Bleeding obsession
55) Bitter memories!

Xavier's pov

I glanced at Sarah and shut the door close.

"Sit down and don't fucking disturb me if you want to live..."

I ordered the girl who is sitting on my bed right now. I don't even remember her name.

I am in no mood to touch any woman right now. I just called her to hurt Sarah and it worked. The look on her face was exactly what I wanted.

I broke her, the way she broke me.

I gave her fake love exactly the way she gave me and then left her. Whole year I was waiting for this moment. I had to fake it all the time.

When I saw her again, I knew that I am going to destroy her like she did to me. She will pay for everything and I'll make sure of that.

I was burning from inside whole year, it was too hard not to burst out in anger.

That woman has a audacity to live with me like she has done nothing to me. Like she is pure as gold. She didn't even Said sorry for once. Everything was right for her. She never considered herself wrong.

And after doing everything she expected that I will accept her just like this, without saying or doing anything.

No! She deserved this. After everything she was asking me, why!

I never mattered to her, I was no one in her life. She used me. Broke me.

I had to take revenge, needed to show her that she can't get away with everything just like that.

I waited for her to fall in love with me again, I gave her everything which she needed. Emotional and physical love. I made her world revolve around me, made sure that she is attached to me and then I destroyed everything. Now she will realise how does it feel, I saw that on her face. I was like that too when she left me. The way she cried, I cried too. The way she screamed and yelled, I did too. The way she begged, I did too but she didn't listened. She left me.

No! I am not feeling guilty. Why should I? I Am not wrong.

I filled the glass of scotch and gulped it down. There no reason to regret it. I still remember how she left me broken, every second is carved on my mind.

FLASHBACK

I was waiting for her in the park which were near our university. It has been one year since I had completed my degree but still I was staying in London because Sarah was in her last year. I waited for her so we can leave to America together. She was going to complete her degree that day.

I was eagerly waiting for her to come because I wanted to surprise her and propose her for marriage. I knew it was quite early as we were still young but I didn't wanted to lose her. I knew that my father will do something which will hurt me. Before he learns anything about us I wanted to make her mine.

I was also thinking of telling her about my real identity that I am related to mafia.

I was eagerly looking at the watch, we talked on the phone and she was equally exited to meet me.

I happily looked at the Diamond ring which I brought for my love. I knew that she will love it. I quickly hid it as her car arrived.

My heart fluttered when I saw the most beautiful girl on the earth, I was totally wipped.

As soon as she approached me I pulled her in kiss. She kissed me with same desperation, actually with more desperation than I had ever seen.

"Where were you? I am waiting for you so long"

I questioned but she stayed silent.

"Okay forget about it... I have a surprise for you..."

"Xavier I need to talk..."

She said but I wasn't ready to listen. I wanted to propose her first.

"Okay we will but first listen to me..."

She stood there silently and I continued.

"I know it's bit early for our age but you know how much I love you baby... You are my life. I want to make you mine forever. It's a bit dry and unromantic proposal but I promise I'll make it up to you..."

I kneeled holding the ring in front of her.

"Will you marry me Sarah?"

I asked and her expressions changed, she scoffed at me.

"Marriage and with you?... Have you gone mad Xavier. I am fucking 20 years old. Come on you are cool than this..."

She scowled.

I couldn't help but look at her embarrassed, standing up I looked at her confused.

"But we love each other then what's the problem..."

She rolled her eyes.

"It wasn't love... It was just a attraction. I was immature. I can't marry a boy like you who only knows how to fight and dominate everyone... I am not interested in you anymore. I came here to broke up..."

My heart broke into thousands of pieces by her words. I knew that I am bit violent for her, I had problematic personality but I never hurt her because of that.

"Baby... We can talk about it. I know I am bit problematic but I can change for you. I'll do whatever you want but don't say this..."

I begged.

"I don't have time for this Xavier... I am on peak of my carrier. And I never loved you, I dated you because I wanted to everyone that I not just a nerd. I can pull any boy I want. You were the most popular sol had you, that's it..."

She huffed annoyingly.

"You are joking right, you always do... Let's not do this today please..."

I could feel my vision getting blur.

"Be a man Xavier and Take it like a mature man... It's just a break up for god sake, don't act like child..."

She said and turned around to leave.

I ran behind her and grabbed her hand.

"Sarah I can't do this... I love you, I can't live without you... You can't do this to me..."

I Pleaded.

She pushed my hand away from her body.

"You are not the first boy who is breaking up... I am sure you have hurt more girls than I could ever imagine... You won't die, stop being overdramatic..."

She spat madly and ran towards her car.

Before I could reach to her she left and I didn't saw her again after that. She left the country. She was nowhere like she has disappeared from the world after breaking me.

She was the first girl whom I Loved with my life and she insulted my love. She left me in the darkness after giving me hopes of sunshine. All my dreams crashed down. She destroyed everything in seconds.

I tried to forget her but I couldn't. My mind was haunting me all the time. The pain and anger was boiling like a living lava. She used me. She faked everything. She broke me.

FLASHBACK ENDED

I kept her chain with me so it could remind me that I have a revenge to take.

I wanted to kill her when I saw her again but that wouldn't have been fun. She needs to experience the same pain which I did.

With time I understood that she needs affection and love. May be karma was already doing its work but I had to do mine. When she pleaded me to fuck her, I knew this is her weakness. She wanted care and gave her that just to snatch her peace from her.

Today I am feeling free. I don't regret anything. Now she will understood from what I have gone through.

"What's your name..."

I asked the girl.

"Amanda"

She replied timidly.

"Get out of my house... You will get the money for tonight..."

I don't need her right now.

I just want to stay alone. As soon as that girl left Ace came entered with horrified expressions. What happened to him now.

"What did you do to Sarah?"

He asked panting heavily.

Here we go again. Why the fuck he cares.

"I left her..."

I replied and poured another glass.

"I fucking know but why?..."

He gritted.

"Because she is the same girl who was my girlfriend in the college... I just took my revenge..."

I answered taking a sip and looked at him.

He looked at me confused.

"It's impossible..."

I rolled my eyes. Why it's impossible.