I Shouldn't Love Him
I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 32

Liya’s point of view

After walking for many minutes, I finally replace myself in front of Gabriel’s house.

I wipe my wet cheeks with my forearm, how can I stop these

shitty tears?

Not wanting to enter his home in this state, I take a few steps towards the garden, and settle down on the lawn under a tree.

Piss off…, I cursed.

You’re just a kid…the game has stopped.

I was just his toy… All those days when he approached me, touched me, or his dark gaze made me believe that I was a beautiful, attractive woman,…all those days when I I thought he could feel even a little something for me.

An a*****e remains an a*****e and today he showed me that he was the king of bastards.

My hand against my aching chest, I sniffle loudly, it hurts so much. I didn’t want to love him, he bewitched me with his wild beauty, his dark eyes… I couldn’t resist the temptation… I should have because the simple fact that he belonged to my mother was more than enough for me to move away from it but…

• Hey..

I hasten to wipe my damp cheeks before Gabriel sees my face.

—What are you doing here my angel?

— I…I was just getting a little tan.

Under a tree ?

He lowers himself towards me, helps me up and wraps his arm around my

waist.

“Let’s go inside,” he whispers worriedly after examining me.

We are alone in his home, in his room more precisely.

He is sitting on his bed, and I am looking for clothes and a towel in the wardrobe. I feel his gaze burning my back.

— You’re still not going to tell me what’s happening to you?”

I purse my lips and take a deep breath.

What can I tell him? That my mother doesn’t want to see me anymore…that I’ve committed the

biggest sin by loving her man?, and then I was just a source of distraction for this old lawyer?

I…I’m going to go take a shower” I whispered.

I rush to the bathroom and sigh for a long time, delighted to replace myself alone, my heartbeat is racing, and my limbs are trembling slightly.

I lazily undress, I pass under the jet of water after regulating

the temperature.

The hot water burns my skin, I bite my inner l*p forcefully to stop myself from crying, I wasted too much today, he doesn’t deserve me to be in this state for him.

Now it’s all over…and for good. He won’t come near me anymore,

My skin goes through shivers when two powerful hands rest

on my waist.

— Gabriel wh..

— shhh, he whispers in my ear.

I tense up completely in his presence, my body tense like a bow, I can’t make any movement.

He forces me to turn around, automatically I hide my private parts using my little hands. We have already made love in fact. with a weak light but the fact that he can see me naked makes me excruciatingly uncomfortable…on the other hand, he feels no embarrassment facing me in his simplest camera.

— Don’t hide, you are magnificent.

He touches my arm, his soft voice caresses my eardrums and he removes my hands, thus revealing my femininity.

I close my eyes not wanting to meet his gaze, the tremors of my body persist, I feel his breath against my face warming my skin, I finally open my eyes and I see him collecting the washcloth and the shower gel behind me with a smile on my lips, aware of my embarrassment.

He approaches me and I tense as he begins to wash me.

— Relax… let yourself go my dear, I just want to make you feel good.

My lips part to protest but I ultimately say nothing and let him do it.

He slowly soaps my shoulders, my arm, extremely gently as if I were throwing away the most fragile thing in the world.

He turns me around and does the same operation for my back, and he takes the opportunity to give me a massage, I m**n because it’s so pleasant, and I desperately needed it.

I close my eyes and tilt my head in quarry. against his shoulder. his chest

sticks to my back, his rapid breathing meets my hot skin which

shivers, his hands return to my stomach then rise higher on my

chest.

He begins to caress this part of my anatomy, my lower abdomen contracts, my intimacy burns when his crotch presses against my back.

In this moment, the image of Xavier appears in my mind, but I immediately chase it away and focus on my boyfriend, I have to forget him. I can forget it and I know that Gabriel will succeed in doing so.

I stop my lover’s movements. and turned around to face him. His pupils are dilated as much as possible, his brown eyes have turned towards deep

black .

A few z’s caress his forehead, the water streaming down his face runs over his full lips and his square jaw dotted with a light beard. his muscular torso rises and falls quickly…he is really attractive like that, to say that he has no effect on me would be a lie and my cheeks heated with excitement bear this out.

I circle his neck with my palms and his trap my waist, he

moves us backwards until my back meets the cold wall of the

cabin. Our lips meet impatiently, he devours me with appetite, he sucks and nibbles my lower l*p making me m**n in the process and soon his tongue interferes against mine, caressing it ardently.

