I Shouldn't Love Him
I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 45

Six years later

Xavier’s point of view..

I’ve been stuck on the road for more than half an hour, I regret not having taken my bike and with this stifling heat, sweat is unpleasantly beading on my forehead .

After long and endless minutes, I sigh satisfied to have finally arrived at my destination, I quickly replace a place to park. Once out of the vehicle, I take the time to stretch, exhausted from my long day.

I enter the small, warm building in front of me, I take the steps and arrive at the second floor, a particular smell of this place tickles my nostrils, it’s unpleasant but with practice it passes. I notice that the waiting room is empty which is normal given the current time.

— Good evening Angèle..

— Xavier…you’re late this evening,” notes the young secretary.

— Indeed, it’s difficult to drive in this city, I sighed.

She approves of my words, I exchange a few trivialities with her then take my leave and head towards the doctor’s office.

– Xavier wait..”

I question her with a look asking myself why she is keeping me when there are no more patients and it is time of the descent.

— There is still one patient who will come soon.

I sigh, unhappy with these people who do not respect their appointment time.

– Ok thank you .

Without further ado, I open the door to the office where it says “Dr. JAMES.”

As soon as I set foot inside, two pairs of exhausted eyes glared at me, dissatisfied with my sudden intrusion. A few rebellious strands escaped from her messy bun framing her pale and exhausted face.

— Good evening dear doctor, I whispered with a smile, still delighted to see her after my long day.

She sighs for a long time, her bad mood will not leave her..

– Xavier…we agreed that you would wait for me downstairs.., she begins with her arms crossed against her chest.

— Did you eat this afternoon? I deliberately ignored his remark with my

hands in my pockets.

She slumps in her seat, inhaling deeply with the hand placed on her forehead.

— Xavier, I’m serious, it’s not the first time you’ve done it.

I approach her without further delay and reach her level, my hands placed on either side of the armrest of her chair , I stare at her hard, ready to scold her.

— From now on you will have to put up with me at noon too since you don’t take good care of yourself.

She moistens her dry lips,

— This is my last patient Xavier, wait for me outside please.

“I’ll wait for you here instead,” I pointed to the armchair far enough from his desk to appear discreet.

She acquiesces despite herself as most of the time, I take the opportunity to read the newspaper placed at the coffee table and let her work

as usual.

Concentrated on my reading, I do not pay attention to its consultation. Turning

the next page, my gaze shifts to my wife and her patient

who has his back to me. She is focused on what the patient is telling her, her lips move deliciously to ask questions, her white coat fits her like a glove and makes her so sexy…even exhausted and sweaty she is magnificent. I never tire of looking at it.

I continue reading, but the patient catches my attention when he coughs violently.

I raise an eyebrow as I observe him. he is already installed on the auscultation bed, a man who must be the age of my wife, seated and without his t-shirt revealing his thin torso. My eyes cannot leave my wife. She gets closer to him…so close. Her soft hands wander over his back examining his breathing with her stethoscope. She places her hands flat on his back and asks him to repeat I don’t know what, she performs the operation several times. She is gentle in her gestures, he seems to appreciate it. She then takes care of her torso, which is not so skinny after all.

I only now notice that my fingers are crumpling the newspaper. I force myself to concentrate on my reading again, once the consultation is over, she asks him to follow her and I swear that bastard squinted at my wife’s captivating h*p swing. It’s decided ! She will go on a diet, with her weight gain, her posterior is nothing more than horny.

She prescribes him a list of medications, and like an idiot, he gives her a charming smile to thank her, and whispers something that I can’t hear.

This pisses me off, I know she loves her job, but the fact that a good number of idiots come to see her trying to seduce her annoys me!

Once she has finished her medical speech, I immediately get up to finish the consultation in style. He has not yet noticed my presence, my wife accompanies him to the door, but when he sees me, this coward

I hold out my hand to him, which he immediately shakes, and I do not hesitate to crush it beneath him. his muffled complaint.

— My wife and I hope you get better, take care of yourself,” I boomed with a smile, hope my message got through.

His face turned pale, he thanks us briefly before leaving at full speed. that’s one less!

Silence reigns in the cabin, it becomes unbearable. Only my wife’s irregular breathing behind my back is heard.

“I’ll wait for you downstairs,” I finally said without waiting for his response.

And it was after a quarter of an hour that she decided to join me in the car, she slammed the door violently to make me understand her displeasure. I start immediately, and obviously the journey is made in silence, only the darkness of the night and the wind accompany us.

— Do you enjoy scaring away my patients? “, she finally roared.

– Don’t tell me that you didn’t notice that he was flirting with you? I don’t like that kind of guy, I said beside myself, imagining a thousand and one scenes of men hovering around my wife.

“I don’t understand you,” she begins.

