Just Be Mine
Chapter 16

{Pierce’s P.O.V.}

I can’t take it, I can’t take it anymore. I want to officially be disconnected from vampires entirely. All this mess is driving me insane; I’m both scared and annoyed at the same time. This happens and I should’ve known it sooner. Its been two weeks. New Years passed but none of the troubles that I’ve been in has. Being attacked left and right but not just me. Its all over the news now, all kinds of attacks and people getting killed. I don’t know what kind of thing this is but it should stop now. I don’t want to be part of it.

And don’t get me started on Kellin. This annoying horny freak won’t leave me alone even if I beg for it. He’s been destroying my physical health all kinds of ways. I think I’m just going to have to quit life because with him around, nothing gets done, I swear. I can’t have one moment of peace without him invading my space. I can’t even do work:

Ah...aah...nn....uhn....ng.

“Kellin stop, I have to finish.” I cried out. Instead of doing what I asked, he just kept going like he didn’t hear me. My fingers drew across the table like I was trying to hold on for dear life; he was only fucking me on the floor now but I still clutched on to the coffee table. This is an unnecessary distraction and I need to finish before the due time or I’m screwed. But he won’t stop.

“All you do is work.” he complained. So what, is he jealous of my work? I know I haven’t been giving him the attention he needs but this is just too much. He didn’t need to go this far with it.

He rammed me harder, going faster, as he pounded me against the table. I couldn’t keep my thought process anymore, I know he won’t let go of me. And I can’t say I don’t feel good either; he knows all my weak spots and everything I like. I wish he didn’t because now I’m so vulnerable.

I was really hot and he wasn’t making this better. I moaned and cried and moaned some more. Its not like I could hold back anymore. I felt so good. Maybe a little break can’t be so bad. I gripped on the edge of the table when I felt like I was cumming. I couldn’t hold it; this would be my third time when he hasn’t even done it yet. It was driving me nuts.

“Please, no.... more,” I begged.

Like hell would he stop. I let go of the table and he pulled me back on to his lap, his thrusting continued more powerfully, sending me into shock. I was twitching, my body wrenching. I couldn’t shut my mouth, it was just too good. His hands still gripped at my waist as he pulled me down harder and harder, going so deep inside me.

Oh...Ah..Ahh....Ha. Haa.

“I’ll leave you alone after this.” he kissed my neck over and over. I’m sure he won’t keep a promise like that. And even if he did, I wouldn’t be able to finish my paper. I already felt tired but regardless I wanted him to keep going on. For once, I didn’t regret feeling him inside me, I didn’t regret it at all. Not when it feels this good.

“Don’t....ah...stop.” I was giving him permission to actually do what he wanted. That barely ever happens. I didn’t think it would actually.

My breathing was so ragged, it matched the sloppy rhythm of my heart. I was dying, going crazy. Oh my god. He slowed down but went deep, in and out. It made me shudder every time I felt him move. I heard his moaning and groaning in my ear, it made me hornier than it should have. Is it wrong to say he sounds sexy like this? It was probably one reason why I wanted to keep going. Hearing him makes me tremble and shudder with goosebumps. I liked how he sounds and I know he’s paying attention to me, why wouldn’t he? He has me going insane like this, crying out for him only.

Why?

I was cumming and couldn’t stop it just like the other times. I didn’t care about the carpet being stained, its sort of a lost cause now. He throbbed inside me, indicating that he was ready to cum too. I can’t take it when he cums inside me, its too much. He knows this yet he does it anyway. My whole body curved but his hands gripped tighter on me as he held me in place. We came together, letting out everything we had. I twitched violently as he filled me up without mercy; he was getting everything all the way inside me. I couldn’t move when he did this, the only thing that happened was me screaming with pleasure and my vision blurring. That was it. I felt that good. I can’t let him do this to me again.

......

Or sleep:

Something moved in my room. I swear it isn’t Toby cause I could still hear his snoring. This isn’t right. I grabbed my phone and shown the light around. Next thing I knew, it was smacked out of my hand. I fucking knew it. Kellin had snuck in and gotten on top of me. I was just about to protest about his stupidity when he covered my mouth. Not with his hands, oh no, he tied something around my face that would keep my mouth sealed. This fuck face. I was about to hit him, forgetting everything about me being weak and shattering my arms, but he took both my wrists and put them together, tying it with something. What the hell? I can still scream like this if I have to, its not like I’m obligated to stay silent like this. But I can’t wake up Toby, he’ll only ask why I’m tied up like this.

