Alpha Alexa
Chapter 83

Alexa's POV

I had yet to have a good night's sleep. My dreams were haunted by me killing my family. I relive it every night. I try not to wake Colter up with my nightmares and sometimes I am successful and sometimes I am not. I replace myself taking naps throughout the day to compensate for the lack of sleep at night. Like right now, it was just after lunch and I couldn't keep my eyes open. Julian was making Nicki his Luna tonight and also his wife.

I am so happy they found each other and the fact that Robert had a spell put on her so that her wolf was weak so that she couldn't sense her anymore and wouldn't be able to recognize her second chance mate. He said he did it so that when she found her second chance mate and if he was strong he wouldn't know and wouldn't attack him in return. When he marked her it broke the spell and they were able recognize each other. Although she hasn't marked him yet but I think that will probably change tonight. I walked up to our room and crawled into our bed. Colter was hanging out with Julian this afternoon. I pulled the blankets over me and was asleep within seconds.

"Alexa, is this the wolf that you have mated to?" My dad asked

"Yes, now untie him and leave us alone."

"No, my daughter will not be mated to a low-life Omega. You will reject him."

"No, dad I will not reject him. He was chosen for me by the moon goddess."

He walked behind him and let his claws out and put them on his neck and pierced his skin lightly.

"Either reject him or I will kill him, the choice is yours, Alexa."

I looked at Mateo and tried to convey how sorry I was. I didn't want to do this. I just wanted to live my life with him.

"Alexa, reject me. I know neither of us wants this but please just reject me. I don't want to die."

"See daughter he is weak. You need someone strong to protect you."

Jade was crying in my head. She knew that my dad would kill him if I didn't reject him. We already loved him. It was the magic of the mate bond. It made you love them instantly, and the force of attraction that was there was amazing. I was openly crying now. I didn't want this. "Please dad, don't do this."

"No child of mine will ever have a weak mate."

"Your brother went through this as well. Do you think that Aubrey was his fated mate? At least he didn't cry like a little baby and just went through with it."

My father was truly a vile man. If I could overpower him, I would. I hated him. I hated my whole family. I had to get this over with before my dad killed him. I knew he would if I didn't hurry.

I stood up and squared my shoulders but continued to cry, as my wolf was too. Her emotions were pouring out of me, and I couldn't stop it.

"I Alexa Silver, of the Silver Moon Pack, reject you Mateo Black of the Silver Moon Pack."

He let out a scream as his bond with me broke. He had to accept my rejection and reject me back in order to break my bond, and I had to then accept it to break it fully.

"I Mateo Black of Silver Moon Pack.......

He didn't finish the rejection, and I looked up to see why. When I met my dad's eyes, I knew this was over. He was going to kill him either way. He had tightened his grip on his neck, and his claws had dug in deep enough that he had blood oozing out of his neck. "Alexa, this is on you. If you had just rejected him like I told you to first time, I wouldn't have to do this."

He ran his claws around his neck and ripped out his throat. I felt the bond break immediately. I fell my knees screaming. The pain in my chest was unbearable. I was trying to take deep breaths to fill my lungs, but it wasn't working. Jade was crying uncountably as well. I couldn't breathe, and blackness was clouding my vision.

"Dad, why did you kill him?" I managed to croak out.

"Because you're weak and would have gone back to him."

They all walked out of the room as I lay there.

"Princess wake up. You're having another nightmare." I could hear Colter yelling at me but I couldn't wake all the way up.

"Alexa, you have to wake up," he yelled again and began shaking my shoulders. This brought me all the way out of my sleep.

I looked up at him and he looked scared. I could tell that I had been crying in my sleep again.

"I am sorry. I didn't mean to scare you." I told him as I got up and headed into the bathroom.

"Wait, Princess. We need to talk."

"What?" I turned to him.

"We are going to head home tomorrow morning and you will see a counselor as soon as we get there. You can't keep doing this. It's getting worse."

"I know."

I turned to go take a shower and get ready. I didn't have the energy for this but I had to attend. I stepped into the shower and washed my hair and put some conditioner in it and washed my body. I wasn't ready to get out yet so I sat down and just let the hot water hit me. The guilt of killing my family was catching up with me and eating me alive. I was doing ok until I killed Robert. I know that they deserved it but I couldn't move on. I was crying again. I let my guilt consume and the tears fall. I could feel the water getting cool but I couldn't bring myself to get out yet. I don't know how long I sat there for but the shower door suddenly opened up and I was pulled to my feet.

