Bleeding obsession
38) only lust!?

Sarah's pov

Sleep never felt so comfortable before, no matter how soft and comfortable those bed were. It always felt cold and empty.

We never realises the importance of the things until we lose them or get them first time after so much struggle. This warmth is blissful, I have never felt so much peace before.

I don't want to get up from here, from his embrace. I know I can't expect this from him, our marriage is not normal. May be we are just looking for a physical comfort and found it in each other. The sun is shining outside filling the room with bright light, I guess it's already 8am. But still I don't want to leave the bed.

Xavier is still sleeping beside me or should I say I am sleeping on him. My half body is on his chest and I am looking directly to his peaceful sleeping face. He has beautiful nose, sharp and pointed. Thik eyebrows and long eyelashes. Few strands of his hair are falling on his face. This man is so beautiful and a smile will add stars to it but I doubt I can ever see that.

He has his large arm wrapped around my waist and it's heavy. I can't move from here without waking him up. And really don't want him to wake up and face him. It's going to be awkward.

I don't know what he was thinking last night. Is he really cares about me or just want my body. He confuses me so much, one minute he is grabbing my throat and on other minute saving me from getting attacked. I don't know what's going on in his mind. But whatever it is, the fact which is good that I am getting that affection from him which no one gave me, for a night but at least I am getting it.

I can't believe that I am this much desperate. Some other woman would have been fighting for her freedom and I am having s.& with my unwanted husband. May be that's the difference between me and normal woman. Things has became so worst that I don't even consider myself normal anymore.

If his lust is giving me a comfort i need, then so it be.

But sometimes it feels like more than just a lust, I don't know if I misunderstood something as a care and concern or he really cares. Do men really give cuddles and hugs if there is only lust. It feels like he knows every single spot of my body and has mastered in it. What thing turns me on and what is turn off, he knows everything. How he knows my body so perfectly.

He didn't left the bed after we were done like I was actually expecting. I was totally exhausted when he dressed me in his shirt and slept beside me without saying a word, just like our first time. I know he will ignore me this time too, may be it's a effects of lack of communication between us.

I don't think we have had a rational communication ever, we just jump in the bed like wild animals. And that's totally fine with me, I really don't have any other expectations from him because if I do that then it's only going to hurt me. It's fine if he won't talk to me, it will be actually better to not have communication. Because I am scared that may be I don't have answers or questions for him.

I just hope my heart won't do anything stupid. It has already started feeling safe around him. Even with his dangerous Aura, I have a stupid believe that he won't hurt me.

It's late and I have to go to the office, looks like I have no choice but to wake him up. May be I can get up without waking him up.

I gently grabbed his hand and slowly started removing it from my waist. He Groaned and clutched on me even more tightly turning to his left side. I gasped when I fell beside him and he pulled me closer.

'what's wrong with this man...'

His hand is really big and heavy I can't breathe.

My movements seem to wake him up. He lazily opened his eyes and looked straight in my eyes. Fuck, I swear I am getting very intense feeling right now. It reminds me a scene of horror movie where monster opens his eyes and looks at his prey.

He removed his hand from my body and get up from the bed. I sat up too, my whole body is sore. Specially legs. I swear this man don't know how to stop once he gets start. I looked up and found him sitting on the chair beside the window looking out of the balcony.

He is in his sweat pants, my eyes slowly roamed on his bare upper body and slowly widened. Oh my god! He has bite marks and scratches all over his body. Was I that wild last night. Red marks are clearly visible on his white skin.

He is definitely going to kill me, if he saw himself in the mirror.

He seems to be in a deep thought like something is bothering him. Why he looks so serious all the time. Should I ask me what happened. But what if he doesn't like it or may be he thinks that I am initiating something which I am definitely not.

I didn't realized how long I was staring at him until he cleared his throat and brought me back to the world. He is looking at me now, making weird feeling erupt in my body.

Why he is looking at me like this, like he is judging me or may be wants to say something.

We both were looking at each other blankly and my stomach growled. This is the most embarrassing thing could happen right now.

I looked away embarrassed and rushed towards the washroom. It's obvious that I am hungry after having s.& whole night.

I quickly got ready and rushed downstairs, I am hungry and can't wait to see food. When I reached there, Xavier was already sitting there all ready in his suit.

