True Luna
Chapter 8: Coping

Emma POV

I never thought I could feel this much pain and survive. My whole body is trembling, and my soul is in pieces. There is a huge hole in my heart, and I don’t think I will ever be able to fix it.

My mate doesn’t want me.

I am not good enough.

My brother thinks I am weak.

My mate rejected me. He will have a new Luna, and I will have to look at them every day.

I don’t know how I came home. I don’t remember the path. Pain clouded my vision.

I left Logan and Andrew in the forest, and I just started running away.

I couldn’t go back to the cave. I didn’t want them to replace it. It would mean that I wouldn’t be safe there anymore.

We always used masking spray before coming into the cave. But Andrew and Logan came close to replaceing it. I guess it was because of the mate bond. Logan could smell me better.

I started walking to my room. I shut the door and locked it. I didn’t want to see my brother. I didn’t want to talk to him. I wanted to be alone.

I laid on my bed and stared at the ceiling. I just wished I could feel numb. Not happy. I didn’t think I would ever be happy again. The best I could have hoped for was numbness. Maybe I would be able to achieve that. Maybe the pain would burn through my body tonight, and in the morning, there would be nothing left but numbness. Like poison. It burns, destroys, and leaves.

I heard my brother opening the back door and running upstairs. He tried to open my bedroom door.

“Emma?” he called me. “Emma, open the door, please.”

I stayed silent. I didn’t want to talk to him.

“Emma, please.” he said. “Let me explain.”

There was nothing to explain. I was a weak, small she-wolf, who could never be good enough to be a Luna. Or Logan’s mate.

Andrew tried to talk to me a few more times, but he gave up when I refused to answer.

I heard him sigh and walk away.

I continued to stare at the ceiling. What a way to end a birthday. My day started full of excitement, love, and new beginnings, only to end in pain and misery. I never thought it would happen like this.

I stayed up all night staring at the ceiling and wishing the pain would go away. It sort of worked. By the time I was supposed to get up and go get breakfast, the pain was better, bearable. Maybe I could tell that a small part of me was numb. That was a start.

I heard my brother wake up. He walked downstairs to the kitchen and started making breakfast. Half an hour later, I heard Sienna coming. A little while after, Logan arrived as well.

It was tradition for them. They always met at our house, had breakfast, and then they went and done their Alpha and Beta duties. Sienna just went around being a b***h to everybody. But soon she would have Luna’s duties.

I looked at my watch and saw that I had to be at the training ground in an hour. I decided to get ready and get there early. I couldn’t stand being in the same house as them.

I got up and hopped in the shower. I quickly got dressed and tied my hair in a ponytail. I looked in the mirror and my lack of sleep was clearly visible on my face. I sighed and unlocked my bedroom door.

I decided to leave through the back door, so I didn’t have to see anybody.

But my brother heard me.

“Emma?” he called me and came running from the kitchen.

I stared at him blankly.

“Where are you going?” he asked me.

“Training grounds.” I said quietly.

“It is early.” he said. “And Jacob is not here yet.”

There was a loud growl in the kitchen. Logan.

I ignored it and put my focus back on my brother. “I want to get there early today.”

“Oh. Okay.” my brother said nervously. “But you didn’t eat anything.”

“I am not hungry.” I said and walked through the door.

I closed them before he could say anything.

I walked over to the training grounds, and I saw that Jake was already there.

He saw me and gave me a confused look.

“Emma? What are you doing here? I was just about to go get you.” he told me.

Before I could say anything, he noticed how tired I looked.

“Emma?” he asked, worried. “What happened?”

“I am fine.” I said quietly. “I couldn’t sleep.”

“Why, beautiful?” he asked and wrapped me in his arms.

Goddess, why couldn’t he be my mate?

“I found my mate.” I whispered in his arms.

I felt him tense, and he pulled away from me to look me in the eyes. He left his hands on my shoulders, holding me tightly.

“Who is it?” he asked me. “And why are you so sad?”

I couldn’t answer him. Those words didn’t want to leave my mouth. I looked down at my feet.

“Did he…” he started talking, but he stopped himself.

I looked back up at him and nodded.

His eyes widened. “Oh, my Goddess. I am so sorry, beautiful. You don’t deserve that. Nobody deserves that.”

I smiled slightly and sighed. “Well, I guess it had to happen like that.”

“Who is he?” he asked me.

“Not now, Jake.” I said. “We will talk after training.”

He nodded and wrapped me in a hug again. He kissed my forehead and walked over to his training ground.

My whole training session sucked. I was so tired and distracted that I got a nice a*s whopping. By the end, I was covered in bruises and cuts.

Amy walked over to me with a frown on her face. “Emmy, you sucked today. What happened? Why were you so distracted?”

“I will tell you at the diner, Amy.” I said. “I need to go home and take a hot shower.”

“Okay.” she said, eyeing me up and down. “Are you sure you are okay?”

I nodded and walked away.

I just hoped that my brother wasn’t home. I didn’t want him to see me like this. It would only add to his belief that I was weak.

I was lucky. He was out. But a monster waited for me at my house. Sienna.

She was leaning on the kitchen counter when I walked in. She eyed me up and down and smiled wickedly.

“Well, if it isn’t the little rejected mate.” she said, smirking. “You know, I always wanted to see the face of a little b***h whose Luna title I would take away, but the fact that it is you only makes it better.”

I rolled my eyes and started walking upstairs. She ran after me and grabbed my hand, turning me around.

“Listen here, you little bitch.” she spat in my face. “I am your Luna, and you will not roll your eyes at me.”

“My Luna is Gloria. You are just a really bad replacement.” I spat back.

She slapped me hard, and I fell on the floor. I should have seen that coming.

She stepped on my arm with her heel. It hurt like hell, but I didn’t want to give her the pleasure of screaming. I looked up at her with a murderous look on my face.

“I can’t wait for Logan to mark me as his. I will kill you and make it look like you ran away to be a rogue.” she said quietly and walked away.

I slowly got up and walked upstairs to my room.

My life would be a living hell until Sienna finally ended me. I was sure she would make sure to torture and torment me whenever she had a chance to.

Even though Logan rejected me, she still saw me as a threat.