Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 89

He carried me over to the bedroom making me smirk when I felt myself being thrown down the bed, doing a small yelp of fear before hitting the soft surface, that f*****g bastard! did he think that would scare me?! I had almost counted on that, for him to be an a*s

to me and I didn't care, as long as I could feel him, feel his body against mine.

"Take those boring a*s clothes off, and I'm not f*****g asking again! you make me wait Andrea and I'm going to tear them off you, I don't care if you walk home naked!" He wasn't moving, not an inch just staring at me arms crossed, he was just having his shorts on still and I could see the hard bulged that was making him look even hotter, oh he wanted to f**k me.

"All that c**k just for me Jonah?" I made a bigger smirk when he looked down like I couldn't see that he was so f*****g hard for me, always was even when he said he hated me, bastard.

"Shut the f**k up!" he walked forward, and I stared at him when he tore my blouse open, just like that. making my tits appear in the purple bra I was wearing, the hard clenching between my legs getting even worse and a small moan left my lips that I was biting, f**k that was hot!

He didn't even wait, just yanked the bra up, the cups going against my collarbone and felt the strong squeeze that was Jonah's warm hands, nobody felt like him, f*****g no one!

"Or what? You are going to make me?" I was making sharp intakes still when his hands had found my nipples, used his fingertips and just teased me, Jonah always was like this, a goddam torture when it came to sex. "Yes." He said that when he turned his fingers around, pinching my nipples hard when I made a hiss from the pain and wanting him more, just fuck me, that's all I wanted from him, no more no less that selfish a*****e. "You wouldn't, coward!" I made a smirk again when he seemed to have enough and before I knew it, he had his hands around my neck making me just stare at him in fear, was he kidding me, what the fuck was he doing?! "Wouldn't I?" He was the one smirking now, the hard cold stare that was amused by my fear, no he wouldn't hurt me, he loved me!

"Jonah..." I swallowed feeling the hard gulp that was going against his hands and just stare up at him, did he really hate me that much? Was there no way for us to get back together, I loved him! More then anything!

"Don't beg Andrea... it's pathetic." He let me go and I made a cough when my neck was hurting and just stared at him bewildered when he looked at me like he wasn't going to stop and I started to regret coming here, Tom was right, he had changed. "I'm leaving...." I was looking at the door when he just stared at me some more making me shake, his dark eyes going over my body, making sure that I knew just how trapped I was in here with him, and he was not letting me leave anymore.

"No, you are not. I told you that you were going to pay and I'm not letting you leave again." He grabbed me again, this time by my arm making me gasp, why didn't I want to leave? I knew that he was going to make me hurt, cry and still I was just standing there when he was looking at me like a goddam predator, trapped by a monster.

"See this is what I should have done from the beginning, made f*****g sure you know that I am the one in charge and not you bitch!" he was pulling down my pants when I didn't stop him, why didn't I stop him?! Wake the hell up Andrea, don't let him do this too you! "But no, I just let myself be fucking fooled that you were different, that you got me! guess what?! You don't! You don't f*****g know me, Andrea! So just down on the f*****g bed and spread your legs just like I know that you want to do, just like you do for anyone that make you laugh!" He was sneering when I did a sniffle, he was calling me a whore again and just pushed me right down the bed, like I was nothing, nothing at all.

"Jonah please.... I'm not a whore..." I didn't even know why I was trying anymore, he probably thought that I was f*****g James and at this point, maybe I should.

"See I don't even know why you keep lying to my face Andrea, you are fucking that boring motherfucker, just like you always have been just waiting to do! Is he better then me, huh!?" I looked confused at him, he was really upset about this? me fucking James that only happened in his head, he was fucking delusional! Just as he always was about me and other guys and I was getting so sick of that!

"Fuck you! I'm here trying to make up for the fucking second time and all I get back in my face is James, well you know what Jonah?! I'm going to go home to James's right after you are done and then I'm fucking him!" His eyes shifted, the rage that was in them made me hold my breath when he only showed for one second that he was hurt, I got that. he was hurt and felt betrayed when he wasn't, I didn't betray him!

