Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 50

I was still catching my breath, not really understanding what the f**k just happened when I heard someone on the step of my door again and I just tensed up, waiting for Austin to come back, ready to fight when my whole body relaxed seeing Jonah standing in the doorway, looking very confused over all the roses before he saw me and I just ran over to him, didn't even stop myself for one second before I was in his arms. He just held me, like he could see that something was wrong, more than just my whole place being filled to the brim with flowers.

"Oh... God...oh.... thank God... he was here, and I fought him back, I did Jonah I swear, I never wanted him!" I was rambling again when he didn't answer first, just looked back seeing Tom and Joseph that nodded and got into his place, leaving me and Jonah in my apartment alone.

"Andrea calm down.... calm down baby...." I was just trying not to cry my eyes out like I always was when the worst fear had let me go, making me give into the hard shock of almost being attacked by that fucker that wanted to f**k me, motherfucker! "I can't f*****g calm down, don't you get it!? He was here and he wanted to f**k me, I didn't, and he did!" I was already screaming making Jonah's face go dark and I didn't care, not now, let him go full psycho! I just didn't want to ever get close to that spineless cheating bastard again!

"Who?! Who the fuck was in here Andrea!?" he sounded calm when I was shaking, making my lips hard to say the name of that bastard that only backed off because of Jonah, never because of me saying no, that sick f**k!

"Austin. He did this, he fucking did this Jonah, and I don't understand why or how, you told him to leave me, then why the fuck is he back?!" I was sounding accusing when I felt the hard stare and his grip getting tighter around my waist, he didn't like me blaming him, not now when he was already worked up, about to snap any second if I didn't shut my mouth.

"How the fuck would I know that?! I told him that you where off-limits, for him and anyone else!" he was gritting his teeth making me stay quiet, he did really say that didn't he? so if he hadn't told me what he felt, I would have been alone forever, that was nice.... "Clearly, he didn't get the fucking message!" I knew I was being stupid, just kept pushing him when I felt the hard yank in my hair, him pulling me back, making me gaze into the hard eyes that was staring me down, getting me tremble even more from the burning scalp I was already getting from his hand in my hair.

"Don't you fucking question me Andrea, I may have told you my age, but I'm still the same guy and I'm not afraid of showing you what happens when you don't listen to me." He let go off my hair, making me do a small whimper, my tears already falling down, I didn't understand why he was mad at me for, I was the f*****g victim here!

He saw me and cursed, taking me back into his arms and I just closed my eyes, it felt safe again when he stroked my scalp, knowing that he had hurt me, I would survive but I didn't like it, when he acted like that, me having no right to talk back to him, he loved me and should have some fucking respect for me, not just act like I was some bitch he f****d.

"I'm sorry... fuck... I'm sorry for pulling your hair... shit, I am the worst boyfriend ever..." I looked up at his regretting face, the sad eyes that still was mad. no he wasn't, he just needed some f*****g control when he got mad, just like me.

"Just don't fucking do it again, I didn't give in to Austin, and he was being aggressive as hell...." I stopped, seeing the anger get back into his eyes, a part of me just wanted to forget what happened, and the other one wanted revenge, let Jonah do whatever he wanted to him, and I would laugh watching him getting his a*s beaten.

"That fucker! I'm going out again, you are going into my place, and locking the door, and don't open to anyone, the people I trust can get in and those that I don't, stays outside." He was already taking me along when I stopped and watched him press his thumb against the plate, I guess that means he didn't trust me... f**k I was feeling more hurt from that then my scalp burning still.

"You don't trust me then Jonah?" I was inside when he turned around and looked at me like I was crazy, I don't know if he thought I was talking about what happened with Austin and not the plate, the one that he only let people he trusted use, and that was not me. "What are you talking about!? of course I fucking trust you, more than you know Andrea, do you think I let any of the other girls I f****d alone in my place, f**k no!" he was about to kiss me on my head when I pulled back, that was not the answer I wanted to hear and he frowned, thinking I was being impossible, well I was.

"Then I want to use the plate, I want to get inside of here, just as anyone else that you trust." I was having my arms crossed, I knew that this was the wrong time to bring this up, but I didn't care, either he trusted me, or he didn't.

"No." he just said that making me do an offended gasp, so he didn't fucking trust me then?! I was following him going for the door, arms still crossed when he turned around, giving me a hard scowl telling me to back the fuck off, and this time I did, seeing that he wasn't in a playing mood anymore, just pure raw anger that made me back away, knowing I had pushed him enough.

"Stay here, and like I said, don't open the door, you got that Andrea?" he was using his dark voice and I made a sight, yeah, I got that.... I looked up at him, the hard young face, shit I still couldn't believe he was only nineteen acting like this.

"I got it Jonah, don't open the door, stay inside and be a good girl." I swear I saw him do a small smirk when I said the last part, well he was going to say that so I could just beat him too it couldn't I?

