The Lycan Series
The Lycan King’s Breeder Chapter 20

Avalyn's

POV

After the night I spent with the king, I had expected to see him again or something, but I hadn't. He never came once to visit.

'Of course, he won't come. He has a freaking wife, Avalyn. My brain scolded me.

I was nothing more than a job. A tool he needed to complete his mission. I wasn't sure how I was supposed to get passed all this waiting, but eventually, I found small ways to entertain myself.

Art had become a big one of them, and when Dawn found out I loved to paint and draw, she made sure I had everything set up in my own private art studio -considering the music room was off-limits for the main time.

Days turned into weeks and before I knew it, I began to lose track of time, going through the same old routine of sleeping, waking up, and waiting for the day I'd eventually have to be tested by Lydia.

The vast green fields around the Southern Ridge pack were beautiful, the peaceful village could be seen from my high window in the pace, and the beautiful sunshine made everything upbeat and hopeful. I like to paint the woods and tree trunks the most, they reminded me of his brown eyes-

A sharp knocking at the door of the art room had me turning my head around to see who was there. To my surprise, Lydia stood in the doorway smiling at me. It had been more than a week since I had last seen her, when I had asked Dawn about her, she had told me how busy Lydia was these days. So it was a shock that I was face to face with her now.

"Hello, Lydia." I greeted softly as I dropped my paintbrush down. "How're you doing?"

"Oh, I'm fine sweetie. I should be asking you that, how're you?" Her chirpy voice responded.

But before I could say anything in response, she was already speaking. "I was just wondering if you would like to take a trip with me to the clinic."

Everyone here called Lydia's chamber a clinic, I found it really funny because that room was totally different from what we humans addressed as a clinic.

Panic filled me as I stared at her and her question sank into my brain. This was it, I knew exactly why I would be going to the clinic with her. I had been dreading this day since my night with Talon.

"Is... is he going to be there?"

"No, he's not." She answered, knowing immediately whom I was referring to. "The Alpha's busy at the moment. But the Beta will. He's going to come to meet us there. He needed to take care of something first, and asked me to come to get you."

A sigh of relief left my lips at the news. I didn't think I was ready to face him now. Lydia gave me a small smile, kind as always, but I was still a bit worried.

What would happen if I wasn't actually pregnant?

My hands instinctively went to my stomach. Please, God, let me be carrying his child.

I didn't want to have to go through the whole process again.... at least that was what my brain believed. I shook my head and tried to control my thoughts.

Moving from my seat, I joined Lydia and we headed down the hall, towards the pack clinic slash where Lydia spent all her time working. As we stopped in front of the doors of the room, my eyes stayed downcast to the floor. Lydia opened the door and ushered me into the room, she led me to the bed I had slept in when I had first arrived.

I wasn't sure what to expect, but when she pulled out a needle, my eyes widened.

"Hey Avalyn, calm down. We have to do a blood test, sweetie. It's far more effective than a normal pregnancy test." She must have seen the panic in my eyes when she brought out the sharp object. At her response though, I relaxed a little and allowed her to do what she needed to. I was only a short while away from replaceing out if a new life was growing within me.

Please be positive... Please be positive...

I kept on chanting in my head. I honestly didn't know when it had started, but the idea that a small life could be growing inside of me brought me a little bit of happiness. To Talon and Willow, even the pack, I was fulfilling a duty, my job... But as the days went by, it felt less and less like a job for me.

Maybe it was my mind trying to remain optimistic, but I didn't dread carrying Talon's child as much as I thought that I would.

As Lydia withdrew the needle and filled a small vial with the blood she collected, I sat back with a content smile, thinking about what the next few months would entail with me being pregnant. How I would feel the small child growing within me, every little kick and movement.

A short blond-haired woman knocked on the door, pulling me from my thoughts. I watched as Lydia handed her the sample and she left quickly.

The worry over the result made me even more unsure than anything. I couldn't stop going over scenarios in my mind as to what would happen if I wasn't pregnant, and what would happen if I was.

'Stop being so negative, Avalyn.' I thought.

'Everything's going to be all right.' I tried to assure myself.

"So, Avalyn," Lydia finally said, turning to face me with a smile. "How have you been feeling?" She asked excitedly.

