His Blue Moon Princess
His Sunshine Baby Chapter 44

She makes me crazy. The way she is both strong and fragile, how she tries to face everything head-on until she bursts like today. I want to keep her close, protect her, make her mine and mine only.

I already know how crazy attached I am to Elena already. I can't say it out loud, but I'm not that stupid not to recognize my own feelings. I want her, all of her, any time of day or night. When she's like this, in my arms, I still want more.

Even now, as we are kissing deep and passionate, I'm already two steps ahead, wanting more. I caress her skin, her hair, her full breasts. Her honey skin, and that sweet smell she exudes even after the rain. Elena's excited voice is the best music to my ears. I press her against me, touching her to arouse her. I know her body by heart now. She knows it and she likes it. I push her to sit on the bathtub's border, and spread her legs, pleasuring her with my mouth. "Nate, don't...!"

Her words get lost in a moan. She likes it... I love seeing her blush whenever I do this, how she tries to hold her voice but trembles under my tongue. I keep going, making Elena cry out in pleasure, her fingers grabbing my hair. "N...Nate... I want you. I want you now."

I stop and carry her, taking her out of the bathroom to my bed. We are still wet, but damn I don't care. I push Elena on the bed, and she grabs my neck, pulling me to her as we kiss again. Our lips collide with each other like beasts. It's almost savage, we just want to kiss like crazy, excited as we are. We don't even stop as I slide in her, but I can feel Elena spasm around me. I can't stop. I want her, I want her so badly I keep pounding fast and make her cry out...

A few hours later, night has fallen but we're still on the bed. Elena's deep asleep next to me, exhausted by our wild s*x. It's been a while since we went so hard at it...

I lean over and kiss her bare shoulder softly. I missed the scent of her skin. Watching her sleep, too. She looks so peaceful when she's sleeping like this. I opened the bay window, too, so the moonlight is shining on her skin and gold hair. Nate.

My brother's cold voice resonates in my head, and I frown.

Did you get him?

No, whoever it was went back as soon as we started chasing. Liam is still inspecting the area. But it's she, not a he. Nate, do you know who that was?

A female? Why would a woman follow Elena all the way here? She only mentioned her ex coming back, and aside from her mentor she mentioned a couple of times, I don't see any other woman from her pack who would have reason to sneak behind her all the way to our territory...

No. But thanks.

How long will she stay?

I can't say, Damian. As long as she wants.

Nate. Isaac told me. I don't trust that woman. You should...

Damian, please. You said you would support me, and... Elena needs me.

I can hear his inner wolf, unhappy. I'm not listening to him now, he can scold me some other time if he wants. I ignore our mind-link, and caress Elena's back gently. She suddenly shifts position, curling up against me. I can't help but chuckle. Only at times like this she dares to act clingy...

Damian?

Hm?

Do you believe in second chances?

...Yes.

I smile bitterly. Our situations couldn't be more different... Between him who lost his mate at a young age but still loves her tenderly, and I who was rejected coldly and won't hope for love anymore. Unless...

I stare at Elena's sleeping expression again and wonder. Could we make it work somehow? It feels like we have so many reasons to stay apart, yet neither of us can. Our packs, our duties, our families, our history... I could make a full list and still not be f*****g able to say no to her...

Have I met her before?

I frown.

Elena?

Yeah. She felt familiar.

I frown. How would Damian know about Elena? I don't think there should have been any chances for them to meet. Even when she would come to visit me on our territory, Damian is usually locked up in his building like a prisoner. How strange... Probably not.

Nevermind...

Are you ok?

He doesn't answer, ignoring me again. He does that way too often these days. Things are getting worse for him... I wish we would hurry up and replace his mate already. I feel like we've scanned every inch of Silver City and nothing yet. Maybe Saturday's dinner at the Jade Moon will finally help. It's a small pack but who knows...

Unable to sleep, I decide to get up and grab a cigarette, careful not to wake Elena up. I go to the balcony and mind-link Isaac, waking him up.

Seriously, Nate? I can't even get some sleep?

I need you to search someone for me.

What? Who is the unlucky winner?

A guy from the White Moon Clan. His name's Diego.

The White Moon Clan? It wouldn't have to do with a certain blonde, by any chance? And why don't you just ask our little Boyan anyway? He spends all his time there nowadays...

I already asked him earlier. He doesn't know, Elena and her friend haven't told him a thing about the guy. He already felt bad about hiding the fact that he already knew about her and me...

Poor kid. Seriously, playing the little spy for your love affairs. Well, I get he's head over heels for his guy, but still. How, well... Diego, you said? Give me a minute.

I finish my cigarette while Isaac's searching, watching Elena from across the window. But she is still asleep, with no idea I'm investigating her ex. After a long while and when I'm almost done with my cigarette, Isaac finally answers. Damn... Remember I said your woman had been to jail? That guy was the victim.

Yeah, I figured so. What else?

Apparently, it was pretty nasty. She stabbed him after a fight... They both ended up at one of the White Moon's Clinics, he survived but was banned right after that. He's f*******n from entering Silver City until... s**t, that's in two weeks! I crush my cigarette. Two weeks...

Why was he the one banned if she stabbed him? I don't get it... Damn, I have my eyes on the police reports, but not the medical file, it's all in their Clan's servers... Seriously Nate, your girl was sent to jail and he was banned. No matter what, their pack wanted those two to stay apart.

Anything else?

He's got a few more lines on his police file. Looks like the guy was a little street punk... A few robberies and other fights. Definitely an Alpha. He was among the fighters back in their pack.

Like Elena. Is that how they got close? Two Alpha, two fighters...

Let me guess. You're going to see her again and do something stupid like fight her ex for her, huh?