My eyes remain glued to the road waiting for her to continue.

— You supported me with my studies, you were the happiest when I graduated, and it’s been a few months since I opened my office, this is the time when I need your support the most but you you just let yourself be guided by your jealousy which has no place without worrying about what I might feel, she unpacks, gesturing with her hands.

I swallow after her monologue…she doesn’t understand!

— Don’t you see these perverts coming? , I raised my voice, thinking about the guy from earlier.

– So what ?! They are patients above all! Even if they try to approach me, do you think I’ll let it happen? I thought you had confidence in me Xavier. If the most beautiful man comes to see me, I don’t care. I’m just doing my job and that’s it. I know how to behave with this kind of person, I impose my limits to be respected, your way of thinking disappoints me.

I immediately slow down following his monologue.

— I have blind trust in you, the problem doesn’t come from you, just that

I can’t control myself and all these dark ideas that play around

in my head..And I’m getting older then that you are still young and full of life..I am..

— Too jealous and possessive? I know it, Xavier, but in the long run it suffocates me and

risks destroying us.

Her voice softens and she places her soft hand on mine, which is tense at the wheel.

— Have more confidence in me, and stop worrying about all that. You know that your white hair and your many wrinkles drive me crazy, I don’t care that you are much older than me. It’s only you who matters, I will never abandon you, my old man. I chose you from this countless number of men so be calm, she whispers.

My God, I love this woman! It’s a real treasure that I have in my hands.

— Excuse me, I’m really sorry my darling, I know I can be heavy sometimes.

“All the time,” she teases me.

I intertwine our fingers and place a soft k**s on the back of his hand.

With the argument we had, we arrived very quickly at our destination and parked in front of our villa. My wife precedes me and enters our home and I take the time to bring the car into the garage.

I enter the villa in turn, it is much too silent. I spot

Lisa, the cleaning lady in the kitchen.

— Are the children asleep, Lisa?

— Yes sir, a few minutes ago.

I thank her and hurry to go upstairs. The children’s door is

between open. I approach without making any noise and see my wife next to Gabriellela whom she k****s tenderly. She then approaches our little Théo, I smile when I see his little legs hanging out of the bed. She makes him more comfortable and covers him. This little one is barely 3 years old but he looks like he’s much older, and he’s a real tornado. I walk away from them and quickly head towards our room.

Liya’s point of view.

After looking at my children for a long time with smiles on their faces, I leave the room and return to our bedroom. My day was long and exhausting and Xavier added his two cents with his misplaced jealousy! I sigh loudly, I need a good shower to wash away all this tension from the week. Speaking of the shower, I hear the water running, I approach the open bathroom and discover my husband, already installed in the bathtub and that he has prepared a nice bubble bath.

“Come closer..” he tells me with a comforting smile on his lips.

I won’t be able to refuse! I undress immediately, removing my little dress which joins Xavier’s clothes on the floor. I remove my underwear and I found myself naked under his appreciative desires. He looks at me intensely. I

no longer appreciate him staring at me like that. My body has changed, fat

has been stored almost everywhere in my body, and stretch marks as well.

With the coming from my angel Théo, my extra kilos are determined to stay. But even this last month I gained 3 kilos more which is quite obvious. I no longer maintain my body unfortunately due to my lack of time.

I joins him and settles me between his legs in the most comfortable position and shivers in contact with the pleasantly warm water.

He gently caresses my h**s, then my stomach which twists under his touch.

— Stop looking down When I look at you, I don’t like it. My desire for you still hasn’t changed. Your stretch marks bear witness to the treasures you gave birth to. My hands can only enjoy touching your buttocks and breasts which have increased in volume and you can see how I am becoming more and more possessive. You know that I love falling asleep on your stomach which is becoming more and more comfortable.

— But stop, Xavier, you’re stupid! And I didn’t know that you liked curvy women, you who said that you prefer thin ones like I was before, liar.

— Know my dear, that I love all the styles of women only on your body, it’s so magnificent to see you transformed to expand our family besides I want another child..many others.

— Oh no, big guy, in a few years we will have another child.

He mutters something incomprehensible under his breath before putting his hands on my shoulders.

– Now let me relax, you’re so tense.

My husband begins to give me a massage and I let him do it with my head resting against his shoulder. He massages my neck, shoulders, back, arms and it’s so pleasant, I really needed it. Then he soaps his hands which venture over my body and I let him wash me.

We stay together for a long time, savoring this moment of calm and relaxation which is so rare and which we sorely need. I begin to doze off against his warm chest, I feel him move against me and I immediately sit up.

– Sorry .