"Good morning Ace..."

I greeted him and down. He looked up and just smiled which looked forced.

He don't talk to me freely in front of Xavier, I wonder why.

The maids brought food shortly and I dig in as soon as it was placed in front of me. The first bite felt like a bliss.

I looked at Xavier and he was eating like me, taking big bites and eating hurriedly. I couldn't help but smirk so this handsome monster also has after effects. Obviously he will be hungry after fucking me like a animal.

I Finished my Food and found Ace looking at me with wide eyes. I followed the direction of his eyes and he was looking at my neck which has purple hickey's. His eyes slowly darted towards the Xavier who was still eating and he also has hickey's on his neck.

Oh my god! I forgot to hide them.

Ace looked at me and wiggled his eyebrows at me with naughty smirk. I blushed at his reaction, I am sure I all red by now.

"I should leave now..."

I said and ran out of the mansion.

Car was already waiting for me, I quickly get in and Started working on my hickey's. I have a important meeting today and I can't go there like a fucking drawing book.

I don't even have a time to go to the office, meeting is in half an hour. I called Mr. William and told him to come at the meeting place directly with necessary documents

Mr. William met me in front of the building and we both head inside. The meeting started shortly after everyone greeted each other. I really can't cope up with the pervert men. This Gomez doesn't seem to keep his eyes to himself, he is famous for his bad behavior with women still people do business with him.

He is occasionally glancing at me with his dirty eyes and it's so uncomfortable.

I sighed in relief when meeting ended, finally I can go back to my office.

I stood up from my chair to leave but as I expected Gomez stopped me.

"Miss Sarah... I hope meeting was in your favor..."

He said flashing his yellow teeth.

I forced a smile.

"Yes, I should leave now. Have a nice day..."

"Why so hurry... I always wanted to ask you this, if you don't mind can we have a coffee together may be lunch... It's almost afternoon..."

He asked. I know his intentions and I won't fall for it. He is a fox in disguise of sheep.

"It's Mrs. King... I think you don't know that she got married Mr. Gomez... And she have a another meeting in few minutes, she have no time to have a coffee or lunch with you. Please excuse us...'

Mr. William said in his firm voice.

I looked at him and smiled, I can trust this man with my life. I don't even have to ask and he will die for me. He has no idea how much he mattera in my life. He gave 'i got this' look and I nodded.

Gomez raised his hand.

"My bad... Please go ahead..."

He said and we head out of the meeting room.

"Mr. William please go ahead. I need to use washroom... I will come to the car."

I said and he nodded walking out.

I need to use washroom very badly, I did my business and checked myself in the mirror. Why this washroom is empty, may be because it's on the ground floor.

I heard door opening and I turned around with frown when I saw Gomez entering with the smirk.

"What are you doing here?... It's a ladies washroom..."

I glared at him. I hope he won't do anything shit right now.

"Come on sweetheart, I know you liked my offer but your nosy secretary ruined it for you. You found right place by the way, no one can disturb us here."

He said chuckling.

Shit! Is he fucking crazy. How can he just assume things.

"I have nothing to do with you... Excuse me..."

I said and started to leave. My heart is racing in full speed. I don't want to get panic attack here.

If he tries something then no one is here to save me.

I froze in my place when he grabbed my hand.

"Leave me..."

"

I yelled trying to pull back.

"Don't play hard to get. We really don't have time, I'll be quick..."

He said like he is talking to one of his girlfriend. He is really insane.

"No, leave me..."

I screamed when he tried to touch me.

I grabbed my purse and thankfully it has a metal handle, I hit it on his nose and he hissed cursing.

I tried to run but he grabbed my hair in a tight fist making me scream. It's like he wants to rip my hair out. My head snapped aside when he slapped me hard. He fucking slapped me.

I could feel blood trickling down from my lips.

"Fucking bitch..."

He cursed again raising his hand.

I can't give up now. I have to fight. I scratched his face with my nails and when got the chance kicked him where sun doesn't rise.

He screamed dropping on his knees and I quickly unlocked the door. I ran outside like my life is depended on it, which actually is.

I am on verge of having panic attack, I can't stop my Shivering body and tears.

I need help right now, before I faint.

I looked around to replace someone at least security guard and my heart filled with happiness when I saw Xavier entering from the front door with few of his men.