Rejected, My Jaded Love
Episode 38

My morning started early, but that is how training usually is anyway. I am excited to see how the training at Dark Moon differs from Stone Moon. I managed to hold my own, but I was almost dead last in everything. I guess because it was completely different from what I was used to doing. I guess I need to switch it up and do new things, so I don’t get in a rut. I am sweating with lines of it dripping down my face and getting in my eyes, making them burn a little. But I did it, and I didn’t throw up. So, I will count that as winning. We get both classes done and Tyler wanted to know if I wanted to practice phasing into my wolf and not shredding my clothes. Tate and Travis are not needed and head to the packhouse to shower and get ready for us to go out.

Tyler is patient and after a few tries, I have it. I did almost shred out of my workout gear, but I managed to stop at the last minute and stay clothed. I just had to focus on my clothes staying next to my skin almost like I was absorbing them into my body, and then when I phase back from my wolf, I need to imagine that I was wearing my clothes out with my skin as my body morphed back into my human form. It was hard for me to grasp, but after the third successful phase, I had it down and I couldn’t wait to show my friends at Stone Moon my new skill. Apparently, it is a benefit of being a white wolf, they won’t be able to do it, but it will help me out when I need to change back in a crowded area. I am super happy about it.

Tyle and I head to our room to shower because I need to go by Goodwill to pick up some jeans, and maybe a few t-shirts as my shirts are getting too loose. I am going to go ahead and use some of my money to get a few nightgowns some for here and some for me to have at Stone Moon as I think that the nightgowns will fit me better as I continue to lose. I go grab breakfast and meet up with my family.

Mom lets the boys know that she and I are going shopping, but Tate tells her that after yesterday’s incident of me being followed here, he, Tyler, and Travis will also be coming along. I roll my eyes and tell them that “They are probably long gone now” with Tate saying, “well if they aren’t, they are gonna wish they were”.

We set off and I ask mom to go by Goodwill first for me to check out the jeans selection. She smiles at me, and we head there first. I found five pairs of jeans, three in a size 10, and two in a size 12, as I am losing so fast, I knew I needed to get both sizes. I also got 2 belts in a size 10 to tie me over. I found three pastel-colored t-shirts with no stains on them. One in a baby blue, one in soft pink, and the last one was my favorite in mint green, with the tag still on it. They all looked like they had never been worn. They were a little tight as I held them up to me, but here in a week or two, they would fit just fine. We then paid for my stuff and mom was impressed with my haul and that I got it all for $35.00, and one of my pairs of jeans still had a tag on them showing $85.00.

We hit the shoe store up next, and everyone got a new pair of tennis shoes for training, I guess the boys needed some too. Since we were out, they took me to their favorite place to eat, I felt guilty because dad didn’t come, but they said we were going to take something to-go for dad, and that he couldn’t come because of a meeting that had been scheduled weeks ago.

We stopped at the local ice cream shop, and each grabbed a cone. I had been really watching what I had been eating but I had 2 extra hours of training last night and we were going out for a run tonight, so I got a cone too.

Mom wanted to stop by Target for a quick trip and thankfully the boys went to look at some items in sporting goods and electronics, so we had a few minutes to get me some new workout clothes two outfits to stay here, and two outfits to go back with me. I told mom next month if all goes to plan, I will pick out another color than just black next time, but black was slimming and I still struggle with body issues even as I get to a size 10. Mom grabs me a couple of sets of new underwear and gets three in a size 8, and three in a size 10 to tide me over. Thankfully the boys didn’t come back to us until we were checked out and were ready to leave. I think it was because mom told them we were getting underwear for me because they took off about 30 seconds after we entered the store and stayed away until we were ready to walk out the door. Mom shops quick like I do, we get what we came for and get out. About 8 minutes in the store total, even with checkout.

We make an online order for dad’s meal and pick it up on the way back home. He is done with his meeting and glad we had a good time and told me that he won’t make plans for meetings anymore on my weekend if it can be prevented. I understand, he is busy, and it is hard being the Alpha. Sacrifices need to be made and I am getting to spend time with him now, so I am happy. Mom shows me where the washers and dryers are located, it had 7 industrial Washers and 7 Industrial dryers, as well as the regular-sized units. I get my new clothes and my dirty clothes washed. This will save me time when I get back to Stone Moon, so maybe I can sneak in a workout with Brax or Mason because I can’t stay here as late as I wanted to, my brothers are going to escort me back, and them come back together when it is time for me to go. I already got my homework done for the weekend and I ask Tyler if we can go out for that run now? I don’t know the Stone Moon pack area that well back home so I only got out with Mason, Brax, or Dixon so I don’t get to run as much as I would like to, as I need an escort. I replace out that Dad and Tyler are going to run with me and Travis, Tate doesn’t turn 18 until Jun so he can’t run with us yet, but he already has Travis set to fail with trying to race me. I guess since I wasn’t successful with the first time sparring from last night Travis thought he was going to smoke me. We should have taken bets Travis would have lost. I run for about an hour and then ask Tyler if we could try again with the sparring on the mat. I want to try to get those moves down.

We head up to the gym on the third floor with mom and dad right behind us. They have a seat while the boys and I head to the mat. Tyler then explains it all to me a second time and then shows me the hand and foot placements again, and then the counter moves. I pay more attention today, as I was nervous yesterday. I am ready to try again. Tyler and I line up and he waits patiently for me to strike, I bide my time until I see an opening and take him down. I hop up screaming. I took him down. This is awesome and I do a victory lap around the mat. Tate laughs as he has never seen anything funnier. Travis high-fived me. I ended up getting Travis down too when I tried the second move out, but Tate managed to get out of my grasp when we fought, and I didn’t get him fully down on the mat. We all go to dinner and have a great time talking to each other. I hate that I only have one more day. I also hate that I will have to leave earlier than I anticipated because I will have to leave at 3 tomorrow, so they can escort me.

As soon as we get to the pack’s gate my brothers get off their bikes give me a hug and head back to Dark Moon. My world is sadder without them with me.