I Shouldn't Love Him
I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 4

Leaning against the table, I stare bored at the small window of my classroom, I breathe in despair, I feel like an animal locked in a very small cage.

— I think it’s time,” says our English teacher, glancing at his watch.

I roll my eyes at his remark, it’s been exactly 27 minutes.

— So for tomorrow, you will do this exercise for me and with my explanations it will be easy, isn’t it Miss Kinn? He said to my attention accompanied by a mocking smile. Everyone is looking at me

now….great!

– Yeah… I respond insolently.

And without further ado, I stuff my things into my bag and leave the room first.

I quickly think of the corridor when someone calls out to me. I turn around and see that it’s Jason, the gifted one if you like.

He now replaces himself at my height. I stare at him impatiently while waiting for the.

— In fact, I understood that you had a problem with his material, if you like..I… I could help you since we finished our lessons, what do you say? he offers me shyly.

— Uh, I would like to, but this evening I have something planned, it would be nice of you to do so. perhaps having suggested another day… I said, forcing a smile.

I think he has a crush on me because from the start he has been desperately trying to approach me.

He nods disappointedly, turns his back on me and then leaves.

After my long walk, I finally return home. I throw my bag on the couch and sigh for the umpteenth time. A long day awaits me!

— You’re finally home… said my mother, relieved.

I don’t answer and just join her in the kitchen.

— I really need your help, you cut the potatoes for me and then there’s also the salad, hurry up, we’re late.. she said, bustling in all directions.

— Mom isn’t exaggerating though, it’s still early and stop stressing like that. I whispered, exasperated.

She glares at me then points at me.

— And speaking of tonight, I hope you look good, dress properly for once… she said.

After a time that seemed interminable to me. Dinner is finally ready!

– My darling, you set the table for me, I have to get ready, my God, I’m really late… she cried, running to get to her room.

I do what she asks without enthusiasm, I really don’t want to welcome our dear guest at all.

After finishing, I go up to my room take a quick shower and put on a light sweater and gray jogging pants,

I had barely finished getting dressed when I heard the doorbell ring. My heart starts beating faster, I’m not ready to see it.

— Liya, can you please welcome her? I’m almost finished.. my mother wrote from her room.

They were only missing that !

I go down the stairs, take a deep breath to give myself courage and open the door.

He stands up straight, he wears a magnificent navy blue suit, in his

large hands he holds a box probably of cakes, his beard is closely shaven

and his lips have a smile on the corners.

— Have you finished examining me? I can enter ? he said in his hoarse voice.

I blush violently and give him a black look which only increases his smile, I open the door wide and let him in.

— Here… he said, handing me the box of pastries.

I retrieve it while brushing against his fingers, an electric shock that is unknown to me runs through my body, he looks at me strangely, I ignore him to quickly retrieve the box from his hands.

— Settle down… I said dryly and headed towards the kitchen to put away the cakes.

Out of the corner of my eye, I see him sit down and elegantly place his right ankle on his left knee. Still in the kitchen, I don’t know what to do, I don’t want to talk.

At the same time, the sound of heels is heard.

My parent put on a magnificent, somewhat tight-fitting red dress that reached above her knees accompanied by high black heels.

Seriously, why wear heels if you’re at home? He immediately welcomes her with a charming smile while devouring her with his eyes and

delicately k****s her hand.

This vision irritates me. It still feels weird to see a man other than

my father touch her.

She looks me up and down and sighs discreetly at my

clothes. After a few minutes of torture for my stomach, we finally sit down at the table.

Lasagna, a good salad and fries accompanied by delicious chicken thighs are placed on the table.

Xavier helps my mother to sit down and he sits right in front of me.

Not even waiting for our guest to help themselves, I fill my plate with a good salad under the dark gaze of my parent.

I pay no attention to it and enjoy my delicious salad.

— Enjoy your meal… I say to put on a good face.

— Enjoy your meal… they respond in unison.

They eat while chatting and I prefer to stay away. I’m eating the last bite of my salad when Mr. handsome guy suddenly asks me.

