Alpha Queen
Chapter 100

Liviana’s POV

I could only feel the air on my fur until I blacked out completely when I felt the unbearable pain shot through my body of my fall.

It was painful.

The worst kind of pain that I’ve ever felt in my entire life.

I couldn’t bear it.

Right then and there, I knew.

Death.

I gasped when I opened my eyes and saw myself in an familiar place.

Then, I looked around.

The meadow.

I’m in the meadow.

I sat up.

I was shocked that I didn’t feel any type of pain in my body when just moments ago, I was in unbearable pain.

I stood up as I looked around.

“Goddess! Moon goddess!” I called out helplessly.

I felt so lost.

“Please! Moon goddess!” I kept calling out in panic.

“Moon goddess, where are you?” I shouted as I looked around me.

I felt alone.

“Mom?” I tried to call out to my mom.

Maybe she’s here.

“Mommy? Are you here?” I shouted out.

I needed someone.

Anyone.

“Liviana”

I turned to look and saw the moon goddess.

I immediately ran up to her as she caught me in her arms in a warm embrace.

“Oh dearest child” she cooed as she held me in her arms.

I cried.

“I’m dead. I died. I felt it and it hurt. It hurt so much” I sobbed as she caressed my hair.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry” she said as she whispered other calming words to me.

I kept crying and crying.

I was terrified.

I’d never felt such kind of pain in my entire life.

“I thought I could change it. Why couldn’t I change it? Why?” I cried helplessly.

I felt so weak.

So wronged.

“I couldn’t even say goodbye” I sobbed.

“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry, Liviana” the moon goddess said.

I looked up at her.

“Why did you lie to me?” I asked innocently.

Her eyes softened as she cupped my face.

“I never lied to you, Liviana” she said.

“But why did I die?” I asked.

The moon goddess shook her head.

“You’re not dead, Liviana” she said.

My eyebrows furrowed confused.

I was sure I had died from that fall.

So what did she mean?

“You’re still alive but your soul must remain here with me for now” she stated.

I looked at her confused.

“This is part of your fate. Your destiny. This is just another part of it that you must face on your own” she told me.

“I don’t understand” I said and she held my face.

“You will remain here for the time being. You will return when you are ready” she said.

“What am I supposed to do here?” I asked.

The moon goddess looked somewhere and I followed her eyes.

Then, I saw Amaris with my mom.

“Amaris! Mom!” I said as I ran up to them.

I hugged Amaris as I looked at her in worry.

“Are you okay?” I asked her.

“I’m fine, Liviana” she answered me as lightly nudged me.

Then, I looked at my mom and hugged her.

She wrapped me in her arms protectively.

“How are you feeling?” my mom asked with a worried look as she cupped my face.

I teared up.

“It hurt” I said.

“Oh my poor baby” she said as she hugged me tightly.

“You must have been terrified” she cooed and I nodded.

My mom calmed me down while Amaris rubbed her on on my leg soothingly.

After I calmed down again, the moon goddess approached us.

“You’re going to train here for the time being, Liviana” the moon goddess said.

“Train? Train how? Wouldn’t it be beneficial if I do it in the real world?” I asked curiously.

The moon goddess shook her head.

“You may be alive but your body is in a very critical condition. It will take time to heal. And also, you’re not gonna go through with your usual training” she said.

I looked at her curiously.

“Then what am I training for?” I asked.

The moon goddess glanced at my mom and Amaris then at me.

“Before any of that, I’ll let you roam around first in this realm with your mom and Amaris” she said.

I sighed and nodded.

The moon goddess left and my mom and Amaris came with me to roam around the realm.

It was beautiful.

But my mind was somewhere else.

I suddenly disappeared from my own territory.

I can’t even imagine the panic everyone must be feeling.

I couldn’t even reach out to anyone.

I just suddenly disappeared.

Then, there’s Ellie.

Ellie.

I stopped and froze in place.

Mom looked back at me.

“What’s wrong, sweetie?” she asked worried.

