all these years, he still felt a lingering fear when he thought about it.

"My brain instinctively blocked the painful memories from resurfacing." Matthew continued, "It may be difficult to believe, but I had dissociative amnesia. All my memories were still intact except for the memory of six months in Germany with you." "Is that what happened?" Saoirse murmured.

"Yes."

Saoirse did not doubt Matthew's words.

There was no need for this man to lie to her.

Moreover, she believed that Matthew was not a callous person. What he said at the moment was equivalent to giving her an explanation for his disappearance.

She smiled sadly. "William, I know why you selectively lost the memories about me. It's because we have nothing to remember, right? Although we were husband and wife, you don't have any feelings for me at all, do you?"

She stared at Matthew with her beautiful blue eyes.

Matthew could not avoid her gaze.

He lowered his eyes to hide his emotions. "I'm sorry."

Although Saoirse had already known the answer, it was still agonizing to hear it directly from William.

Saoirse felt that her heart was breaking into tiny pieces.

"William, what's wrong with me? Why do you not have any feelings for me?" Saoirse sobbed miserably.

Matthew could not tell Saoirse about Selina.

This would only cause her more pain.

He opened a briefcase and took out a stack of documents. "Saoirse, these are all the assets under my name. To show my gratitude, I'll transfer them all to you." Even though Saoirse was a noble, Matthew's assets were substantial as well.

But Saoirse did not even look at them.

Her sad gaze was fixed on Matthew, "William, have you ever loved me? Not even the slightest bit?"

"I'm sorry, Saoirse." Matthew repeated himself.

Saoirse suddenly covered her face and burst into tears.

She was devastated.

Saoirse did not want to cry in front of him, but she could not help it.

Matthew felt as if his heart was being stabbed.

He had never loved Saoirse, but she was still someone dear to him.

Back then, if it wasn't for Saoirse, he probably would have been dead long ago.

Furthermore, Saoirse had been loyal to him for so many years. He could not help but be moved.

His heart was weighed down by guilt towards her.

Matthew handed to her some tissues. "I'm deeply sorry, Saoirse."

He didn't know what else to say to comfort her.

Liselle interrupted in frustration, "Mr. William, can I have a word with you?"

Saoirse knew Liselle was going to give Matthew a piece of her mind, but she didn't have the will to stop Liselle. She was too overcome by her emotions. Matthew stood up and walked over to Liselle.

"Sir, you're just making things worse. Miss Saoirse doesn't need anything from you. She only needs you!"

Matthew grimaced.

Of course, he knew that this was not what Saoirse wanted.

But he did not know how else to repay her, other than giving her everything he owned.

"When Miss Saoirse rescued you

from the forest, did you know how

she pleaded for your life?" Liselle explained, "At that time, no one expected you to survive your injuries. Master Welmert was adamant on killing you, but Miss Saoirse knelt outside his door for days so that he would agree to the union."

"After you disappeared, Master Welmert was furious and wanted to send out a search party. It was Miss Saoirse that stopped her father again. She was concerned that you left due to her heart condition, and she did not want to be a burden to you. Even though she tried to appear strong, Miss Saoirse missed you all this while. I have seen her secretly looking at your photo in a daze, and she even cried under the covers at night!"

"Six months ago, Miss Saoirse finally

had a heart transplant. The first thing she did after recovery was to start searching high and low for you behind Master Welmert's back Mr. William, now that we have finally found you, how could you do this to Miss Saoirse?"

Matthew was dumbfounded when he heard Liselle's tirade.

He knew that Saoirse had sacrificed a lot for him.

But he did not expect how much suffering she went through because of him. He could never fully repay his debt to her for all that she had done.

Matthew walked slowly toward Saoirse.

He took a tissue and wiped the tears off her face. "Please don't cry, Saoirse."

Saoirse looked up at William with tearful eyes.

It was the first time William had been so gentle with her. This had never happened before.

Saoirse grabbed his hand.