A Gold Alpha For A Silver Alpha
Chapter 28

Rae POV

Hot, I was very hot. My throat hurt like hell, plus my body felt heavy and sluggish. Actually the first thing I thought when I opened my eyes was that I wanted to close them again, if it was possible to go back to sleep for another hour, maybe two, a lifetime. The tiredness was sticking to my bones, but I was not a person who enjoyed wasting my time, that's why with all the heaviness I felt I tried to move away from that source of heat so I could start the day.

But some arms squeezed me not letting me go, I opened my eyes suddenly and I put my senses to work at a thousand per hour to try to decipher what the hell was happening.

The first thing I noticed was the fact that I was lying in one of the most comfortable beds I had ever known. The second thing was that I was wearing clothes that did not belong to me, indeed, they were clearly men's clothes. The third and last thing I noticed was the smell of the clothes, and not only that, the room in general, and specifically the source of heat that was glued to my back, holding me with his strong arms.

I turned my head and was stunned to see Jason asleep, next to him, his face looked relaxed, away from all the worries, he looked young, younger than he actually was.

He looks devilishly handsome.

I hear Luna's voice in my head.

I opened my mouth ready to wake him up and ask him what had happened, but a coughing fit attacked her when I tried to use her voice. Immediately waking up the male next to her.

Jason locked his golden eyes on her and released her immediately. A cold sensation lingered where her mate had been earlier, but before she could turn the pang of disappointment that came over her, she watched as Jason stood up to approach a low table in the centre of the room, on it a pitcher of water and glasses were set out, Jason unhesitatingly took a full glass and rushed it to his lips.

Rae felt her features twist in disbelief at Jason's attitude, since when was he so attentive to her in such details?

Slowly she sipped her water until the glass was empty, and when her mate asked if she wanted more she just shook her head, afraid she'd trigger another coughing fit if she tried to speak.

Still, she needed answers, and determined to get them, she surveyed the rest of the room in detail. She was surprised to replace a neat and tidy place. All decorated in shades of black, gold and brown. Her eyes stopped on what looked like a diary on a desk on the other side of the room. He tried to get out of bed to walk over there, but Jason grabbed his arm and shook his head.

-The pack doctor said you couldn't exert yourself much, so you can't get out of bed until further notice.

Rae's brow furrowed in annoyance.

She'd received far worse injuries, and she hadn't been laid to rest like a little princess.

She groaned angrily, swatted Jason's arm away and tried to get up again, a dizzy spell made her sit back down and close her eyes tightly.

By the Moon Goddess, why did she feel like her head was going to explode at any moment?

This time it was Jason's turn to grunt in annoyance.

-I told you you can't get up, I can get you what you need until you can stand on your own again.

Rae shot him a distinct look of disbelief at his words.

Did he want her to lie in her bed while he waited on her like a child, well she would soon replace out how much she cared about the doctor's orders.

With a look of pure defiance she threw off the sheets and stood up, walked a couple of steps and made it halfway across the room when her legs failed her and she fell. She cursed in her mind and closed her eyes waiting for the impact, which never came as Jason was already there, and had caught her before she hit the floor.

-By the Gods Rayna, I've never met a more foolish, stubborn, hard headed female in my life, I told you you weren't well, be a good nurse and stay where you're safe and I can take care of you.

Rae's eyes blurred with tears, safe? safe? take care of her? did he want her by his side?

She tried not to let the illusion she felt show on her face, when her mate tried to take her to bed she pinched his arm and shook her head, using her hand, she pointed to the desk.

Jason raised his eyebrows doubtfully but didn't ask any questions, with her in his arms he headed there. She stretched out her arms to reach for the agenda and a pen. Once he had accomplished his goal he nodded to the bed with a clear indication to take her there.

A smirk appeared on the male's lips.

-Someone here is very used to giving orders.

Rae snorted and rolled her eyes as she pinched him again. I jumped a little when she felt Jason return it to one of her legs. She eyed him reproachfully but her mate didn't even flinch at his murderous stare.

He gently laid her back down, and that unknowingly broke the ice around her cold heart just a little bit.

With no time to waste and too many questions in his head, he looked for a clean sheet of paper to write on and wrote down his first question.

What happened?

Jason read the question and squirmed uncomfortably.

-What's the last thing you remember?

You and I arguing after we killed Maurice.

He jotted it down quickly and showed it to him. Jason cleared his throat and took a sharp intake of breath before answering.

-We argued about us. I told you it was over and we needed to talk, you replied that it was only going to be over when you had Alexis's blood running through your fingers, then you beat me unconscious, I know from the others that you went looking for her all over the pack. You threatened Lissa and attacked Noel to replace out her whereabouts and get to her. When I woke up I immediately ran out to stop you, when I saw Noel trying to stand up badly wounded I went crazy, my wolves and I helped him and we entered the house, you were climbing the stairs to the basement where Alexis was hiding, you were full of blood, with an irritated look and the body of one of my men unconscious in your arms-.

