Awakening (2 book series)
Awakening – Rejected Mate Chapter 86

"I'm sorry... I really am." He cries it at me, as I slam my hands on the glass in a bid to get the door to open, pressing hard against it so I can see him as he runs off to my left.

"I need to know what she said about my mother!!!" I scream it like a feral banshee, my own emotions overwhelming me as so many racing thoughts rush through my head, and I'm consumed with suspicion, and pain, and heartbreak, all weighing down like a house falling on top of me. My breathing erratic and I pound the glass aggressively, in sheer need to follow him. It shudders and quakes but doesn't budge an inch.

I can't calm down, the craziness of that interaction has me all wired and panting as emotion wracks me and my thoughts spiral crazily with so many possibilities on such little information. The mention of my mother, his reaction.... it's made me react in ways I never have before and I start pacing, pulling at my hair as I try to self-calm and focus.

I upset him, so he's run off, but maybe he'll come back, maybe he needs time to process and calm like maybe I do too. Maybe it was a shock, that something she told him now appears to be coming true. He said visions, but wolves they don't have those, and maybe that's what triggered him. A fear that she could, and did, and now I'm here, and I came east, and I'm linked.

Oh god, it's all so messy in my head so I can't even imagine what's going on in his, if this is something she told him over eight years ago. I mean, to us the fates and coincidence, it's a common thing, and we trust in the paths they lay for us with so little questioning of it, but humans... they have a harder time accepting or believing. So many nowadays don't even believe in god, let alone some supernatural higher power that always has a plan. He'll calm down, rationalize, and come back to explain why he knew my mother's name. I mean that's what he'll do, right? That's what I'm praying anyway.

Something strikes a chord in everything I said and now I need to know more. I have to know more. I need to replace out what it was Sierra told him all those years ago, that got her sent here and pushed into a coma. Juan is keeping her quiet by convincing people she's crazy, so I want to know what that is. Especially if my mother's name is in there somewhere, and she knew I would come, be linked to her son.... How could she know that? Wolves can't see the future. Only witches and seers and...... Oh god!

This hybrid crap, and Colton being a long-awaited child. None of that could be true, because Juan would never value a mixed breed child the way he does his son. Especially not a witch, those are the sorcerers and demons of the supernatural world, with a kind of voodoo you don't fuck with. Unless he doesn't know? But that can't be, if he knew about this place and the research and left her here. She obviously wanted to know how she could be both witch, and wolf, and replace others like her for whatever reason... maybe she wanted to know how to conceive a child without it dying. Juan had to know she wasn't pure and that makes even less sense given how he is.

Witches and seers, they're more like the humans, but with gifts that are insanely powerful. Sierra surely couldn't be a half witch, that's crazy. She couldn't hide something like that from the pack all those years, and why doesn't Colton have any of those gifts? You would know if he could conjure magic, and catch visions, for sure. And then she's here... a witch has power, so why didn't she save herself.

Maybe he didn't know when he mated to her, and maybe when he found out that's why he banished her here, so the pack would never know and revolt against an alpha mated to an impure. I've never heard of anything like this, and it does explain his obsession with making sure Colton has the right Luna. Maybe he's afraid Colton isn't pure enough, and it will show in his offspring if he mates badly. Colton definitely has no knowledge of it, I would have seen it in our joined memories.

None of this makes sense. Luna Sierra was in the pack for decades before she had Colton, so surely that can't be the reason Juan brought her here. He would have known; you can't hide anything from your mate. Her memories in transference when he marked her would have made sure he knew. Which means he hid what she was. And after decades living that lie, why would he then suddenly banish her to the back of beyond, and what the hell has my other got to do with any of this?

My head spins with all of this, a pulse hitting in the center of my brain with overload and aching so badly I feel like my skull might explode. I end up pacing back to the bed and falling face down on top of it with an 'arghhh' noise that reverberates through my entire body it's so loud. All the doctor has done is give me more questions than answers, and I roll on my side so I can see her across the gap. The lights have shut down out there, so she's illuminated in the light from her own cell.

