Alphas Deaf Mate
Chapter 118

Reins

After taking Autumn back to our room and showing her how Alpha I could be, Her words not mine,

No one stopped me or said a word as I carried her down the hall and right out of there I'm sure Doc would be calling saying that I needed to sign the discharge papers and how she isn't to be doing strenuous activity and blah blah,, I wouldn't ever do anything to hurt her or cause her pain, But my need for her was driving me crazy I almost took her there in the hospital room when I helped her change the full moon is tonight and it is definitely putting me on edge my desire to take her was strong even now that we lay here after taking her numerous time today I still wanted her, She was just as needy it was like neither of us could get enough of one another,

She had fallen asleep only about a half hour ago, I on the other hand, I couldn't sleep I kept going over all the things Ryker had said wondering how much of it was true and what was going to take place tonight once nighttime hit, Full moons alone make us wolves edgy and drive us crazy with l**t for others some of the pack members stay in others replace it relieving to go out and have a good time, but none of my pack get out of line and no one leaves the territory.

Looking down at my mate she was lying against my side head on my chest one arm draped over me she wiggled and nuzzled her face against me, she must have been dreaming cause her arm would tighten and loosen each time I would kiss the top of her head feeling her relax but not wake up.

"When do I get to spend time with her?" My wolf whines, and I just roll my eyes I was starting to get used to him piping in once in a while I swear he purred the whole time we have been in here it was odd at first because he kept pushing to come forward but I was able to hold him back,

"You will have tonight," I told him, "And besides arent you supposed to be bonding with Gem?"

"She won't talk with me she is blocking me,"

He sounded down you could hear it,

"Blocking?"

"Yes ever since the hospital she hasn't spoken to me I want to talk with her she is my mate."

I felt his pain he was trying to bond with Gem but she wasnt letting him,

"Give her time, She has been through a lot lately and her first mate just died I'm sure she feeling hurt a little, I know she is your mate now but from what I understand is the two didn't have a good mate bond and he did try to kill her how many times,"

I heard him whimper he pulled back not saying anything else. Feeling him hurt, hurt me as well he's been with me since I turned eighteen even though he wasnt able to communicate with me I could feel him there letting out a sigh,

"Gem," I called her, She didn't say anything I know she heard me I can feel she isn't blocking me,

"I know you can hear me Gem, Talk to me." Silent "Dont make me go Alpha on you, You know you can't stay hidden,"

I thought of the activities we did the last few hours knowing she can't ignore that I know what drives her crazy,

I watched as Autumn's hair changed colors I knew her eyes were crystal even though they were still closed Autumn dont have to be awake for Gem to speak to me or me to her,

"That's not fair Reins," Her voice was low she didn't sound as strong as she normally was you could hear the small amount of hurt. Laughing a little,

"Sorry, but you left me no choice," I ran my fingers through her hair hearing her sigh followed by a soft purr, Autumn stirred a bit she just pushed herself closer to me,

"Gem why are you blocking Lyon?"

She didn't answer right away I thought I would just give her a minute,

"I'm just not sure of everything just yet, My first mate shows up and I didn't realize it was him till it was too late he hurt Autumn's friends, What if I make that mistake again it could cause her great pain I'm supposed to protect her and lead her but I failed in doing that cause I let him get close to her, I was separated from her once I dont want that again that is painful and I dont ever want to feel that again,"

Her voice sounded so broken I know some have talked about the pain you feel when you become see[rated from your wolf but no one knew how a wolf felt as we were never able to speak to one another.

"Gem what happened in the hallway? Oscar says he spoke to Autumn but she dont remember,"

"I dont want her to, She is too kind to know the things he has done or remember any of those things,"

"So you are blocking her from remembering ?" I asked her if she was really doing that it had to be bad,

"Yes so to speak,"

"Can I know? Can you tell me a little?"

She paused a bit she didn't pull back.

"When he spoke about me disobeying him it triggered something and everything came flying back to me all the things he did the people he hurt, and most of all how he killed me," She let out a whimper causing Autumn flinching in her sleep. pulling her tight against me I rubbed my hand down her back hoping it would keep her asleep. "Gem, why did he kill you?" I hated asking or even saying the words I was sure I wanted to know.

"Cause I found out that he was killing other silver wolves for their powers, we all have different powers and different abilities, but he wanted to combine them all and have them all himself,"

"So there are others?"

"Yes how many I'm not sure and where they are I dont know,"

"Was he trying to take your abilities?"

"No, he thought cause I was his mate I would just follow him and I was until I found out what he had been doing, and when he saw I was going against him he became angry, I wanted to protect our people from him and so when I began to hide them and move them so he couldn't replace them he turned his anger to me,"

I could feel my rage building as she explained I also felt my wolf's anger coming forward hearing her speak and tell us what she went through he wanted to protect her he loved his mate even though they hadn't bonded she was his other half.

"That was when he decided he didn't need a mate and he killed me, but the moon goddess had a different plan for me she gave me a second chance that's when she gave me Autumn but then the crash happened and to save her it took to much out of me seeing as I was just reborn I didn't have all my powers, but when we found each other I felt whole again, But I messed up I didn't protect her from my past and he got to close and almost took it all away,"

"No Gem you didn't mess up, I did I should have known something was wrong but I let my guard down and let him in and put her in danger,"

"I should have known when we shook hands the amount of energy coming from him but I didn't it didn't come to me until he spoke those words it was like it opened the door and it flooded back to me, I just dont want to allow that to happen again I need to protect my human,"

Now I understand why she wasnt taking or bonding with Lyon she is afraid history will repeat.

"Is that why you blocked Lyon? You afraid he would do the same?"

"Yes, What if I bond with him and he does the same, I know Ryker's wolf was not bad he didn't agree with the things Ryker was doing but I'm still afraid I dont want to feel that pain again,"

"Gem I or my wolf would never hurt you, we love Autumn and you, I do not want power Gem I always wanted my mate I looked for years trying to replace her and she came to me instead, If we wanted power Gem I would have rejected her the first time I found out she was deaf, but that didn't bother me all I saw was her beauty and I was in love with her from the moment I saw her sitting in my office. I didn't care she was deaf or that her wolf was dormant it was her she was all I wanted,"

She was quiet, I understood how she felt but she needed to understand we were not like Ryker, I didn't want power I didn't care about power or any of that all I cared about, and all I wanted was my mate no matter what, She was my everything. "I'm sorry Reins, I didn't mean to make you feel that way,"

"It's alright Gem, I understand you are hesitant but you should know by now I'm not that kind of person I would never hurt her or you,"

"I know," Her voice low like she was kicking herself for thinking that way,

"Will you talk to Lyon please he's my wolf and I'm not a bad person so neither is he, he has heard everything you said."

I could feel she was a little reluctant but then she finally answered, "Yes I can,"

"Autumn is waking please don't tell her anything I dont want her to know," Gem said as she pulled back I watched as Autumn's hair changed back I knew Gem had left letting Autumn back in control.

She let out a hum as she rolled over on her back pulling her arm across my chest I sucked in a breath as the sparks danced on my skin,

Opening her eyes she looked over at me, Smiling she reached up and ran her finger along my jaw, I had to shut my eyes her touch seemed to affect me a lot today and I was already hard and wanting to pound into her, Wrapping my arms around her I pulled her flush against me. Catching her lips with mine I groaned as the ache to take her grew,

We would not be leaving the room anytime soon,