Figment of Dreams
Sweat

Ash

I awoke drenched in sweat.

I glanced to my right but my bed remained empty and it had been for the last week. Somehow my mind had made up the fact that if I caved and finally had sex with Lux, she would be it for me. She would wake up next to me, thoroughly loved and fucked for the rest of our lives. Fuck the mating bond. Yet, I couldn’t bear to look at her now. I had just left her there, in that bathroom. Too shocked. Too intense. Too everything. She was still my entire world, my every reason, but now I had truly ruined it. It had been the best sex I had ever had. This little human girl, my entire world. Yet, I could never fully have her.

Being a Paramore did these things to me. These horrible things. As soon as we were done I couldn’t stop thinking about the reactions of her and my peers, Oak especially, the faculty, my father… the legacy. Let alone the curse that would come with me breaking my oath. Her and I, we could never be. A pang went through my soul thinking about that. She must hate me now. I have not given her the time of day and I could barely sleep from it. Nightmares plagued me every night if I did fall asleep. I just hoped that I could move on now since this had been on my mind ever since I had carried her home from that party and I hoped she could too.