I make him understand that it’s nothing then we take the opportunity to leave our bath. I watch him dry himself vigorously, then he does the same operation for my body, instead of covering us with our towels, he lifts me up, everything

both naked, he takes us to our room, making me understand that our evening is not over.

both naked, he takes us to our room, making me understand that our evening is not over.

I replace myself lying on the bed and he places himself above me, the droplets of his soaked hair replaceing their way onto my burning skin. Only the bedside lamp illuminates us, my hand ventures over his face, I caress with my fingertips the wrinkles on his forehead, the corners of his eyes then his half-open lips.

“Tonight I will make love to you tenderly,” he whispers, which makes my

body vibrate.

Tenderly he said? It’s because he wants to take his time. With the years passing by and the children, we do not take full advantage of each other and we are content with quick enjoyment. And besides, we hadn’t made love for several days, maybe almost a month.

With my hands encircling his face, I bring him closer to me and k**s him immediately. Our lips are slowly revealed, our tongues are not yet ready to tease each other, we take advantage of the moment, of each other’s presence. His hands caress my shoulders, my stomach, avoiding my sensitive areas to increase my desire for him. I stroke his hair the way he likes and lose myself in this k**s filled with sweetness and love. I

arch my back letting my chest crush against his hard chest.

He k****s me more passionately, our saliva mixes, our tongues

slide and curl, I amplify my caresses on his neck, his broad shoulders. He leaves my lips to venture onto my jaw which he nibbles, my neck, my shoulders. I shiver as his breath hits my

sensitive chest. He tenderly k****s one of my nipples before putting it in his mouth and inflicting gentle torture on it. He pleasantly caresses my chest, my eyelids close when his other hand descends, slowly, running across my stomach to stop on my mound and stop for several seconds.

— Xavier, ” I sighed.

I feel him smile against my chest which he continues to tease, he spreads

my legs slightly and gently he caresses my most sensitive spot…my pink button. I hold myself against his shoulders and he encourages me to continue, sighing. He makes pleasant circular movements, gentle pressures accentuating my desire and pleasure. I pull on his hair when he inserts two fingers into my secret garden which no longer has any secrets for him. He moves slowly back and forth to torture me, and I beg him to go faster and of course the gentleman does not comply. He abandons

my chest to come and k**s me languorously and I let myself m**n against his lips. I move my pelvis at the same time as his fingers to satisfy myself a little more but he reprimands me by

holding me in place with a hand on my waist. He withdraws his fingers feeling me wet enough and I can’t help but g***n in frustration.

Very quickly, he stands up, draws me to him and I replace myself straddling his legs, I know that he loves this position, that it excites him to see me like this on his body. His large palms grip my a*s and in one motion. his member inserts himself deeply and deliciously into my wet crotch only for him. I tense up completely on him wanting to m**n loudly but I abstain with the children who are nearby.

I let my pelvis move slowly up and down, my fingers clenched on his hair, I buried his face against my chest, throwing my head back. His hands on my bottom guide my movements according to the rhythm he desires, I wouldn’t have let him do it, preferring to have control, but now I want him too much and let him manhandle me as he wants.

My heavy chest moves to the rhythm of the movements and Xavier enjoys getting lost between my breasts. I watch him do this, clinging miserably to his forearms as if I fear I will collapse. He keeps his eyelids closed, his breathing becomes faster, he k****s my neck, his wet tongue accentuates my pleasure. I savor with delight the pleasure that my man gives me.

It’s been a while since we had a carnal moment, we’re both going to cum too quickly. I gently pull on his hair forcing him to leave my chest to devour my mouth.

We k**s wildly, letting our m***s muffle in our mouths, enjoying the addictive movements of our pelvises. The o****m is very close, our movements back and forth become more uncontrollable, faster, deeper, more delicious…and we reach the long-awaited o****m. My husband forces me to look at him, I lose myself in his bright eyes and he joins our lips one last time, letting our m***s be

lost by his last devastating thrust.

He collapses heavily on the bed, carrying me with him on his chest. We slowly catch our breath, somewhat exhausted but fulfilled. He tenderly caresses my hair and my back and I caress his fairly hairy chest.

— Xavier..”

— Hum?” He said vaguely with his eyes closed ready to fall asleep.

— I’m pregnant..

— I know, my darling.

I stand up quickly, questioning him with a look.

— Your mood changes, your rapid weight gain, your moments of fatigue, and above all… your magnificent halos which have darkened, he said with a smile on his lips.

I wanted to reply but he immediately ordered me to shut up, taking me emotionally in his warm arms.

— Thank you very much, I am happiest by your side.

It’s you who makes me happy Xavier..You were that man in a suit who with just one look was enough to turn your head. You were temptation, a forbidden fruit, as beautiful as you were intimidating.. you were my mother’s fiancé.. the forbidden man, I shouldn’t love you and from now on you are the man of my life.

The End of Book 1