I narrated with a hoarse voice, and little by little the images crossed my subconscious. The horrific scene I witnessed in the dining room, in the basement, how I opened my wrist to save the wolf's life, the guilt of seeing the blow I gave Jason, the look of hatred he gave me when he was informed that his mistress and puppy was missing.

How he had lashed out at me and tried to kill me, almost succeeding.

-From the look on your face you don't need me to tell you what happened next. He said to me in a low voice.

Gods most holy, he was about to kill me, I saw it in his eyes, he was really going to break my neck. My eyes filled with tears, what was he going to do to me, with a demon, what was I going to do, if I had found that woman I would most likely have ripped her throat out with my teeth. The thought of taking the life of an innocent baby made me retch.

What would Mikael think of me if he saw how I had been behaving, he wouldn't recognise me.

Tears began to slide down my face.

L-0-0-0-0 s-s-s-s-i-e-n-n-n-t-o-0-0-0-

I said with pain and regret. Jason watched me in horror as I shook my head.

-No no no no no, the one who should be apologizing is me, not you, beautiful Rae, I haven't stopped screwing up since we met, I've been stupid since I found out we were mates, and I won't have enough time to apologize for leaving you alone and not supporting you that afternoon when you told me the whole truth. Or when I found out I was going to have a puppy and didn't tell you out of fear and dragged your Beta into my lie. Or when I had the stupid idea of rejecting you so you could regain control of yourself. I remembered with regret how Noel had tried to tell me that very thing when I attacked him, how I hadn't wanted to hear it, it was so easy to think the worst of my mate. I went back to writing, trying to capture in a few words how bad I felt.

Forgive me too for not wanting to listen to you, for acting as I did when I found out, for trying to kill a puppy, who in spite of everything, is innocent and not to blame for the mistakes of his parents, and he is not just a puppy, he is your puppy and if you want him, I will learn to do it too.

The eyes of the beautiful male in front of me filled with tears as he finished reading what I wrote. He gave me a smile full of hope and love, which I returned. -Will you stay with me?

He asked full of illusion and fear to hear my answer.

I wanted to say yes, but what about my pack, my family, we had never settled in one place, and our duty to our Goddess meant we were always on the move.

A weary sigh left my lips, I really wanted to stay, what had the Goddess given me another mate for if not to love and be loved?

The illusion was dying on my mate's face, giving way to panic.

-Please don't leave me, I know I don't deserve it, but I couldn't bear to lose you too.

He said with heartbreaking pain.

I bit my lip and nodded to him to explain what he meant.

He closed his eyes and rubbed his face with his hands, when he looked at me again a look full of sadness and nostalgia made me shudder.

-Vera Alpha, you've told me your whole story, but I'm afraid I haven't been so honest with you.

I raised an eyebrow and waved my hand for him to continue.

-You see, I wasn't born an Alpha, I was transformed into one by a witch, in gratitude for saving her life.

My mouth hung open, for Selene, why the hell didn't I know that, I narrowed my eyes as my mind worked at full speed trying to remember everything I knew about Golden Moon.

They were a pack with many enemies, they weren't very strong and were practically invisible, their Alpha was selfish and overbearing, he never bothered to form the right alliances. I tried to remember how Jason had come to command, but I was surprised when I realised that I didn't really know, I had only assumed that he was the son of that Alpha and that he had inherited the position like everyone else. With determined hands I wrote down my next question and showed it to him.

What about Alpha Perseus?

Jason's eyes filled with hatred at the sight of the written question.

-What I am about to tell you is not only the story of how I became Alpha of this pack, but it is also the truth of how we got rid of a monster that kept us oppressed and in near slavery. It is the story of how we fought for a better life and also of what we lost in order to have it.

He bit his lip as he said that and let out a gasp.

-It's the story of how I too lost my first mate to a being who hated me and how I could do nothing to stop it.

Now it was me who let out a gasp without being able to help it. I didn't understand anything, Jason had had another mate, and she had been murdered, slavery, that had been forbidden and punishable for centuries.

The pain I felt in my mate's soul threatened to tear me apart.

There was so much I didn't know and I didn't like the feeling of having remained ignorant of something so important for so long.

I rushed to take the hands of the male in front of me between mine, and squeezed them in support.

He had already listened to me, to my story. Now it was my turn to listen to his.

I only hoped that nothing would go wrong as it had when I had told him everything.

So with love and patience, I waited for him to be ready to bare his soul, just as I had done on what seemed like thousands of nights before.