"My best girl, you know that right, I just want you to stay safe baby..." he was smiling now when I nodded and smiled back, after the whole rose situation, I was starting to understand that too.

"You know that..." I kissed him fast, feeling the sweet mint and smirked when he pulled me closer, forgetting that he was going out and pushed my arms around his neck, standing on my toes, moaning from feeling his tongue around mine, oh god screw Austin, I wanted him to stay and never stop doing this.

"Good, now get your ass inside and watch some Netflix, and if I don't get back, you call in sick to work and stay until someone gets you." I was still trying to catch my breath from his mouth making mine beg for more when he sounded serious again, what I couldn't do that?!

"Jonah, no. I'm not leaving my work just because Austin can't take a fucking hint, I could get fired as much as I have been away, James doesn't even need a reason anymore!" He didn't get it, but this was more then just a job for me. This was mine and mine alone, not Ryan's, not his, mine and I wanted it, needed it for me.

"Andrea, I'm not taking no for a fucking answer, do you get that!?" he was getting mad again when I stood my ground, this was me, being a pain in the a*s, and he was going to accept that.

"I'm not telling you that as the annoying neighbor or the desperate woman you fucked, I'm telling you as your goddam girlfriend, that I am staying here, but you can't stop me from work, you got that Jonah!?" I was hissing back, I was still pissed over Austin somewhere in my mind and I was sick of just following orders, I would listen, but not blindly, I needed to do better, for me.

He stopped from scowling all the sudden and got a smirk on his face, he thought it was funny, me fighting back, I bet he even was turned on by the looks of the hunger that had appeared in his eyes, still trained on me like a viper.

"Fine. But I'm not letting you go alone, not until this shit has been taken care of." He sounded final and I nodded, sure I could agree to that, even if I felt like I was being chaperoned, it was actually nice to know that Jonah was not letting me go out alone, where Austin would be waiting for me.

"Sure, let Tom stalk me... its nothing that I'm not used to..." I smirked when he got a small surprise in his eyes like I wasn't supposed to know that and I smirked more, kissing him gently feeling much more relaxed and I didn't know how that had happened. "That idiot needs to know when to shut his goddam mouth..." he was mumbling it against my lips that I ignored and made the kiss deeper, taking him closer and leaned my head to the side and let my tongue slip into his mouth, moaning from the way it felt against his.

His hands squeezing my body, every part of it before pulling away leaving me breathless and burning when he just smirked at my frown that he was just going to leave me no matter how much I wanted him to f**k me, that bastard.

"let's go, like I said, I need to deal with this shit, and I can't have you in here anymore since that ugly bastard just walked in here and did this...." He looked around in disgust, like it was the worst thing imaginable, having roses everywhere. I kind of like it, no I loved it, I was so happy when I thought he did this and not Austin.

"You know... I like flowers...." I blushed saying that when we walked out into the hallway, holding hands making him raise his eyebrows like he was surprised to hear me say that making me feel sad, it wasn't a bad thing, liking flowers, raping someone was. "You do?.... ah shit Andrea....... you want to keep them, the roses I mean?" he looked hurt suddenly when I felt my heart start to race, he thought I wanted to keep those things in there, just because I like flowers? No f*****g way!

"No! no.... that's not what I'm saying.... You can burn them for all I care ... I just.... You know wanted to tell you, that I like flowers..... That's all...." I sounded shy again when he finally got what I was trying to say, that I wanted flowers from him, not Austin weird overdoing and psycho roses.

He started to grin and for the first time since this morning he gave me a real smile and didn't look so goddam angry at me and pressed his thumb against the plate making me do a small sigh, baby steps Andrea, baby steps.

"Oh, I'm going to burn them, along with his fucking house if he doesn't back off." I was startled that he sounded serious, he really would do that, Burn someone's house down? Even if it was Austin's, it sounded horrible.

He turned and smiled at me when I just stared at him, unsure what I was supposed to do or say, I wasn't sure I like to hear him say things like that.... I just hoped that Austin got the message and didn't do more shit, to me or any other woman, he had a f*****g wife. "Right. I'm leaving, like I said, stay here, lock the fucking door behind me and don't let anyone inside, and I mean anyone, are we clear on that Andrea?" he looked into my eyes seriously, the green and blue mixing together and I had to blink not to get lost in them when he was still waiting for me to answer him and I stroked my hands over his arms, needing to be close to him all the time.

"Yes, I got it Jonah, lock the door, don't let people in." I made a vague smile that he beamed at, happy that I didn't fight back, oh god I was such a pushover.

"Good girl." He smirked when I just huffed at him, I wasn't and he knew it, still it was nice to hear him say something to me with warmth and not just commanding me, even if he did that too.

He leaned down, kissing me lightly one last time and I sighed when he smirked and turned around, leaving me alone in his apartment, again.