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MY Possessive Mafia Men

Chapter 158: Simple And Efficient

Chapter 158: Simple And Efficient

Angelia

"At least stay for dinner, we are making lasagna." Andy said.

Usually, the mention of his lasagna would make me feel drool. Now, my stomach tightened into a hard knot at the thought of food.

I can make the salad?"

gaze narrowed as he looked at me, seeing something wasn't right. Maybe, my smile was too stiff or my voice was devoid of my real emotions. Whatever it was, it was tipping him off that something wasn't quite right. "Stop giving me that look, I

fine." I insisted.

am fine." I

"But you are not, not really." He interjected.

Fuck me for always wearing my heart on my sleeve. I never really could hide my emotions that well at least, not from those who knew me. "Yes, I am not fine but I am okay." I relented, Tam

"A part of me is still hurt over this whole thing and while I feel it is the right decision to take a break from them, it won't be easy."

No, it wouldn't be easy, it would be devastatingly hard. He nodded, believing me, when had I ever given him a reason not to? It felt wrong keeping things from me, it felt wrong to lie but I needed him to back off. "The choice is always up to you, girly and you know I will support you with whatever decision you make but maybe you should wait a few days and truly think it through. You don't have to rush, those men will understand you taking your time." He squeezed my knees in comfort. Just the simple touch made my eyes prickle with the need to cry but I blinked them gone. Shaking my head, my eyes fixated on the slight crack in the vase beside his television to keep the tears at bay.

"I have decided, it is already as good as gone."

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He didn't say anything as he let out a quiet sigh but he didn't need to. All he had to say was in that one exhale. You are making a mistake, that was what his inhale pointed at and my heart squeezed as if it was in complete agreement but my head, my head was staying strong because it knew it needed to be done.

"When are you going to tell them?" He asked gently.

I shrugged, feeling panicked. While I understood that I had to tell them, I hadn't actually thought about it. I didn't like the idea of facing them with my heart torn and maybe having to tear theirs as well. "Angelia, if you are sure of your decision, then you have to tell them. It is not cool to let them stress and wait around when you have already made up your mind." He lectured me in a gentle tone.

I know he was right but he didn't know that I wasn't ready to tell because I didn't want to take a break from them. It was all forced on me.

"You are right, I will text them that we need to meet up."

I just hope the creep doesn't get the wrong idea because if he or she thinks I am about to tell someone, then I am afraid of what they will do. I knew meeting them needed to happen but it didn't mean it was something I looked forward to. The thoughts of being in the same room as them, knowing it would be for the last time in a long while made the knot in my stomach tighten even further. But I smiled through it, feeling Andy's eyes on me. I might be an idiot, I might be making the biggest mistake of my life but I was okay with that because it meant I was keeping those I cared about safe even while it might be a foolish way to do so.

It all came down to selflessness or selfishness. Did I really want to take them back knowing full well that my actions could put them in danger? No, I couldn't.

I bit the bullet and texted them that I want us to meet. With that done, Andy stood up from the couch and extended a hand to me, pulling me up. "Come on, let's go make some dinner." He said it practically loud and a second later, I understood why.

James's head peaked out of the bathroom door, the sight of him trying to see if the coast was clear nearly made me smile. While I wasn't exactly ready to be alone in my apartment, it helped to know that these two love birds would get some alone time together without me sucking away their romance.

Cooking had recently become a new interest of mine or rather, cooking with a certain someone

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had become a new interest. It wasn't the same, though standing in the kitchen with Andy and James. The joy I had felt when Kingston gave me instructions wasn't there now. Instead, I felt disinterested as I started cutting up the salad because the fun had come from spending time with him, not the cooking in itself. Now it was more like a chore, there was no excitement in it. I wondered if it would always be like this going forward. Would everything I did, stuff I had done

with them only ever remind me of them? Would I be thrust back to the intimate moment I spent with Kingston every time I picked up a knife to cut some vegetables? Would my bed away remind me of the night Riccardo spent the night after he had worried for hours about me being safe? Would the taste of pizza bring back the memories of my first unofficial date with Marshall? We had been together for such a short period but in that time, they had taken place in my life, in my memories and thoughts. And in the innermost secret part of myself, I could admit they had a piece of my heart.

also taken a

"Shit!" I yelped, bringing my bl***dy finger to my lips and sucked on the sting. I had been too

stuck in my head to focus on the cutting.

"F***k, how bad is it?" Andy hurried to my side, taking in the droplets of blood staining the cutting board.

Not that bad, it feels worse than it is." Biting my teeth to stop cursing to the moon and back. I

accepted the the paper towel Andy offe

offered and pressed it to the shallow cut on my finger.

"I will go replace a band-aid for you." James said, he looked queasy at the sight of the blood seeping through the paper.

"Go sit down, I can finish the salad." He ushered me back towards the couch while Andy quickly returned to the pot, stirring it and making sure it didn't get burned.

"Seriously, it is fine. I can still make the salad." I protested without any real heat.

couldn't

I could replace it in myself to keep faking, little by little, I was falling apart. I just needed to get

through the dinner first and get home before the mask fell completely.

"You are not in the headspace and I for one will not have an accidentally amputated finger on my consciousness because I let you handle a knife." James said as he brought me a band-aid for Andy's first aid kit.

James and I had become fast friends and I feel we were bonded through his time with Andy. He had also been there for me these past days, mostly doing little things like making Andy's place clean before I moved in and how he let me have some time alone with my best friend. Seeing some sense in what he said, I finally nodded and let him get back to cooking as I plastered my finger, my mind already going back to my men. It hurt thinking about them but it was like I was 3/4 Chapter 158: Simple And Efficient

unable to not think about them. Yes, I was definitely not in the right headspace. I guess my mind found it easier to steer towards three of them instead of the unknown person that was a whole other problem. It wasn't ready to get into, at least the sadness would be something Andy expected as opposed to the terrifying fright I could feel lurking beneath my skin.

My phone vibrated next to my plate just as we sat down to eat. One look at it and I stiffened.

"Is it from them?" Andy paused with the spatula, getting ready to serve us some food and I nodded.

"It is

is Riccardo."

"Well, what are you waiting for? What did he say?" He prompted me. Swiping up to unlock my phone, I finally clicked on the message.

When and where? We will be wherever you need us to be at any given time, honeybunny.'

My eyes snagged on the word honey bunny, feeling my heart twitch just a little to let me know it was still hurting. The text was so short but so Riccardo, he always went straight to the point. Simple and efficient.

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