"Oh Princess, let's get the soap out of your hair and we are going to go home right now."

"No, we have to stay. I will be fine."

"You are far from fine."

"I will be ok for tonight."

He started to rinse the conditioner out of my hair and then turned the water off. He grabbed a towel and wrapped it around me. I stepped out of the shower and grabbed another towel and wrapped my hair up. I went to the closet and grabbed my dress and heels and put them on the bed. I grabbed a black Lacey thong and matching bra and put them on and walked back to the bathroom and blew my hair dry and then straightened it and then put my makeup on and walked back out put my dress on and then my heels. "Wow princess, you look absolutely amazing."

"Thank you, you don't look so bad yourself," I told Colter.

He came over and grabbed my hand, kissed the back of it, and then led me out of the room. We walked down to the backyard and they had everything set up beautifully. Lots of twinkle lights and candles. They had red roses and white lilies everywhere. There was a stage set up to one side and to the other were tents that held tables and what I assumed was food.

Colt led us over to some chairs where we sat down and waited for the ceremony to begin. I rested my head on his shoulder and just let my mind wander and the next thing I knew the ceremony was over and everyone was clapping. I spaced out throughout the whole thing.

"Come on Princess, let's go sit down at our table and I will get you some food."

He led me to table and pulled my chair out and leaned down and kissed my cheek.

"I will be right back." He said and walked off.

Aubree was sitting there as well, but she didn't say much. Pretty soon Colter was back and placing a plate down in front of me. I didn't hear him come up and it scared me a little bit.

"Thank you."

I took a few bites and it was good but I wasn't super hungry. I just pushed food around my plate.

"Princess, do you want to dance with me?"

"Sure."

Colt took me out to the dance floor and pulled me into his arms and held me as close to him as I could be. Hisparents scent was making me relax a little and feel a little better. I let him take me around the dance floor until the song ended. "Come on Princess we are going home. You don't need to be here," he leaned down and whispered.

We started to walk away and he took us over to Julian's table.

"Congratulations. I need to take Alexa home."

"Is everything OK?" Julian asked.

He didn't think I was paying attention because I had my head on his arm and not really looking at them.

"No, she is struggling with her parent's and brother's deaths and I think she needs more help than I can provide her right now."

"Let me know how she is, please."

We walked away and went straight to our room where Colt went through everything and had it in our bags in about five minutes and we left. He must have mind-linked Mac to let him know. We walked out to the truck and loaded up. He pulled me into the middle and I laid down against his arm and let sleep take over again.

The next thing I know Colter is pulling me out of the truck.

"I am so sorry," I mumbled into his chest as he picked me up out of the truck and started taking me upstairs to our room.

"Princess you have nothing to be sorry about. I just want you to feel better."

He had made it up to our room and placed me in bed and crawled into bed with me. He pulled me to him and I just let sleep consume me again.

I woke up the next morning with the sun shining into our room. I reached for Colt but he wasn't in bed.

"Where are you?" I sent him a mind link.

"I am in my office, sorry I will be right up."

He cut our link and I just pulled the covers back over me. It didn't take him long to get up to our room.

"Sorry princess, I had to do some paperwork and wanted to let you sleep as long as you could." "Thank you. I feel better."

"You need to see someone today and talk to them and also your biological father is here."

"Have you met him yet?"

"No, I was waiting for you."

"OK, I am going to shower, and then we can go to your office."

I rolled out of bed and then realized that I was still wearing the dress from last night. I was really out of it last night. I continued to the bathroom and turned the water on then slipped out of my clothes and stepped into hot water.

"I am sorry girl. This is my fault. I just feel guilty but I know it was needed or else I wouldn't have been able to show myself," Storm linked me.

'No, it's my fault I am the softer one of us and I should have prepared us better," Jade said.

"Girls, it's no one's fault we feel this way. We will feel better, I promise," I linked to both of them.

I cut our link and finally stepped out of the shower. I dried off and wrapped my hair up and walked to the closet and grabbed some leggings and a crop top. I wanted to be comfortable today. After getting dressed, I walked back out to the bathroom and ran a brush through my hair, and walked back out to our room where Colter was waiting for me.

"Princess, are you ready to meet your real father?"

"I guess."