“How about you stay quiet and I’ll finish this easily.” Kellin whispered. I shook my head in disapproval but this little shit wouldn’t care. He threw the sheets off the bed and pulled my pajamas pants off in one movement. I squirmed around violently, trying to get him off me but what good would that do? If he wanted sex, he could’ve just waited till tomorrow morning, he doesn’t have to put me through this sort of embarrassment.

All I could do was stay still. I was basically tied up. Is he into this sort of stuff because I’m not. Bondage is definitely a no no for me. It scares the shit out of me. He’s going to do whatever he wants, and I’m going to take it how he wants me to. Shit. It made me feel so weak but either way its not like I could fight him.

“If you keep squirming, I’ll make you scream,” he threatened. I growled, showing him I didn’t care. He can’t make me scream even if he tried to. Little shit is too cocky. He groped me hard; that surprised me and I did cry out from that point. This fabric over my mouth doesn’t even help. I might as well do what he says. I closed my eyes and laid still. His lips ran over my neck and down my collar bone as he fondled with the lower part of my body. I tried to keep from moaning, I really did. His fingers moved even lower, reaching my hole. I cringed and started to panic but he pinned me down.

“If you don’t relax, it will hurt.” he told me. I glared up at him. No fucking duh, of course it will hurt. I shook my head again, hoping he’ll just leave me alone. I wanted him to not do this to me. “Don’t be resistant,” he said. I moved my arms up to show him my hands THAT WERE TIED UP. He laughed lowly. “Yeah, no, I won’t untie you.” he said. I would be screaming and yelling if Toby wasn’t in the room. Dammit. Why the hell is he here? Kellin could at least move me. I groaned but he ignored me. Whatever.

His fingers moved in me and I arched. My teeth clenched down, biting my tongue as well. This isn’t a way to do this, he knows that. I didn’t know what to do at this point, I wanted to stop him from going any further but his fingers kept moving, spreading me wider and wider. I closed my eyes tightly and just tried to breathe. It would suck if I passed out. But I heard my moans as well, and I was being way too loud.

“You don’t want your friend to wake up.” he said. Of course not dumb ass. How would I explain my hard boner to him if he does see? Something please stop this, oh my god please. This is torture, I can’t take it.

He moved my legs up. What? That’s the only time he’s going to spend on doing...that? No no no. Its going to hurt. I shook my head, over and over again as I whined. I didn’t want him to just put it in like that. It will hurt like a bitch I swear. But he shushed me sweetly which made it all the more terrifying. He moved, I could feel the tip going in, and then all of him. My eyes stung as I tried to keep the tears inside my eyes. Its not fair how he does this to me. He started to move his hips before I adjusted to this. It still hurt but the pain started to just go away after every thrust. I closed my eyes, letting the water spill over my cheeks but they weren’t tears of pain anymore. I tried my hardest to keep calm but I passed that.

I always have that constant fear that he might tear me or something stupid like that. I mean, he shouldn’t be able to fit like this at all. But he can and its a lot.

The fabric around my mouth was getting soggy and wet; it started to loosen up and I was able to move it with my tongue. My first choice was to yell at him but he would still be able to fuck me no matter what. I choked back everything I could, all there was were the silent cries and all. WHY THE HELL IS HE GOOD AT THIS KIND OF THING? When I opened my eyes, I saw that he was staring down at me. That just made me nervous, I don’t want him doing that; my face was going red as he continued to just watch me. I wanted to say something about it but opening my mouth really isn’t an option right now, not when I could slip up and moan too loud. So I just let him fuck me like he wants to and I kept my comment to myself. Although, my hands being tied up was not going to work.

“Untie me,” I breathed. And he did just that. My hands were completely free. I moved my arms around his neck and pulled him down closer to my body. I can just moan into his sweater and everything will be okay. I’ll scold him for this shit later.

.......