“Ellie. They took Ellie” I said.

Mom came up to me.

“She’s safe, Liviana. Ellie is back home safely. They only targeted you and returned Ellie unharmed. They used her to distract everyone and to lure you out alone” my mom explained.

I sighed in relief.

I can never forgive myself if anything happened to Ellie just because they were trying to get to me.

I looked at my mom.

“H-how is everyone?” I asked her.

My mom sighed.

“They were all in chaos. Ellie came back but you didn’t. Everyone was worried sick about you and they were searching for you everywhere” mom told me.

I gulped.

“Even dad?” I asked and she nodded.

“Yes. Even your dad searched. Luan told them as soon as no one could contact you” she said.

I bit my lower l*p.

Oh ghad.

“Don’t worry about your father, Liviana. As far as I know, he’s well protected and looked after even by everyone around him” mom assured me.

“How about Luan, mom? How’s Luan? And by the way, why are you saying these like it’s all in the past? Have they stopped searching?” I asked.

Mom looked at me with an apologetic expression.

“It’s not like that, Liviana. It’s just…” mom stopped as she reached out to hold my hand.

“Honey, I’m sorry but the moment you came here…” she said and paused.

“The moment you came here, the mate bond between you and Luan broke off. I’m sorry” she said and my knees weakened.

“What?” I muttered confused.

I felt like someone was crushing my heart inside of my chest.

“You died momentarily, Liviana and… the mate bond broke then and there” she said as I fell to my knees.

Tears started streaming down my face as I held my chest.

I shook my head.

This can’t be.

“Everyone thinks you’re dead now. When the mate bond broke, it reflected on Luan and everyone including him. They think you’re dead now” mom explained.

“They’re still searching for you. But they’re probably searching for your dead body because they think you’re…dead” she said and I kept shaking my head in denial.

“But I’m alive” I cried.

“The moon goddess said I’m alive” I kept saying.

My mom hugged.

“I know, honey. I know. And you are alive. Well, barely. You are still in critical condition and recovering” she said as she caressed my back.

“Then why did the mate bond broke off? I’m still alive, aren’t I? And why is everyone expecting me to be dead? Why?” I broke down.

Even I know that I don’t deserve this.

For someone who is supposed to be the salvation of everyone, I’m being treated like I did an unforgivable sin.

I feel like I’m being punished.

“Why is this happening to me?” I said as I cried.

“Why do I have to go through such extremes?” I kept ranting.

“Wasn’t losing you and dad not enough? Was being clueless of my real identity all my life not enough? Was being constantly doubted not enough?” I shouted in frustration.

“Why do I have to be taken away from everyone whom I value? Why do I have to lose the person whom I already learned to love with all my heart?” I sobbed in frustration.

“What’s the purpose of it all? What’s the purpose of giving someone to me if you’re going to take them away anyway?” I said as tears continued to stream down my face.

“We went through so much together to be where we were. Why does this have to happen?” I cried.

My family…

Luan…

“How would he feel? How would they all feel?” I said.

How would Dad feel?

We only just met and he already lose me.

Again.

How would Pa feel?

He spent all these years raising me only for me to end up where I am right now.

How would uncle Dante feel?

He treasures me so much and did his everything to protect me while putting his own safety on the line.

How would Edmond feel?

He saw me as his own family and guided me through a very challenging time in my life.

How would El feel?

I’m his best friend. The person who he spent all his life with.

How would Ellie feel?

She’s too innocent. She wilk never understand what happened to me. She’ll look for me everyday and think that I left her.

How would Blake and Katie feel?

Their bestfriend is suddenly ‘dead’. They didn’t even know what was happening and yet…they had to hear the news of my death.

Why?

Why me?

Why does it have to be so complicated.

Is this how death feels like?

I feel so miserable.

“Liviana”

I looked up and saw the moon goddess.

I bit my lower l*p.

“Why me?” I questioned and her eyes softened at me.

“I’m sorry” was all she said.

I continued to cry.

I hate this.

I hate this so much.