"I'm okay, I guess." My response came out softer and flatter than I had meant it to, and she noticed. "Just trying to keep me busy"

"What's wrong? Are you not feeling well?" She asked, concern dripping from her voice.

I quickly shook my head. "No, it's not that!" I replied with just as much urgency.

"Well, what's wrong?" She asked again. "I am your Doctor, Avalyn, and if something's wrong with you, you have to let me know."

I hesitated, scared and unsure if I should talk to her. I didn't want to cause trouble for anyone by complaining, even though Dawn had assured me that I could since I'd be carrying their future Alpha soon enough.

"I just... I really miss going out, I was wondering if I could go to the village... just stroll around for a bit and get some fresh air."

As soon as I spoke, the door swung open and Greg walked in. He was a gentleman -as usual- and polite too, distant but safe to be around.

Shit. Had he heard what I had said?

Because I knew werewolves had super hearing. I didn't want to be a burden by complaining, and I didn't want Willow to get angry because of it, it had been her order to keep me locked up inside after all.

"You haven't been outside?" Lydia asked confusedly before turning to Greg. "Why the hell hasn't she been outside?" She asked furiously.

Greg was silent for a moment, looking between the both of us. "Luna doesn't want her to leave the building. She wants her close, I'm just following orders." Greg explained.

"Orders my ass." Lydia chastised. I gaped at her in shock. Greg was the Beta, I didn't know she could talk to him like that. "She has to get fresh air and sunlight, it's very important for her health."

I heard the disapproval in Lydia's voice and I clenched my fists nervously, I hadn't meant for this to become a big deal, and now I was filled with regret for bringing it up.

Greg sighed, nodding his head. "Fine, I'll let Willow know."

"I don't want to bother her, it's fine. I'll just open the windows like I usually do." I quickly sputtered, not wanting to cause any more trouble. I especially didn't want Willow to replace out I was complaining, giving her another reason to hate me even more. "No, young lady," Lydia said sternly. "You need to go outside and get some fresh air every day."

"Please -it's okay, d-don't say anything to her." I stammered out again, pleading with her to just let the matter go. Having Willow upset with me because I disobeyed her order was not something I wanted to experience. "Very well then..."

A knock sounded at the door, turning all of our attention to the blond-haired woman, she walked to Lydia and handed her a piece of paper before exiting again.

All three of us went silent.

I never knew my heart could flutter the way it did at that moment. I watched as Lydia looked over the paper with furrowed brows, then she sighed before looking up at me. I knew without words what the results were- "It's negative, no pregnancy yet," Lydia said, officially informing Greg.

Instantly, a part of me ached for the loss of something I never had. I didn't know if I was more disappointed in the situation, or myself. I should be happy, I knew I should be ecstatic that I wasn't carrying some Lycan king's child... but deep down inside of me, I felt like a failure.

Would the Alpha ever look at me again? What would happen to me? Willow would never give me a second chance... I would be killed.

The thoughts swirled around me, making me dizzy. I couldn't control the panic that flooded me and as it did, my breathing became heavier and I became more lightheaded. My hands instinctively reached out to grab the table beneath me as the tears pricked my

eye.

Lydia noticed my reaction and rushed over immediately, "Honey, it's okay. Deep breaths. In through your nose, and out through your mouth."

"Avalyn? What's wrong is she okay?" I heard Greg's voice sounding closer, but Lydia completely ignored him, not taking her eyes off me.

As hot tears began to flow down my cheeks, I felt shame wash over me. I hadn't been able to do the one thing I was expected to. I tried everything and I thought I was ready, but I didn't end up giving them what they wanted. For weeks, I had imagined being a mother, I had grown to accept the idea of giving life to a child. And now it was gone.

"Avalyn, sweetie..." Lydia softly wrapped her arms around me, "It's okay... it'll happen when it's meant to." She assured me.

Once I started to calm down slowly, Greg asked, "What do we do next, Lydia?"

"Well, it may take a few times, but we'll be able to analyze when her fertility is highest and pinpoint when the best time for her to conceive is," Lydia said, sounding confident, but it didn't make me feel better.

Wait a minute- A few times? Did she mean...?

She pulled back, smiling at me. She grabbed a paper cup and filled it with water before handing it over to me.

"We'll get her set up, then she and Talon would have to try again."

I stared at her in shock. What the hell was she talking about? I would have to sleep with him again.