Bleeding obsession
67) Unanswered questions!

Authors pov

Sarah was sitting by the window silently, even after crying and screaming on top of her lungs Xavier didn't let her go.

She was constantly thinking about her medicines.

And on top of that Xavier's behavior was very confusing for her.

'why he is doing this... After destroying everything why he wants us back. Why he is acting like he cares and loves us...'

Her insides were boiling in anger by his behavior.

She was lost in her thoughts when door got opened and maids entered with her luggage. Xavier has brought their things from France as Skyler asked him to bring back his toys and games.

When Sarah saw it she quickly rushed towards it and started looking for her medicines. She sighed in relief when she found the bottle.

Before she opens it Xavier snatched it from her hands.

"You are not taking this shit..."

He said and walked towards the washroom.

Sarah glared at him and tried to snatch it from him aggressively. Xavier opened it and emptied the bottle in commode and flushed it.

"What's wrong with you, are you fucking crazy?"

Sarah yelled frustratingly as she saw her hope going in vain.

"I want it... Now... Who the fuck are you to touch my things..."

She growled and started crying.

She started hitting him on his chest but Xavier grabbed her and made her stand under the shower. Like Ash said, Sarah has started showing symptoms. He has never seen her this much aggressive.

Xavier turned on the shower and she struggled under the cold water but he didn't let her go. Soon her struggle died down and he wiped the blood from her nose.

"Why?... Why are you doing this?"

She sobbed.

"You won't understand..."

Xavier removed the hair from her face.

"Then make me understand"

She looked at him but he couldn't answer.

She turned around to leave but he pulled her by waist and held her closer. He wrapped his hand around her waist and other over chest holding her close. Her back was flushed against his front.

"Don't leave... Please let me assure myself that you are here. That you are not illusion... If it's a dream I don't want to wake up from the sleep..."

He mumbled as he placed his chin on her shoulder.

Sarah threw her head back on his shoulder and closed her eyes.

"You haven't answered my questions yet..."

She mumbled.

"I will... I had reasons but I was wrong. And I was looking for you that night but you disappeared before I could replace you. Why you left me Sarah, why didn't you fight..."

He said holding her close and their bodies drench under the shower.

"Because I have self respect... I cared about my baby, I had to live because I was surrounded by mafia's and Henry was looking for a chance to kill me. I fought till then, you know why?... Because I thought you will be there for me but when you threw me out there was nothing to fight for... Skyler was my only priority and he always will..."

She answered honestly.

"You lost your place in my heart and life that night... Why do you care anyway, you must be busy in fucking whores and enjoying your life. What do you want from me now..."

Xavier stayed silent, he has answer for her every question but can't answer her now.

"Let me go Xavier... We are toxic for each other. I don't want it to affect my child. He don't deserve this..."

"He is my child too... I have a right to stay with him, to love him... Don't take him away from me..."

He said thinking that at least for Skyler she will give up the idea of leaving.

"Then keep him..."

She said and he frowned.

"If you want Skyler then keep him... But let me go..."

He turned her around and she looked at him coldly.

"Do you hate so much that you are ready to leave Skyler because of me... Why Sarah?"

"I was going to give him to you anyway, what do think, why I told him about you... I know I have few days left. I am going to die and I don't want Skyler to live in shelter home... It's better if he starts living with you before I die, it will be easy in the future... And I will die peacefully knowing at least he is safe with you..."

She said.

"Enough... Enough of your nonsense..."

Xavier scolded.

"You are not going anywhere and I am not letting you die... Do you hear me?... You are not leaving me again..."

He shook her furiously.

Sarah chuckled bitterly while pushing his hands away.

"Says the man who has already killed me..."

With that she turned around and walked out leaving him behind.

"Shave your fucking face... It's making me more angry..."

She mumbled.

Sarah changed herself in sweats and sat on the bed quietly. Xavier came out after few minutes but this time he shaved his face and trimmed his hair. He was looking normal and like previous Xavier.

Sarah completely ignored him and kept looking outside.

Xavier wore his clothes and stood in front of her.

"Take your medicines..."

He said gently and gave her the medicines which Ash has prescribed for her.

Sarah took the medicines and threw back at him.

"Fuck off..."

She spat angrily.

Xavier sighed rubbing his forehead.

"What you want me to do then..."

He asked defeated.

"You know what I want..."

She replied looking out.

"I am not letting you go neither you are going to die. Can't you just co-operate with treatment. Why you are so eager to die..."

He asked.

"Who's grave is that?"

She questioned, that was the only thing she was watching till now.

"Yours..."

He answered and her eyes snapped towards him.

"I wanted to keep you close that why I kept it in the garden... I was crying beside some strangers grave for five years..."

He sighed.

"I regret it Sarah... I regret everything. I have gone through hell in these years... I know it wasn't good for you either but just one, give me one chance to make everything like before... Please..."

"Tell me the reason and I will... As simple as that."

She replied.