"Who said you could leave?" He was on me, I didn't even know how it happened either when one second, he was standing up, and the other one he was on me, his heavy body pushing me down making my core throb harder, my chest move up and down fast against his hard one, shit he really was serious about this?!

"You can't do that.... Jonah... please that's kidnapping...." I made a small moan hating that I did it looking up into his eyes begging. I had work and all that, he couldn't just keep me here, that was insane!

"Well.... that's just one more shitty thing to add to my list then, you know.... Criminal and all that...." his eyes actually sparkled when he said that, like he was teasing me, and he was, oh he really was when I know that I was so stupid for smiling at him, like a goddamn sucker Andrea!

I just stared up at him, my wrist still locked down by his hands above my head, the heavy poking of his hard on that showed me that he really wanted to just f**k me, so why didn't he? I was trapped here in his mercy, and still he was just shifting his weight and smirking at me like I was supposed to believe that he really would lock me up. He said that he never wanted to see me again opening the door, that sure was a funny way of showing me that he hated me like he said.

"Fine." I looked up when he flinched, not expecting me to just succumb to his will, but I didn't care, he wanted to play a game of me fighting back, so that was not happening.

"What?!" he probably didn't mean to sound so damn lost when he looked scared and confused again, showing me just how much he was hurting, losing me, losing his friends. He thought that he was all alone, and he wasn't, never was when I stared back at his handsome face, the blue green eyes that swayed when he was here inside with me.

"I said fine. I Love you Jonah and nothing is going to change that, so that means if you want me to stay here, then I'm staying." I gave him my warmest smile, the one that he only could bring out in me, and he looked back, and I believe he forgot that he hated me, and just smiled back making my heart go faster. the way Jonah smiled at me. nobody could beat that. nobody.

From nowhere, he let me go again and just made a sound of hard pain like I had hurt him, the longer hair falling over his face when he was up from me and just was sitting on the bed, almost bend over, just like the last time when he actually started to open up to "Andrea...... just.... Just fucking leave.... Okay?" he didn't even sound angry anymore, just lost and scared. I knew the feeling.

me.

"No.... I told you baby... I don't want to go, and I love you.... And I'm sorry for leaving you...." I stopped talking being up on my elbows, my blouse still torn open and him looking at me like he didn't get me, why I even was here. Me neither.

"Yeah.... Well, you should.... Because I lied Andrea.... I fucking lied when I said that I was clean.... Just get the fuck out and don't come back..." my chest feeling heavy when he looked like he was fighting of the tears same as me, so he wasn't clean, like I already didn't know that.

"I know." He did a quick wipe with his hand over the marvels beautiful eyes that I worship, no I worship all of him, he was my everything. So, he wasn't fucking perfect and a junkie, but nobody was right?

"You do?" his dark voice thick with emotions, did he think that I was so stupid? I knew it the second he opened the door, that he was using something, his eyes showing me that they were dilate far more than they were supposed to be.

I made a small chuckle and leaned myself towards him now, feeling a lot better when he wasn't to scare me off, that was Jonah, same as always since I known him, he pushed people away, me especially.

"Yes, now that I know that you are doing some shit, it's pretty clear..." I pushed my arms around him, the hard torso and my bare tits against his back still leaned on him, our naked skin making me start to relax even more, and so was he when he made a big sigh and took my hand in his, gently this time caressing it, making me feel tingles all over my back and my nipples getting harder against him.

"Fuck...." He just made a hissing sound when I scratched his head with my manicured nails, it was in need of shower, but I didn't care, just smelling him, feeling his heartbeat against me again, it was a fucking dream coming true. One I had been crying over to feel again.

We just sat there. For the longest time, me leaned against him before I felt myself staring to fade out, the hypnotizing heartbeat that was calm against my head was making me more tired. He looked back like he could see what was happening and I swear that he was smiling making me smile back batting my eyelashes heavy, feeling myself being pulled down into the bed and just crawled the last part into Jonah's arms again, like I never had left them in the first place.

"I'm sorry...." I was not even awake when I heard the small words, barely a whisper when I snuggled inside his chest more having my eyes already closed, I know he was, big softie, my soulmate.