A Gold Alpha For A Silver Alpha
Chapter 16

Rae POV

-The whole herd bowed, bowing to our deity, the goddess Selene appeared before us with a human body, fair complexion, pale pink lips, her hair long down to her feet, white with grey highlights, of normal height, and her eyes like two infinite pits, of a litmus colour, very inhuman, something that was not of this world. Relate lost in the imminent memory, even with the passing of the years, his form was still clear in my memory, carved in fire, something as clear as if it had happened yesterday.

-The goddess took pity on her descendant, approached him, caressed his head, whispered a few words to him and at a nod from him, she approached me, took my hand and closed her eyes.

I sighed and in a reflex my fingers caressed my wrist, right where his fingers had been, my skin burned in that area remembering his touch, soft but rigid.

-I was blonde you know, my hair was as light as honey and my brown eyes brimming with strength and vitality, or at least that's what my family used to say.

My voice came out as a whisper and I cursed myself internally for sounding weak in front of him, I cleared my throat to regain my normal tone.

-Do you have any idea what happens when an immortal body touches a mortal one, it's not like the legends say, all that contained power, in contact with someone who wasn't designed to withstand it, is lethal? Jason inhaled heavily and for the first time spoke.

-That means...".

-Yes, I died, not from lack of blood, not from the wounds caused by Maurice, I died by the hand of the Moon Goddess, many would say that's not a bad way to die, but for me, it was a worse fate than the one I was suffering.

My breath hitched at the memory, my heart racing as my chest rose and fell rapidly, it was something I never experienced again after my heart stopped for that first and only time.

-I stopped moving, closed my eyes, and that girl, the sweet one, the innocent one, the one who blushed, the one who was loved and knew how to love, died.

-If you died that night, how is it possible that...?

-What did I tell you in the beginning?

I regretted having been so abrupt, but it was my nature, I sighed and stroked my temples, the tears I had shed a few minutes ago brought me a terrible headache, but I had to finish the story, he deserved the truth.

-When I opened my eyes again, everything was different, my body, I no longer felt pain, in fact, I no longer really felt anything, not even the breeze blowing, not even the cold of the winter night, my heart was beating regularly, but that was all, I felt empty, as if a black hole was slowly consuming me, sweeping through me.

-My hands moved, as did my legs, but it felt like something alien, I was lying down so I stood up, my eyes focused on my fingers, long and free of the calluses from washing clothes against the river stones for years, what surprised me most was my complexion, no longer toasty and warm, but white and perfect, like the skin of the river, but white and perfect, like a vampire's, that scared me and my look went beyond them, the place where Mikael's wolf was, was empty, scared I rushed forward, but I wasn't aware of my new strength so I ended up with my head crashing against the floor, It was a pretty hard hit, since I started to bleed, I felt a liquid that ran from my forehead to my chin, obviously my hand held there where I felt the wound sting, imagine everything that went through my mind when I saw my hand and I discovered that the place where there should have been red blood, there was a silver liquid, I stood up as I could, the clearing where I was, was surrounded by a big wall, that didn't seem to have a door, I started to scream, I screamed as if my life was going in it, even my throat burned-.

-In a few minutes a part of the wall fell, and the hope of seeing Mikael pressed my stomach, but it was not him, but his right hand, his Beta, who had an empty look, his shoulders were slumped, as if he was carrying more things than he could bear. I remember my voice, as a strange sound, devoid of emotions, I begged him to tell me where Mikael was, and his answer was the knife that twisted in my guts - I paused and sighed with suffering - Mikael gave his soul, to save my body and my mind, as a direct descendant of the goddess he would have lived forever if he wished, and if he died, his soul would go with the Goddess to eternal rest. But Mikael asked Selene to give me her immortality, turning me into a pure wolf, I don't know why the Goddess agreed, but she did. But as my body was not made for immortality I had to die first, to be "reborn" as a she-wolf, the days passed and my new strength was adapting-.

My hands caressed my arms, leaving goose bumps wherever they went, the sensation helped me remember where I was, who I was with. How much had happened since then and how much had changed.

-When I woke up, a century had passed since my wedding night, my husband's pack created a wall of silver, gold and iron around me to protect me until I was ready and could defend myself. I swallowed saliva because my throat was dry, and it only got drier by the second. Maurice, unable to replace my body or Mikael's, sought out my family in revenge and when they were all gathered together, my mother, my father, my sister with her children, my brother and his pregnant wife, he locked them in the house, and locked them in the house. He locked them in the house, and burnt it, they died screaming from the fire, and still not satisfied he devastated the village - My village, my home, the place where I was born. A place so remote and insignificant that it did not appear in the history books, only I would remember all those precious lives that once shone in that place- He took the girls and turned them into slaves, the men and women were his food and the children served in the castle, mistreated to death. He made sure my name and lineage were erased from the world, but he never believed me dead, not really after he saw me by accident at a celebration in a nearby village- I would never forget the fear that filled my body when I caught those red eyes staring at me in the dark through the crowd, I never ran so fast- Although it was only a glimpse, the thought that there was a possibility that I was still alive consumed him, so he hasn't stopped looking for me since-.

I knew that the Goddess Selene had asked me to teach Jason's pack a lesson for their arrogance. But now because of me, all the people he had worked so hard to protect were in danger because I had been running from my personal nightmare for decades. If only I were stronger and braver I would have stood up to the Blacks a long time ago. If I had done so now I wouldn't have to hide my partner in fear for his life.

-And that's my story, my life is a borrowed strength that can be taken from me at any moment, I live by the orders of our deity, I hide from one of the strongest vampires in history, and you Jason, you are my mate, I knew it from the moment I saw you in the mall, when you looked around without realizing that we were already there, lurking, I knew from that moment that I would only bring death to your pack and you, so I had a witch give me a position to hide my scent, I delayed the moment we met as long as I could, but it wasn't enough, you could smell me before I was completely hidden, you just couldn't identify me, when you touched me you broke the spell that kept me hidden, and well, now you know everything, the question is, what are you going to do now that you know the whole story?.

My last words came out as a sigh, I wouldn't dare to say it out loud, but a part of me begged him to stay by my side, to kiss me and promise me that we would never be separated.

As the minutes passed I realised that one of the reasons for not telling him the truth was that, hidden deep inside me, was the fear of his rejection, of his contempt, of his incomprehension.

And as if it were a silver dagger, the absence of his words shattered the heart that had not dared to love again until I met him.

That silence gave me the answer I needed.

Like darkness at dawn, I disappeared, so that no one would see me cry for my broken heart.