— so Liya, what are you studying?

— I’m in my first year of law… I said with my mouth full.

Second black look from my mother..

— Oh I see, it’s very good.. he said while cutting his part of lasagna.

— What work do you do? I asked in turn.

– I’m a lawyer… he replies proudly while staring at me.

– Oh I thought you were the CEO of a company given your taste in clothes.. I said as innocently as possible.

He stares at me, surprised and… amused…

– Liya… scolds my furious mother.

– It’s nothing… he said, placing his hand on hers.

I help myself to a good chicken thigh and some fries. takes a piece of bread and starts eating.

— Otherwise, I think we can speak informally… he said to me.

— I prefer not, you seem quite old to me.

He clears his throat at my response and my mother swallows crookedly. I look at them both and just shrug.

— Liya speaks better, would you please… my mother gets angry.

I ignore them and continue eating, they do the same and discuss without me what suits me.

Xavier’s POV.

This young girl really didn’t want to see me from what I see, she is

responsive, she is insolent and has a strong character. I held back from smiling at his inappropriate remarks.

— It was really delicious, ” I said tenderly.

She smiles at me with all her teeth, she leans towards me.

— It makes me happy.

I glance at Liya throughout the meal, she was eating with her fingers without any embarrassment, it was rather pleasant to see.

She finally pushes her plate away from her satisfied and licks her fingers naturally, my gaze does not leave her luscious lips.

She has incredible charm and she does not believe it not counting.

— Liya, you can clear the table. says her mother dryly, annoyed by her daughter’s behavior.

She nods and gets to work.

— It was really delicious.. I said tenderly to Marie

She smiles at me with all her teeth, she leans towards me.

— That makes me happy

I glance at Liya throughout the meal, she ate with her fingers without any embarrassment, it was rather pleasant to see She finally pushes her plate away from her full and licks

her fingers naturally, my gaze does not leave her luscious lips.

She has crazy charm and she doesn’t realize it.

— Liya, you can clear the table,” Marie says dryly, annoyed by her daughter’s behavior.

She agrees and gets to work.

Sitting on the armchair, I wait for Marie who is preparing tea.

— Xavier, I only have mint tea, is that okay with you?” she says from the Kitchen.

— Yes, perfectly.

Liya comes down the stairs at the same time, accompanied by a binder and heads towards what seems to me a small veranda.

After a few moments, I decide to join her.

Liya’s POV

My pencil in my mouth and my exercise sheet under my nose, I try to solve the first question. I know it’s a wasted effort since I don’t understand absolutely anything.

English and I were a real love story but since I set foot in this faculty, it has become worse than Chinese, well it’s true that I exaggerate a little, it’s partly my fault since I

almost never followed the teacher’s explanations.

I take a deep breath and close my eyes for a moment, the fresh air causes thousands of shivers in me and my hair pleasantly caresses the back of the neck.

— what are you doing.

I jump violently at this voice which has just broken this little moment which is pleasant to me. I replace myself and see him leaning against the wall, hands in his pockets and displaying a smile that would make any woman fall in love. I give him a dark look which unfortunately has no effect on him and turn back to my concerns while deliberately ignoring his question.

He approaches me and without me asking him, he naturally sits right next to me.

I suddenly feel uncomfortable with our proximity, why is he intimidating me so much?

— I repeat, what are you doing? He insists in his incredibly hoarse voice.

I place my pencil abruptly against the table and face him.

I wanted to answer him but no sound comes out of my mouth, he is magnificent but up close he is to die for, his thin mouth displays a smile

at the corner, his blue eyes hypnotize me.

I pull myself together and swallow my saliva with difficulty.

I smile falsely and answer him without ever taking my eyes off him.

— I think it’s obvious..

— So I’ll rephrase my question, what are you studying? he asks gently

– “English” I responded hurriedly, hoping that he would stop talking to me.

I refocus on my file and decide to ignore it but the gentleman is not of the same opinion since on suddenly he snatches the paper from my hands.

