He’s My Ruthless Billionaire
Chapter 30

Robert's POV

After returning home, I was not in any mood to eat anything.

How can you possibly eat after you know that someone who you insulted a lot almost died saving you? Do you know that guilt? Shame?

Hailey was once again caring about me. She wanted me to think that it wasn't my fault.

I didn't want to hurt her at all. But... I just do it unintentionally. I didn't even know when my grip tightened.

I gave her some medicines to treat the wound.

After she went inside, I wanted to kind of... Apologize.

So, I went inside and sat beside her, but then the distance felt too much so I pulled her on my lap.

I found myself melting in her fragrance. It was making me crazy. I asked her the question I fear about; will she leave me if I become the worst person.

She denied it, but I don't trust her.... yet.

I asked her how is it even possible to trust anyone. I mean... It hurts a lot, you know? When you trust someone and they break it.

After she said that I should test her, I didn't know what she meant.

I looked into her eyes, after pulling her on the bed. She was beautiful as always. But when I asked her if she had any feelings for me, which I knew was almost impossible, she cried.

I don't know what happened, but a tear left her eyes as she was thinking something.

Losing hope, I turned around to leave, but she suddenly turned me around.

I was shocked by it, but more when she joined our lips... Looking straight into my eyes.

That time, the kiss was the most delicate one I ever did.

But you know what? It was the sweetest and the best kiss ever. I was so... lost in her. I felt that she is too fragile. I can break everything, every single thing if I make any move. After that, I wanted to do or say something, but I didn't have anything to say or do.

Thinking that I can't give in.

I shouldn't. People should learn from their mistakes. I should too. If I don't, then I am just a stupid person.

I knew my mind was fucked up right now so I started drinking as I went downstairs.

But Hailey came down.

"Hurt me," she said.

I thought that I didn't hear. "Hm?" I asked.

"Hurt me, but don't drink. Please"

I couldn't believe she was asking me to hurt her?

"Why do you think hurting you is any good?" I asked the most sensible question.

"Because both of the things will help you keep your mind off... everything"

"Hurting you gives me sadness and drinking makes me happy. How does your word make any sense!" I said but then I realized what I said.

"Robert... You-You don't wanna hurt me?" she asked.

I decided to not answer that. I don't know what I want.

No.

I know what I want.

I went to her. "Kiss me," I said.

She looked at me shocked but got sober. "Like you did... Just now" I added.

She nodded slowly and joined our lips.

But I pulled apart. "No! It seems forced!" I yelled.

She was way too much scared right now. "N-No, it... it wasn't," she said.

"Kiss me... Lovingly" I said.

She again came close and kissed me. But then I noticed it and pulled it apart. "You don't like alcohol... That's why you can't kiss me?" I asked. She nodded.

"If I leave this... Will you... Will you kiss me?" I asked.

She looked dubiously happy. "Yes," she said.

I looked at the innocent person as I couldn't understand her.

Either she is way too good.

Or she is one devil.

"Sleep," I said to her. She nodded and then we went to our room and she lay on the bed, as I went to take shower and to do brush.

I came and laid beside her. "kiss me" I said again.

She looked at me and joined our lips into a beautiful kiss once again.

I smiled after that and hugged her. I pulled her over me.

Then it hit me again.

Why the hell am I giving in to her?

I can't lose! I can't love it!

I immediately threw her on the side and she started breathing heavily.

"WHY THE HELL DO YOU WANT TO CONTROL ME?" I yelled.

She started shaking but took a deep breath.

"N-No, Robert, I... I am not"

"Yes, you are! You want to control me; you want to distract me!" I yelled. "You are working for Nicholson, aren't you? You are distracting me so that he can win?" She looked broken at my words but nodded in denial. "No Robert.... Trust me"

"I DON'T FUCKING TRUST YOU!!" I yelled. She got off the bed and nodded her head.

"F-Fine. Don't trust me. I tried" she said and left the room.

I felt suddenly bad for what I did. I wanted to go back. But I really can't get my thoughts straight.

I anyways went to the room. It was locked.

"Open the door," I said whilst knocking.

"I will. I am changing, wait a minute" she said in a normal voice.

Is she not angry?

She opened the door and coming out, she smiled slightly.

"Do you want to eat anything?" she asked.

What is she doing?

Why?

"You aren't angry?" I asked.

"Angry? No" she said.

I looked at her and looking at her beautiful eyes, I gave in and started kissing her. The kiss heated up and I started kissing her more passionately.

She suddenly backed off and looked at me with a sad expression.

"Robert," she said. "Why are you doing this? When you don't trust me, then why!?" she kind of yelled.

I didn't know myself.

But whenever I see her... I want to give in.

"Hailey..." I said. "I don't know"

"Robert, we have time," she said. "First, trust me"

"That's gonna take a lot of time," I said.

"I'll wait"

"I will wait too," I said and left.