She's already with me. And she asked me not to meet with her ex, if you want to know.

No wonder. I wouldn't want my exes meeting either. Moon Goddess, that would be a slaughter... Wait, you said she's with you? Aren't you at home though?

I am.

What? s**t, Nate! You never bring a woman to your place! Not even Narcissa came there, and I'm pretty sure she tried hard!

I roll my eyes. If he could stop mentioning my relationship with Narcissa every time... She's already harassing me enough as it is those days. Ever since I started seeing Elena, Narcissa's been waiting for me to call her back, thinking I would miss her soon. Turns out I don't. She saw me with Elena a couple of times at the Club and probably didn't like it...

Two weeks.... Elena's ex will be back in two little weeks...

For the next few days, Elena sleeps at my place every night. It's a routine I quickly get addicted to. She didn't ask anything, I just keep inviting her over. We don't mention her ex anymore, and I can't tell if she's avoiding the issue or just not discussing it with me. As a few days pass, I wonder if she isn't just avoiding her Pack. She fought with her mentor, and her Alpha too. Towards me, however, her attitude is incredibly... Honest. We eat and sleep together as lovers would. It's just as if we were avoiding the words. But we kiss, cuddle, laugh together, play and have s*x. It's... Incredibly good. I don't remember feeling this happy and light in forever.

Only Saturday, I leave her alone to accompany Liam to the Jade Moon territory. It's a boring dinner, except for the food wonderfully cooked, which is quite surprising there. But as that dinner goes on, I start to miss Elena and fight to hide my irritation. I haven't seen her all day, she was busy with her homework and training. Even Liam is in a bad mood, bored with the clingy attitude of that small pack towards us, the King's brothers.

When we get back in the car, I check my phone. Elena's been ignoring my texts all afternoon... What's going on? When I finally split up with Liam and get home, I'm surprised to replace her in the living room, waiting for me fully dressed. She's wearing an old oversized hoodie and jeans, looking ready to go. I take off my tie and walk up to her, wary. I know when she's unhappy, but I have no idea why.

"Elena?"

"We need to talk," she suddenly says with a low voice.

"Talk about what?"

"Nate, I... I won't be coming back here."

I frown. What is that supposed to mean? I didn't think she had anything against my flat... And then I understand. It's not really about my place. I feel my heart dropping, and step forward. "What do you mean exactly."

She crosses her arms, looking everywhere but my direction.

"I can't come back to the Velvet Moon Nate, I... I think we should stop seeing each other."

"Why?"

I just don't get it. Everything was fine just this morning! Elena shakes her head, and takes a deep breath in.

"Nate, I shouldn't be here in the first place and we both know it. And... Things have been going a bit too far these days. It's not what we had agreed on."

"Is that what it is? You're afraid of what we're having nowadays? Are you scared of my brother, or your pack? I can..."

"It's not about any of this, Nate! It's about us, about me. I... You remember, when we first talked? You said you wanted one night. After that, we said it would be a simple relationship, no feelings involved."

"I also said we would play by your rules, Elena. That you got to decide..."

"That's right. And right now, I decide, we should end this now before it gets too far. For the two of us."

I shake my head, unable to understand what the heck is going on. But all of a sudden, she takes out a folder and throws it on the table. I immediately recognize it. Shit... That's the one Isaac brought me last week, with her and her ex's criminal records. "Elena, that's not..."

"I don't give a damn, Nate. You had me investigated. I'm pretty sure you are using Boyan and Daniel, too. I don't care about your reasons, this is not what I wanted."

F**k... I grab the folder and throw it in the trash bin, even if it's way too late. When I walk back to her, Elena's expression is already too serious and determined. I don't like that at all.

"Elena, I didn't want this. Damian and Isaac..."

"Nate, that's exactly the problem! Even if you don't want to, your whole pack is going to say no to me! And I don't want to fight with my pack for that reason either! I don't want a relationship where we have to investigate each other, sneak into each other's place in private or hide to call each other!"

"That's how our relationship is, Elena! I decided I don't care whatever everyone else thinks about me being with you, I..."

"I don't want a relationship, Nate! I am not ready for that! My ex is coming back and this is going to be a hell of a mess already. I don't want to have to deal with you and your surveillance too! I don't want to deal with your brothers, your beta, your exes!" "...What exes?"

Why would she mention an ex of mine? Except for Katherine, I never mentioned any other woman to her, as far as I recall. But Elena ignores my question.

"Listen, I didn't want to bring it like this, ok? I just... I need to work on one problem at a time."

"So I'm a problem now? And behind your ex, too?" I ask, getting seriously angry.

"Don't start, Nate. I... Maybe we'll see each other again, when I'm done dealing with Diego."

"Oh, and I'm supposed to wait like a good boy for you to decide? What am I, a back-up plan? I thought we had something serious going on. You know it."

She glares at me, annoyed.

"I thought we had honesty between each other, Nate."

"Honesty? You never talk to me!"

"I have a past, and you knew that! I was honest when I at least told you that, and why I wouldn't want to get serious! Aren't you the one who was being dishonest? How long have you had me investigated? How long have you broken our promise?" Our promise.

Those words hit me like a punch, right where it hurts. We had promised not to fall in love. When did I start falling for her, anyway? I wasn't ready for that at all. I look for something to answer, quick.

"I didn't."

"You don't love me?" She asks, way too bluntly.

"...No."

That's a f*****g lie... And I can see it in her eyes. She knows. We are just both way too selfish and angry to admit it first.

"...Fine. I guess we're good then."

She said that with a voice hoarse enough to break my heart.

I can't think of anything to say. She just leaves my place like that.