— heeeyy “

I scream like a child.

He decides to ignore me for a moment and concentrates on my

exercises. His eyebrows are slightly furrowed, with his free hand he caresses his chin, a sign of reflection, it’s impossible, he is attractive in any situation.

I look away before he catches me in my contemplation.

“You’re making good progress, I see. he said, pointing to my blank sheet of paper.

I blush with shame at his remark.

– We’re going to fix that, I’m going to explain to you… he said – do

you know English?” I asked, surprised but also to provoke him.

– young girl, don’t underestimate me…ton t- He.

He doesn’t give me time to respond, he brings his chair closer to mine,

as if we weren’t close enough, his knee brushes against my thigh and thousands of trickles run through my body at this simple contact. He rolls up his shirt of his forearm, letting me admire his tanned skin and his virile man’s hands.

He leans towards me to retrieve a sheet from my binder and

my pencil, his face is only a few centimeters from mine, my vital organ knocks abnormally in my rib cage, I start to feel hot.

To my delight it finally moves away and I realize that I had suspended my breathing.

— Good! I will explain the first exercise to you and If you understand him normally you will be able to get by with the rest.

” I nod shyly, taking care to avoid his gaze.

He begins to explain to me while writing on the sheet. His writing is quick but very readable and what writing.. My gaze deviates from his large hand which gives a little effort to his thin lips which explains to me, his warm breath and his captivating perfume pleasantly caress my nostrils.

— You follow me, have you understood so far? he whispers in his hoarse voice.

I look at him for a moment, his eyes express a strange and fascinating glow.

– Not really, I muttered, ashamed of having stared at him.

— It doesn’t matter, I’ll repeat myself and try to concentrate, okay? he replied.

I nod and he continues his explanation from the beginning. This time I concentrate and avoid staring at him.

— I think I understood, I said after a few minutes with a smile on my face.

— Well, I thought we were going to spend the night” he breathes, slumped against the chair.

— It wasn’t my fault, it’s you who’s stopping me from concentrating.

He sits up suddenly and I open my eyes wide, realizing my words.

— Oh well and how? He said, staring at me as well.

— Uh…that’s not what I meant, it’s that…

He wanted to answer me but fortunately my kindergarten came just in

time. I turn around to face her, she looks at us tenderly with a broad smile.

— You are finally getting along well… she said happily.

Xavier suddenly gets up to join her and hugs her affectionately.

My eyes do not leave his large hands clinging against the waist of my

parent.

— I gave him a little help and apparently my explanations are incredible” … he said, winking at me.

— That’s great so I hope you’re finished” she said.

Xavier looks at me and ruffles my hair like a kid, yeah that’s how he sees me, a kid…

— If you need me don’t hesitate.. he says.

And without further ado my mother pulls him by the arm and takes him to the living room. I blow loudly and tuck a few stray strands behind my

ear.

I decide to continue my exercises, thanks to him it has become much easier.

I finish after a good hour with a smile on my face. I’m tired, I put my things away and go into the living room when I see them kissing until they lose their breath.

I roll my eyes and rush up the stairs to my room.

I throw myself heavily on my bed, exhausted from this long day.

I close my eyes for a moment and think about earlier. Why did the proximity of our bodies put me in such a state? How does he make me uncomfortable.

Why these shivers at the mere touch of him?

Is it normal to feel all these things about your future father-in-law? I don’t know, I’m lost.

I turn around when I see his jacket still lying on the edge of the bed, I take it and stick my nose in to inhale his manly scent.

I jump up, leave my room and quickly go down the stairs.

I look for him in the living room, but I see my mother alone in the kitchen.

– where is he ?

— he just left…And by the way I wanted to…Liya where are you going?

she asks, seeing me running towards the front door.

I don’t pay attention to what she says to me and open the door, closing it behind me.

He is there a few meters from me, he is about to open his door but suddenly freezes when he notices my presence.

— Liya, what are you doing outside? He asks.

I don’t move and he approaches me with long strides until he finally faces me….