Alpha Zander
Chapter 27

Anger.

That is all I felt right now, the pain from his actions had gone long ago, now just a memory of what happened.

He didn’t deserve to be my first k**s, he didn’t deserve to be my mate. Not with how he was flaunting himself around everyone.

Kia didn’t say anything while my mind was in this mess, we agreed if he cheated or something on the same path he could be rejected.

I didn’t think he would, especially on the evening of my birthday what he said, was none of it true?

I’m surprised she didn’t stop me when I tried to reject him instead she just stayed silent letting me make the decisions on our mate.

I knew she was hurt by his actions, probably even more so the fact Jace allowed him to do such a thing, but she hasn’t said anything to me since arriving at the cottage, even on our run here she was silent mulling over her own thoughts and emotions.

I honestly wasn’t expecting him to come after me, but Kia chose to come here while running, to our surprise he arrived 20 minutes after, of course, I was still a blubbering mess when he arrives and then he goes and says stupid things that make me do the one thing I feared he would do to me.

For him to think it was ok in kissing me like that, I was beyond furious.

I got up and stormed towards the back door I had come in.

“Sweetheart, please, wait.” I heard him beg behind me as he scrambled up off the floor.

I was too far gone, Kia bubbling to the surface, and my anger swelled around me.

I grabbed the door handle nearly breaking it off the hinges as I flew it open storming out to the back garden towards the forest line.

Just as I went to shift again he grabbed my hand and spun me back around to face him, he pulled me in with such a force that I slammed back into him hitting his hard chest.

“Just one minute, please” he softly whispered, dipping his head into my hair and holding me tightly.

I tried to wriggle free, hitting his chest as hard as I could but he was not letting go, he didn’t even flinch or move against my struggle.

“Zander, let me go now” I growled

“No”

Struggling against him for a few more seconds I slowly gave up melting into his hold leaning my head against his chest. With him being this close it was starting to have an effect on my emotions, whether it was the bond helping me calm down or him just holding me the way he was and being all up in my space. I was slowly beginning to lose the feeling of anger and melting into him, not wanting to let go.

“I’m sorry” he whispered again, still holding me tightly, we haven’t moved or said anything in the last 5 minutes,

I was not going to be the first person to talk.

My eyes closed and I breathed in his scent. I didn’t want to remember the pain, I didn’t want to ever experience it again.

“Do you understand the pain that caused me, you going against our bond?” I asked him.

I opened my eyes and looked up into his beautiful hazel eyes seeing a swirl of emotion that was guilt, hurt, and a little bit of uncertainty.

Good at least he knew the consequences.

“It felt like my entire body was on fire, Everything was in pain. Everything ached and burned I never want to feel that pain again, I can’t ever go through that and that was only a k!ss. So you need to decide right now if this is something you can commit to or we need to part ways and leave it be” I told him sternly looking into his beautiful eyes.

I felt him tense at the last part, I tried to reject him before. Clearly, he didn’t want that so he needed to make a choice right now, his past life with flings and one-night stands or me, us, a future that could be.

“I never wanted to hurt you, l’m sorry I caused that, she just came onto me so quickly that I didn’t have any time to react. I didn’t know it was going to happen. I will never let it happen again.” He promised.

“Don’t promise something you can’t keep” I mumbled looking away frustrated, my eyes trying to replace something other than his confused ones.

“Look at me” he demanded grabbing my chin and moving it back to face him.

“You are the only one l want, when she kissed me, It felt like sandpaper everything hurt I never want to experience that again either, especially when I hadn’t even k!ssed you yet. You are all I want Ashleigh, You are my Luna and Mate, no one will ever replace you.”

I sighed and nodded closing my eyes, and leaning back into him.

“Where do we go from here?” I mumbled. Feeling slightly embarrassed about my behaviour.

“Back inside? I can show you around properly if you like, maybe we can clean a few things up or chill out?

I got the electricity working so the TV and stove should now work. I don’t know about you but I do not want to go back to school”

“Sure, that sounds nice” I smiled

He sighed and said, ” If l let go, you promise you will stay?”

“Yes,” I mumbled

He chuckled and slowly released me from the death grip he had on me.