"What are you not telling me, Sierra? Why am I here? What are you, and what the hell am I?" I call to her as though somehow it will give me an answer, but she remains still and silent in her cocoon like state, and I exhale heavily. My body trembling with adrenalin as I begin to calm down, but my tears fill up my eyes. It's not sadness really, but confusion, and frustration, and a gnawing pit of unease that there are things I know nothing of, which clearly have everything to do with why I was guided here in the first place. I've lost my appetite, no longer interested in the food he left while my head is going crazy with all of this, and I know one thing for sure, I just lost my ally, chased him away and I only have two days before Juan shows up to deal with me. I have zero chance of romancing Deacon in that time, even if I wanted to try. Not that I could, he physically makes my skin crawl, and I don't think I have it in me to be nice to the a*****e that darted me in the back like a white liver bellied coward.

I cross my arms over my head and face to smother out the light and noise and 'garrrrr' loudly at this situation I replace myself in. Willing my brain to stop spinning around, and turning inside out, and give me a few seconds peace to get my bearings once more. It feels like it's been the longest day in history, and according to the doc, it's not even lunch yet. For the love of the fates!!

What I wouldn't give to be anywhere but here right now. Maybe reverse the clock, go back to my Awakening ceremony, and run before I even turned, to save myself from all of this bullshit that has happened since. It really was the worst turning point of my life, and I can blame all of it on the bloodline of Santo. I curse that name forever more. I should have left a long time ago, and never waited to turn.

No Colton, no imprinting, no running to mountains, and attacks by vampires playing on my mind. Just sheer ignorance of a girl running free, and turning alone, and never knowing any of these people, or caring at all. I should have found my courage to go long before I did and saved myself the heartache. "Alora?"

I nearly jump out of my skin at the sudden closeness of the doctors voice, and almost topple completely off the bed as I realize he's right beside me, and my lack of wolf sense let him creep right up to me with zero warning. My heart misses a beat and almost kills me in the process.

"You scared the shit out of me!" I impulsively snap, taking in the bloodshot eyes, the pale pallor, and the strong hint of alcohol on his breath that I'm sure he knocked back hastily to level himself out. He looks a little disheveled and shell shocked to say the least, and there's no sign of his female companion.

"Quite." He replies tartly, and I can tell by his manner that he isn't okay. Or his weird British response to what I shouted at him.

I manage to pull myself to sitting and eye him up warily as he stands stock still in the center of my room, staring at me as though I have two heads. He twists his hands together, wringing his fingers through one another nervously and I give him a moment to pull himself together.

"There are no cameras down here. They like to pretend she isn't here you see.... the wolves, upstairs. They don't venture down very often so they don't have to acknowledge their shameless purpose of guarding this place. Lord knows we didn't need chaperones when Luna Sierra was in charge here. Just me and my staff to take care of her, mostly from upstairs. None of them were here before she was put to sleep, so they think she's in a coma and life support of her own accord, and her rich husband benefactor is paying to keep her comfortable." He walks around in a circle and I watch him quietly, feeling the anxious waves and deep emotions coming from him intensely. I'm wary about sending him running once more, but he came back, and I have one question I need answered before we go any further.

"Why did you ask me about my mother... Marina?" I say it solemnly, heart hitching at the use of her name, breathing in slowly and deeply to stop the spiraling emotions that run through me, and I note that my hands have started to tremble. I'm nervous, reacting in a subtle wave of anxious anticipation like I'm perched on the edge of a cliff and one tiny breeze will knock me off and change everything I ever knew about my life. I don't know, I can just feel it weighting down on this moment, like I should stop, turn, and run far away.

He stops mid step of his frantic pacing and turns to me completely. Eyes wide, face serious, and he implores me with a wide handed spread of palms as though apologizing as the words come out clearly.

"She's the reason Sierra is here.... Juan executed every one of your bloodline so they would never return to your mountain, and she tried to stop him."