Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 99

I was back in the room.

The first hours I just screamed and slammed the walls until my throat was destroyed and my voice trashed, my hands bruised, and my mind gone.

I was sitting down on the bed; my jaw was hurting from the gag they had used on me and I was still in the dirty sweatsuit that was soiled and drenched from sweat that had dried up making me probably smell like shit.

My eyes were hurting too, I hadn't even been crying but I was hurting all over. My chest, my stomach, my head, my jaw, my legs, my feet, my heart, my brain. Everywhere.

I was sitting in the small bed just resting my head against my knees, I thought that someone would have come by now but there was none, not Jonah, no guards. Just me and a small white room that was making me go madder for every second.

Why didn't he just kill me?! he could have just told the men around him to kill me, that would have been more fucking merciful, but let's face it, Jonah wasn't about mercy. He was angry and when he had his guard up like now, he didn't give a shit if he was hurting people and that included me, the same woman that he claimed to love, I f*****g hated him for that.

hours past, or I think it was hours, it had been daylight outside when I was almost making my escape when the door finally opened up and I snapped my head so hard at it thinking in my mind that it was Chris, that Jonah had made up his mind and sent him over to deal with me for acting insane on him.

My wild eyes landing on Jonah. So, he was finally here, wasn't he? How great for him, look at him just standing there in the same f*****g suit and looking at me like he was sorry for what happened, his eyes being so sad and hurt that I made a scoff, I don't understand how he was the one that was hurt, I was the one that was f*****g raped, and he just helped every bad guy out there, making sure that I suffered!

"Kill me or leave." He flinched hearing my cold dead voice, he had probably expected me to scream at him, beg him to save me but by now I had come to see the truth, he was the one that kept hurting me, kept me a prisoner and I let him, just like everybody else, he didn't save me, he hurt me.

"Andrea... stop, just fucking stop what you are doing... I don't want to hear that shit from you!" he was swallowing something that I could only see was sorrow and I looked away, I couldn't even look at him anymore, he sucked!

When I didn't answer he walked in even further and I made a smirk when I saw two guys in suits following him. he really was Austin Evans then, wasn't he? Just look at him, dressed up all nice and having two bodyguard to defend him against me, a woman that barely reached to his shoulders, how funny...... he saw me mocking him when he snapped his fingers again and they backed off like trained dogs, f*****g dogs everywhere it seemed.

"Leave us." They left and the door was closed behind him, but I knew that they were just one second from coming back inside and taking me out if they needed, one could hope at least.

He made a big sigh when he walked up to the bed and just sat down and leaned back, eyes closed and chin up like he was really tired when I just stared hatefully at him from the other side, he was taking up half the bed with his legs wide apart and just acting like we were back at the apartment, waiting for me to start scratching his hair. that was not going to happen!

"So, fucking silent treatment it is then..... I should have expected that by now..." He made a smile that I hated made me want to smile too because it was playful and didn't at all fit into the situation that we were in, me being a f*****g prisoner and he was my warden. I didn't answer and he still had his eyes closed, he was so vulnerable right now that if I wanted, I could just take my hands and wrapped them around his neck, attack him or do anything but I didn't. I just sat there like a fucking loser, curled up and stared at him looking so relaxed and peaceful that it was starting to affect me, and I hated every second of that.

"Leave." He finally looked up when I said something, I don't know how long he had been here, but I swear that he was about to fall asleep just sitting here beside me, I knew the feeling.

"You don't want answers then? About me, why you are here and all that shit?" he tried to sound nonchalant, but he just looked hurt when I didn't have twenty questions for him. What was there to ask? he was a bad guy, and I was in love with him no matter how stupid it was, the end.

"no." he flinched again, the high and mighty Jonah was flinching when he saw my face and heard my voice, I was not going to just give in this time. I had begged him to forgive me for letting him go when I thought that I was doing what was best for him, and he locked me away in a basement and just wanted me to forget it ever happened.

