Falling For The Girl I Bullied
Chapter 101

Violet’s P.O.V.

I was looking at Kyle timidly because he was angry again. This time he was pissed because of what Matthew asked me. To be honest, I was also startled when he asked me out. Of course, he was a good boy and I knew that he didn’t have any feelings for me and this confused me. I refused him immediately because I was afraid that Kyle would fight with me again. Now, I was waiting for him to say something bitter and harsh to me and I could go away now. “Do you mean that you answered him?” he asked me after some time in a hushed tone. I blinked while nodding my head once. My eyes were glued on him. His jaw was clenched, and it immediately relaxed when I answered him with my nod.

“Do… do you think that he … he really wants to date you?” he asked me again in a nervous tone this time. I really wanted to roll my eyes at him in annoyance, but I did that internally. “I.. I don’t think so. He must be joking”, I replied to him in a timid tone and looked at Matthew who was now buying something for us to eat. “Don’t look at him”, Kyle immediately ordered me in a hushed tone and took my hand in his hand, which made me snap my head towards our joining hand on the table now. My eyes widened in shock, and I looked up at him immediately.

“Wh… what are you doing?” I yelled in whispers and tried to remove my hand from his grip, but he tightened his grip on my hand. “Someone will see this”, I pleaded while looking in Matthew’s direction fearfully and tried to remove my hand at the same time. “Is this that bad, huh?” he asked me, and I looked in his direction in confusion. “Huh?” I asked him and stopped trying to remove my hand. He lifted our hands from the table and indicated towards them with his eyes. “I am holding your hand in a public place. Is this that bad?” he asked me in a calm tone and intertwined our fingers, making my heart do a summersault inside my chest.

“Everyone has already misunderstood about our relationship, and this … this (I indicated towards our hands by pointing my chin there).. this will increase this misunderstanding”, I replied to him, as if I was stating the obvious. He was not naïve, and they were all his friends. There was no way that he didn’t have any idea about what they thought about us now. “And what is this misunderstanding?” he asked me again, and now I felt like choking him to death now. “Don’t you know?” I asked him instead of answering him and looked around. I was now in big trouble because Millie, who was also there, was now looking at me with a pissed expression.

“No… I don’t know… you tell me”, he replied to me, and I looked in his direction helplessly. “Kyle… this is not a joke … please try to understand”, I pleaded to him and once again tried to remove my fingers from his grip. “Answer me or else I will come near to you”, he threatened me again and my eyes widened in horror once again. “No.. don’t .. don’t come near to me”, I immediately said, and he smirked. It was not like we had never been in close proximity before this, but we had so many people around us all those times. This was the first time that he took my hand openly when we were alone in a public place.

“Then answer me, princess…. What is that misunderstanding”, he asked me again in a calm tone and I sighed in defeat. There was no way that I could win in an argument with him. “They….. they…. Everyone… think that… that we…. We a… are … i.. in a ro… romantic… rela….tionship”, I stuttered so hard and lowered my eyes in the end. The last words were in whispers as I didn’t want to say them aloud. His grip on my fingers tightened and I closed my eyes in embarrassment. Romantic relationship between us? That was the joke of the millennium, but this is what I was listening to almost every other girl who approached me and asked me if Kyle was my boyfriend or not, even David and Rein also asked me the same question.

“What if I want this relationship with you?” my head shot up, my eyes almost came out of the socket when I heard him answering another question. He was calm and composed but my mind was completely blown. “What if I want you to be my girlfriend?” he asked me again in the same calm tone, but I felt dizzy. My head was now spinning hard. I held my head in the other hand and lowered it again. “No need to panic, princess. You are already 17 and soon you will be 18. You are now old enough to face these kinds of situations and I saw you answering other boys whoever approached you, immediately refusing as soon as the words left their mouths”. His words made me look at him helplessly once again.

“I … I did that b.. because they are not you, Kyle… we… we can be friends…. B… but.. girlfriend?” I paused when I felt a pang of pain in my heart. His eyes also went cold. I lowered my head again. I didn’t want to say that my status was too low to be his girlfriend. This relationship couldn’t work for us. “I think … we need a good talk”, he suddenly said, before releasing my fingers, and I immediately felt loss. The warmth of his hand was gone now, and I felt cold there. I didn’t look up but I knew that I was right. I couldn’t be his girlfriend. I told his father that we were not in a relationship, and he would be pissed if he came to know that Kyle asked me to be his girlfriend.

“Hey.. what’s wrong with you?” I heard Matthew’s voice and understood why Kyle released his hand. Certainly, that was only a show to tell everybody that I am off limits. I shouldn’t think too much about what he said. I consoled myself again that he was just putting on a show in front of others sitting here. He must have seen Millie and the other girls and that was why he held my hand. “Violet…. Are you alright?” I came out of my stance when I heard Matthew’s worried voice once again and a hand on my shoulder. I slowly opened my eyes and saw him sitting near me on the next chair. “I… I am alright.. just famished”, I answered him with a weak smile.

