Titans
[36] ATARA

I know what’s wrong but won’t admit it.

I’ve known all along yet I’ve hid it.

Well I did it. And now my blood is on fire,

my thoughts have gone haywire

and my heart is beating like it’s all fine.

Is it mine? Who am I?

The ship is not big enough when you’re running.

Space, once there, now missing;

a hallway you thought went on forever ends,

a back door you thought led to something more

reveals only a cupboard.

Look at all these rooms I thought remained to explore –

now all too similar, all too familiar,

rooms turned spotlights, turned jail cells.

I did this to myself – and what for?

I crash into the lab, throw beakers one by one at the wall.

The glass shards, like tears, sparkle on the floor.