"Well since I'm the one that runs this show I'm going to tell you anyway and then you can tell me to go to hell or not, your choice." He smiled when I didn't, so he was being funny then. How cute, or it would have been if he didn't hold me here against my will! "You were at Evans place, and yes, he did take you and I'm sorry for that... I didn't even know about it until a couple days ago, but I thought you had left me Andrea, just like you did last time!" he was sounding so angry and accusing when I just made a face at him, so what? He was keeping tabs on me and then this he didn't. I didn't buy that shit.

"I know that since the moment I met you Jonah, you always knew where I was, but when I fucking needed you the most, you just stopped, why?" he looked up from his hands that he was fidgeting with, made him look like a youngster trying to figure out how to answer that without me getting mad at him, well more then I already was.

"I was angry... and fucking tired of trying, you made it very fucking clear that a future with me was out of the questions, so I just stopped caring...." He was honest at least when I didn't make a sound, didn't do anything. Just stared at him looking at me more guilty, so he gave up on us then, f*****g fantastic.

"Get out." I didn't want to hear more, I just didn't. he told me that he had given up on us and now somehow it was my f*****g fault. I was not going to sit here and take that.

"What?!" he made a frown getting annoyed of me just rejecting him which was funny since he was the one to told me to f**k off more than once when I came back from St Vincent's.

"You heard me Jonah, leave." He wasn't moving making me even more annoyed, what the f**k more did he want from me? I was here. I was a f*****g prisoner and he had dumped me; I was spent.

"you're so cute sometimes Andrea. you think you can tell me to do anything? Didn't you see all the guys outside, I told you that I run this shit and you still treat me like I'm some kid that you can tell what to do..." he was smirking when I made a sigh and just turned away, whatever.

"Yeah yeah... you're the boss and all that... good for you..." I mumble the words into my knees staring into the wall that was still white, not a speck of colour anywhere, it was f*****g awful.

"Yeah, I am Andrea. I'm the fucking boss and you don't seem to get that..." I made a flinch when his big hand was on my backside and I hated that it was warm and comfortable, familiar making me want to just lean back and give up, just like that. like the fucking loser I was.

"I don't care, I just want to get home...." He made a snort and started to rub my back making me do a small moan, f**k that felt good and he heard it leaning in even more when his other hand was making me feel tingles from his touch when I didn't say anything more, just closed my eyes and enjoyed the small peace that I granted myself, just five minutes and then I would tell him to go to hell again...

My body feeling heavier and just making me lean back even more, I was tired. I was and Jonah just sitting there and being all relaxed again, caressing my back with his big warm hands was doing tricks on my mind when I took a deep breath of air and tried not to yawn when he was here, still beside me.

"that's it babe, come back to me..." he was whispering it my ear when my eyes was closed and I snuggled closer back when he had his arms around me not even rubbing my back anymore but I didn't care, he was here and that was all that mattered right now...the familiar smell that came from him when I took a deep breath and smile made him chuckle and caress my hair, I moaned again from the slight touch from the long fingers that was going through it.

"I don't want you to leave again.... I just don't Andrea... I still love you and I want you here with me..." I didn't answer when he was still talking into my ear with his sweet dark voice that could make me do anything, anything.

"People won't like it, but I don't care, what's the fucking use of being the boss if I can't be with you?" he was still whispering when I made another sound that made no sense when I was so tired and just wanted to sleep, feeling like I could relax for the first time of what felt like a lifetime, I was tired.

"You can trust me, I won't let you down, I won't... I been trying to stop doing the shit and well... its going kind of good, you being here helps a lot too...." He was smiling again, I didn't even need to see him, I could hear it on him.

"Jonah... stop talking... I want to sleep...." I made a complaining noise when he just made a small chuckle like he got that and held me closer when I had turned around and felt the smell of sweet mint when his kiss was on my head, and it felt like heaven. Fuck I still loved him and there was nothing I could do about that when he got up, taking me along and I curled up more, being rocked to sleep in Jonah's arms forgetting that the rest of the world even existed.