Chasing My Rejected Luna
Chapter 179

EZRA'S P.O.V

The reality of this universe was depressing. It took me a while to figure out the meaning behind what Sibil had said to me.

'A world without you,

Is a world of living hell,

A world where life won't matter,

A world I wouldn't care to dwell.

It was a piece of a poem I found online by a creator named Mon Fur. I had once recited it for Tegan on a date as a woe. I wasn't even sure how Sibil knew that. But with each passing day the words sank deeper and deeper into my heart. "This is your curse to bear. Until I get my artifacts you will be a figment of their imaginations. They won't see you but you will see them. You will watch them as they live their lives without you. You'll always be there, but they'll never know." Her words replayed in my head everyday. More so on the nights where Tegan would sit there crying while my son watched her, confused and hurt himself. Seeing them break down their walls every night while looking at my photo. With me being there but unable to comfort them, that shit crushed my soul. It was exactly what Sibil wanted. She wanted me to hurt so deeply that I would magically remember where her stuff was. Thinking that I would break from the loneliness to retrieve it for her. And truth be told, it was in times like this where I wished I didn't hide them. But like she said, I was one person. Significant, but also insignificant. Tegan had the weight of the world on her shoulders and choosing to locate Sibil's items was like the Queen putting a hit on her kingdom. I was not worth the havoc Sibil would leash on the earth if she chose my life over theirs. So it has been exactly ten weeks since I took off. Ten weeks of me replaying every moment up until now in my head. And ten torturous weeks of knowing I would die in this alternate universe, alone.

I doubt the way I felt would get any better from here. The darkness reached deep in my soul, begging me to just do it, just end it. But I wouldn't give in to those demons. I wouldn't let her break me. I knew in my heart that one day my mate would replace a way. Whether it be breaking the curse that linked Sibil to her sword or replaceing a way to free me from this awful place. I knew she'd figure it out. Even if it took her years, I would be in the shadows every step of the way, cheering her on.

I won't lie, it wasn't all bad. I was able to witness my son's first steps, at least there were the small joyous moments.

"I wished daddy was here to see how big you've gotten, bug."

I am here, I always will be. I thought to myself while I stroked her beautiful face. The absence of warmth under my palm.

That was another downfall. I could touch anything, but I couldn't manipulate what was being touched in the real world. If I moved something it would be back in its place before I could blink. So, my hand on her face had no effects on her in the slightest. But it still brought a little peace to my heart, even if she couldn't feel me.

F**k I missed the warmness of our skin to skin contact. Or even the little electric waves that radiated anywhere our skin connected.

"Dada!" Elias giggled out.

"Your very first word!" Tegan and I screamed in unison. Only I wouldn't be heard.

He was now one and a half. I was starting to become concerned that he had yet to say his first words. Or that he hadn't walked until now. I mean most kids say their first words at a very young age while also walking before the age of one. Yet he started both well after. But I knew he would do it on his own time. He had a traumatic birth. Maybe that affected him, I'm not sure. It's not that I thought he had any medical disabilities. I just figured he was a late bloomer. "Dada.."

"I know, bug, I wished he was here too." She said, pulling him into a hug. My heart clenched in my chest while a moment of sadness passed over me. "Dada."

"He would be so proud that you said his name first."

I was, but I would never brag to her about it if I escaped.

"I can see his cocky grin when I close my eyes."

"Dada."

"Can you say mama? Can you say mama's name?"

A smile formed on my face at her smidge of jealousy.

"Daaa Daaa, Daaa Daaa!"

He was starting to become louder with each word. I looked from Tegan's face to his in order to see why he was getting so upset. That was when the unexpected happened.

It was like he was looking right in my eyes. His hands went up in the air, as if asking for me to pick him up. I turned to look behind me, but nobody was there. I quickly turned back to look at him, his eyes never leaving mine. "Can you see me, bud?"

I kind of felt dumb asking a toddler if they could see me.I knew that there was no way, not after going this long unseen. But I couldn't help but ask him anyway.

"Dada!" Elias hollered again as he threw his arms in the air, begging to be picked up.

I moved to the other side of the room to see if what I was witnessing was real or not. To my surprise his eyes followed my every move. How could he all of a sudden see me?

"DADA!" His screams were becoming increasingly louder.

When I didn't pick him up, he was at the point of being completely hysterical. Throwing himself backward on the bed in a full blown tantrum.

"I know baby, mommy misses daddy too. I will bring him back, I will stop at nothing to give you back your dada."

She scooped him up in her arms once again, now rocking back and forth in an attempt to comfort him. But was failing as he continued screaming for me. My heart sank to the pit of my stomach knowing that he could see me and I couldn't even hold him. This was even more cruel. It was an evil joke if you asked me. Who would do such a thing?

'That evil woman would.' King grunted.

'You're right. She doesn't care what her actions do to others!

'Or she just doesn't care.' He scoffed.

If I ever escaped. I would make her pay. For my pain, for my mates pain, and for my son's pain.

I tried to not blame King for this, but a small part of me did. I knew he did it for the greater good, but that didn't make me feel better. It should, but it didn't.

"Listen, maybe this will make you happy. Mommy and Daddy have a big surprise for you. I wanted to wait till daddy was here to tell anyone but we need a little joy in our lives right now, right?"

Elias was shaking his head yes. Not actually knowing a thing his momma was saying but listening to every word wholeheartedly.

"You see this right here?" She asked, raising her oversized sweater up.

It was early February so the coldness was still brisk. Therefore, nobody would question her choice of wearing baggy warm clothing. But how did I out of everyone not realize it sooner?

"Well, Mommy and Daddy think that you're ready to be a big brother. Do you want to be a big brother?"

Elias's eyes lit up as if he knew what she meant. While mine were still bulging at the same revelation, only I knew what she meant.

"Mommy is 10 weeks pregnant. It's a girl. You're going to have a baby sister really soon."

My heart pounded in my chest at the news. Happiness overshadows all other feelings. She said she was 10 weeks along, which meant that our last glorious night together impregnated her. Which also meant that she only had around 4 weeks left in her pregnancy. My face quickly turned to a frown when my reality sunk in. My mate was pregnant again, and I was stuck here. I didn't get to be a part of her pregnancy with Elias and if things kept going this way, I would basically miss this experience too. I'd be there every step of the way, of course. But the thing about that was nobody would know. She wouldn't know.

How was fate so cruel?