Alpha Zander
Chapter 55

My body instantly yearned for her as I left our room.

Guilt consumed me as I remembered what a total fvckwit I was before. I’ll remind her daily how much I love her and show her what she means to me. I won’t ever put that doubt in her mind again. Never have l felt so f*****g scared when I thought I was losing her. Now I need to erase those memories, shower her with love and affection, and pray that she will forgive me.

Jace is pleasantly satisfied with this morning’s romp festivities and was eager to jump in the shower with her, but I thought maybe she would like some alone time before we head out to my pack territory.

Soon my pack will start the morning rounds with training and patrol runs. I was going to drive her around and show her what we did. From what Ashleigh told me, both she and Oliver participated in training and patrol.

Even if she is Luna, I’m sure she would be eager to see our facilities, although I wonder how she would react when she notices not many women train, if any at all.

I hope she is ok with that. It’s just how we have always been in a larger pack women haven’t needed to be taught training, they know the basics if there is ever an attack and get yearly training if they help look after any vulnerable people, but beyond that, it’s never been a big priority for us we always have guards or police around all the time and haven’t had any issues in the last fifteen years.

Dad hasn’t told me anything about what liver mentioned last night about some of the attacks, I hoped it was an isolated thing and nothing to do with shifters, but I suppose these days, it’s harder to tell. Then again, Dad barely shares anything with me regarding Pack business. He keeps that all between him and Jake.

I don’t know how he will expect me to run it if he isn’t going to be showing me anything before my initiation. I have done the Alpha Training, I have found my mate, and until | ‘finish school’, there isn’t anything else holding me back from claiming my birthright.

Part of me wants Dad to keep it for a few more years until Ashleigh and I have settled down and are ready.

Maybe we will travel for a bit, let her see the world and travel to America and Europe to meet some of our Allies, but I also know she wants to go to Uni. I doubt we would bể able to travel much until she finishes school.

By the time we had both had breakfast, we were ready to head out. I could feel her nerves.

I tried to send calming feelings to her through Jace, but that hasn’t settled her so far.

The more we connected, the stronger our bond would build, and after this morning, it felt so much stronger than it has in the last few weeks. It almost felt complete. I wanted to mark her this morning, which I nearly did at one point, but thankfully I could pull Jace back in line, and he allowed it this time.

Bringing her to the pack unmarked has him uneasy.

He doesn’t want others sniffing around her; honestly, I don’t blame him. I felt a little agitated about it, but l can’t force it on her and nor will l. She should have that choice, and until she forgives me, I won’t be able to forgive myself for what I did, and I won’t be at ease until we figure everything out. At least she will have my sent on her. That is the only thing keeping me sane right now, knowing that others will know she is mine.

I keep glancing over at her to try and spark up a conversation, but between her nerves and my own, the car is in uncomfortable silence.

I flick on the radio and try to replace a decent station before giving up and plugging in my music through Spotify on my phone.

The beat of Everybody Talks by Neon Trees flows through the car. Subconsciously my hands start tapping against the steering wheel to the music as I softly sing the words.

I feel her gaze on me as I’m driving before she asks,”

You like Neon Trees?” I glance back at her to see her astonished face darting towards the stereo and back to me again.

Shrugging, I say, “Yeah, they aren’t too bad. My phone has a random shuffle. I can pick and choose some music, but this one was a good one. It was suggested a while back.”

I used to hate how my phone would sometimes randomly shuffle some of the music, but I’ve gotten some good beets from them, so I can’t complain if they have broadened my horizon in music.

She smiles and starts singing along to the course,

“It started with a whisper

And that was when I k!ssed her and then she made my lips hurt.”

I chuckle, joining in with her singing. Before long, the uneasiness Iifts, and it seems to have relaxed our nerves for the time being. It’s nice to know that we have similar tastes in music. I”ll forever be taking note of her favourite songs so I can hear her sweet voice.

I feel her tense as I pull up to my border. I reach across and give her hand a comforting squeeze. I know she’s not technically from Liverpool anymore. However, the patrol team will be able to scent her arrival and will still be on edge, given that everyone knew who she was because she was Liverpool Beta Heir.

I linked Sal, letting him know it was just me and a visitor passing through, so he didn’t have to worry about checking in. No doubt he was going to confirm with Dad my story. He has to, or Dad will be pissed if l just show up at the pack house with her unannounced.

The further we move into my territory, the more uneasy she becomes. I hope this place will grow on her. I would hate for her to always be this unsettled. It wouldn’t be fair to her or our pack seeing their Luna stressed and worried all the time. Pulling up to the front of the house, she just sits there nervously fidgeting, something I’ve noticed the last few days when she gets nervous, she fiddles with something, either her hair, or something on her clothes, or her jewellery if she is wearing anything. I smile and take note to buy her a necklace or something that will help calm her nerves around here. I don’t want her constantly feeling uneasy.

This will be her home too.

I shut the car door before running to the passenger side and letting her out.

I can feel her anxiety has almost doubled since we pulled up. I’ve never felt her this nervous before. I pull her in for a quick k!ss trying to let the bond work its magic and help her calm down.

“Everything will be alright,” I whisper gently, pecking another k!ss on her forehead before embracing her, resting my chin on her head as she holds me tightly. I didn’t know what was wrong, I didn’t want to push her much to tell me, but hopefully, if she knew, I’d be here for her.

‘She’s nervous about meeting the pack as Luna and officially meeting your father as your mate mumbles, feeling his annoyance through me as though it’s the most obvious thing in the f*****g world.

I roll my eyes at his comment because part of me feels so f*****g stupid. Of course, she’s going to be f*****g nervous, but she has nothing to worry about. Jace

I swear Dad already likes her more than me, judging from how he reacted last night and the pack. Well, they will be ecstatic to have another Luna.