“Then eat something quickly…. Have juice first. You will feel better”, he immediately opened the juice bottle and took my hand to put it there. I took the bottle from his hand and passed a small smile at him. I was still holding my head in my hand. I slowly sipped the juice but didn’t dare to look at Kyle. I didn’t want to see his cold face right now. “What about your plan for the night, huh?” I asked Matthew, asking Kyle about his plans, but I didn’t look at them. I continued drinking my juice and took some fries from the tray too. I was really hungry and after that little scary episode, I was really famished.

“I don’t have a plan but I think I need to talk to someone”, he replied to him, and I felt that the chewed fries that I gulped down got struck in my throat. “Who?” Matthew asked him and now my heart started beating furiously. “Someone who needs to get some piece of mind from me”, I heard Kyle answering Matthew in a calm voice but there was a hint of anger that made me gulped down hard in fear. Now why was he pissed again? “He or she?” Matthew asked him curiously. “What do you think?” Kyle immediately asked him in the same tone. I peeked at Matthew and saw him grinning widely this time.

“I am sure that this is she”, he answered Kyle, and I felt like running away from here now. “Don’t talk… eat something too”, I scolded him in a low tone, and he pouted while tilting his head in my direction. I glanced at Kyle and met his cold gaze. I immediately blinked and looked down at my food. “Matthew”, Kyle suddenly called him after a while. Matthew looked at him questioningly but didn’t say a word because he had some fries in his mouth right now. “If a girl let you k**s her but refuses to be your girlfriend because of some shitty excuses. What will you do?” he asked him in a calm tone, but I felt like digging a hole under me and hid myself there. Why did he bring that k**s here? What was he up to? Did he want me to be embarrassed in front of everyone now?

“What if I want this relationship with you?” my head shot up, my eyes almost came out of the socket when I heard him answering another question. He was calm and composed but my mind was completely blown. “What if I want you to be my girlfriend?” he asked me again in the same calm tone, but I felt dizzy. My head was now spinning hard. I held my head in the other hand and lowered it again. “No need to panic, princess. You are already 17 and soon you will be 18. You are now old enough to face these kinds of situations and I saw you answering other boys whoever approached you, immediately refusing as soon as the words left their mouths”. His words made me look at him helplessly once again.

“Are you sure that she likes you?” Matthew asked him in an excited tone after gulping down the food hurriedly. I peeked at Kyle nervously and saw him nodding with confidence. What the hell was he doing now? “Then I will lock her with me in a room and don’t let her go until she agrees”, Matthew chirped excitedly, and I looked at him by tilting my head up in his direction in disbelief. Locking inside a room? That night, when I was in his embrace, half naked, immediately started running in the back of my mind. We literally lived together and alone.

“By the way, who is that girl?” Matthew asked him again while widening his eyes in excitement. “You will know her soon”, Kyle said to him in a careless tone, and then took his cane of cold drink from the table. I felt something churning inside my stomach. Kyle was again up to something, and I needed to keep my guard up in front of him. He brought that k**s in front of Matthew and Ethan had already heard us fighting on the bus at that k**s. If Matthew told Ethan this, Ethan would immediately know what happened between me and Kyle. What was I supposed to do now? Ethan was like an elder brother to me and, to be honest, I was greedy when he showered his love and care on me. I didn’t want to lose my brother.

“Finish now, princess… we have to go back”, Matthew nudged his elbow in my arm, and I looked at my food blankly. I had lost my appetite. I think I need to talk with Kyle now. He couldn’t do this to me. He was the one who kissed me. I was startled by his reaction and didn’t know what to do at that time. He couldn’t take advantage of this situation. We had to clear things between us now. Somehow, I managed to finish everything without looking at Kyle. They talked about some stuff related to studies and his photo shoots. Kyle told him that his photos would be out soon, and he had a photoshoot outside the city right after the tournament on the next weekend.

I heard everything without uttering a single word. He would be out for two days, and I would have the whole house for myself again. But I didn’t feel good. I didn’t want to admit it but I did have feelings for him. I knew that we couldn’t be together and that was why I never let myself dream about us being together. He was close to me, still far from my reach. The pain in my chest rose again and I took a deep breath. “Uhhh.. I am finished… and I need to use the washroom”, I told Matthew and he nodded. “I am finished too. Let’s go… I also need to use it”, he said, and I nodded this time. “Are you coming with us?” Matthew asked Kyle. “Yeah… I will wait for you two outside there, then we go back together”, Kyle replied to him while we started walking out of the cafeteria. I threw the trash in the bin and followed Matthew and Kyle. “Be ready tonight, princess…. You are mine tonight”, suddenly Kyle whispered in my ear in a husky voice and my breath hitched immediately.