He firmly grips my buttocks and lifts me without difficulty, instinctively my legs wrap around his waist.

An uncontrolled m**n escapes my throat as our pelvises touch. He detaches himself from my lips and enjoys marking my

sensitive skin with hickeys while caressing my legs.

“I can’t take it anymore,” he growls against my neck.

I languidly move my h**s against him to make him understand that I’m just waiting for that, he growls louder…and suddenly he replaces himself inside me.

— Gabriel… ” I sighed.

He remains still for a moment to let me get used to his presence. I

encourage him to continue by bringing his pelvis closer to mine, he exercises slowly

back and forth movements, and lets me be carried away by all the sensations it gives me… I only think of the present moment sweeping away everything else from my mind invaded by intense pleasure.

He whispers sweet words to me, words that prove to me how

attractive I am, that I am beautiful and truly a woman and not a child.

His movements become more brutal, his sentences more crude, his caresses more wild. My lower abdomen contracts, I order him to speed up and he doesn’t need to be asked.

The pleasure overwhelms me, my cheeks heat up, my eyes close tightly, my lips part, I scream the name of my lover but who is quickly stifled by his greedy lips.

“Liya…I,” he says between two k****s.

He growls like an animal, bites hard on my shoulder, my nails dig mercilessly into his flesh, after his powerful thrust, together we reach the point of no return accompanied by our m***s of uncontrolled pleasure.

The next day…

I’m cold, my skin is covered with goosebumps, I slowly open my eyelids which flutter to adapt to the day, I lie down on my back, covered only by the sheet.

Very quickly I realize that I am alone, Gabriel must have been gone for a while without waking me.

I also have my classes, the time shows more than eleven o’clock and my class this morning is with Yanis…ultimately I don’t care.

I didn’t get enough sleep after the torrid night I spent with Gabriel, I was able to catch up on my sleep, but he on the other hand probably must have slept two short hours…

I finally got up from the bed wrapped in the sheet and take a quick trip to the

bathroom.

I then dress in a simple t-shirt and boxers that belong to Gabriel and go down to the kitchen.

I make myself a cup of tea then drink my hot drink in front of the window.

I think about what happened last night, I feel selfish…I want to keep Gabriel for myself even though I don’t deserve him. I use it to forget another…he doesn’t deserve all this, but it’s the only way I’ve found to turn the page. I know that I can be happy with Gabriel and that I will be able to fall in love with him, with time I will be able to, I’m sure.

I jump when the front door suddenly opens, I turn around and see that it’s none other than Yanis.

I grip my burning glass tightly and grimace at this unpleasant heat, I bite the inside of my cheek feeling anger invade me..

He doesn’t look at me, places his black bag on the chair, passes by

my side as if I did not exist .

“Bastard,” I cursed loudly enough for him to hear me.

He stops abruptly, very well I managed to attract his attention. I place my cup on the coffee table and give him a look filled with disgust.

He approaches me and looks me up and down, his expression impassive.

— what do you say?

— Bastard, A*****e, Idiot! Rapporteur. I replied beside myself.

He stops in front of me, hands in his pockets, relaxed as ever while several emotions overwhelm me.

By what right ? How did you dare to tell lies to Mom and sow discord between us?” I got carried away, raising my voice with my fists clenched. “

Bouts? Xavier approved of my words, my dear,” he said.

His index finger brushed my cheek. and I quickly push his hand away under his

mocking look.

I did what was necessary, your mother must have known that you are not as pure as

you claim, but that you were being dirty with her fiancé.

I raise my fist towards him ready to give him a well-deserved blow but he

stops me by stopping my gesture,

cheek sticks to this unpleasantly cold surface.

I g***n in pain and wriggle for him to release his grip but on the contrary he accentuates it, he sticks his body to mine and brings his face closer to my face.

— And my brother will know it too…

— Go tell him, a*****e, I spat beside myself.

— Are you sure…imagine his reaction if he replaces out what you’re up to behind his back.

I completely tense up following his words. I can’t bear to lose

Gabriel too…it will be unbearable, I only have him left

You’re not going to say anything, I protested.

He bursts out laughing at my response, which increases my anger.

— I did it well with your mother…and then it comes to my brother.

Hell no, he’s not serious, he’s not going to destroy me even more?!

— I’m going to stay silent, but in exchange..

I wait for the end of his sentence, he presses his lips to my ear and whispers his

words that give me goosebumps..

I want… One night..