Or even keep my dignity:

“This is embarrassing,” I complained as I held my hair back from my face. It wasn’t fair to have me on top this time when my body was in full view. I hated how he looked up at me like this, it made me nervous. I wanted to cover my face, no, I wanted to cover his. This is just shameful and I hated it.

“You look sexy,” he said. Yeah the hell right. He’s only clouded by lust to notice anything. This is so embarrassing, I wish I wasn’t in this position in the first place. But for some reason, he just loved it. Why? Is it cause I won’t fight him like this or what?

His hips moved, pushing in me more. I bit my lip and closed my eyes to try and control myself. My body trembled; I didn’t want to cave in but I felt like I was slipping. He kept going, not giving me enough time to recover from this at all. If I could make him stop for just a tiny second I would but he would never listen.

“You shouldn’t try to hold it in,” he laughed lightly, acknowledging my weakness. I was probably glowing red from embarrassment. But he was liking this; is that a negative or positive? He’s taking advantage of this though.

I’m always self conscious when I can see his body like this. And now he has the clearest view of mine right now. He’s all perfect and I’m just human. It makes me envious and I usually would never care.

I let my hair drop and I put my hands down on his chest. His skin was hot like mine. He didn’t cease to slow down just a bit. He’s throbbing inside me, and moving. I knew I was moving with him too, my hips were doing this on their own. But it felt good.

Ahh...ha.....aah....nn....ng

“Don’t pass out on me,” Kellin said.

“Same goes for you,” I retorted. It annoyed me how he thought I would just pass out; it made be good but not that good. I won’t die or anything. Maybe.

His hands moved to my hips and that made me more aggravated.

“Get your hands off me,” I tried to demand but it only came out as I cry. I saw his smile; he knows how it makes me crazy. I don’t like being held down like this at all.

“Do you plan on moving on your own?” he asked, getting cocky.

“Hell...no,” I stuttered. There was no way I could do that. Its already a lot to do this much, how can I just move by myself. I guess I could say it makes me nervous but I don’t like it this way; its like he gets to see everything. “J-j-just let g-go.” I tried to say. But he did something entirely different. His thrusts became rougher, getting deep inside me. My back arched as I felt his throbbing member, I couldn’t hold in my begging cry for him to stop.

“You sound sexy, Pierce.” he said. My heart cringed.

“D-don’t say somet-thing like t-that,” I said quickly before I could be cut off by moans. His hands released my waist and he stopped moving. It was a halt to pleasure. W-why would he stop so suddenly? I looked down at his face. He was only waiting on me now. I really didn’t want to do something like this but this feeling I had, all this heat, I knew it wouldn’t go away unless I did something about it.

So I did move my own hips, all by myself. He wasn’t touching me or doing anything. I just rode him like he wanted me to and I know he was enjoying something as lewd as this. I saw it on his face. But I couldn’t concentrate on something as irrelevant as that. I just moved, letting my body do what it knew best. Regret was the last thing on my mind because this was great. His hand moved to my face, just caressing my cheek and moving my hair back. I leaned my head on to his palm as I felt moans slip out of my gaping mouth. I was doing this on my own, all of it. And I was making him feel good too. But it wasn’t the same.

I wanted him moving, I wanted him to be in control, I wanted him to control me. That’s how it is and that’s what I know. My body ached for him to do what he wanted, I wanted to be mentally destroyed by his body. I wanted him to pound me hard and make me forget absolutely everything.

“D-do something....nng, K-kellin, m-move,” I cried out. His hand found mine and held it, intertwining his fingers with mine. Then I felt his hips moving with mine. It wasn’t subtle at all, he just went deeper and deeper without warning. My muscles tightened as I arched my back, twitching. It was like that was the only thing I could do. What is wrong with me? I let out a moan with every thrust that hit me hard.

He’s so hot and throbbing, not to mention inside me. Kellin’s inside me.

I closed my eyes and chewed on my lip. I know he’s looking at me, I don’t like it when he does that. My face stayed red and I know it will be worse if he doesn’t take his eyes off me. This was when I wanted to cover his face because I couldn’t control myself at this point. He knows what he’s doing to me and its unfair.

“Look at me,” he said. That’s what I didn’t want to do. But I opened my eyes to look down at him and into his silver eyes. Why does he look at me like that? I couldn’t keep my eyes on him. I felt like I could cum just from him looking at me like that. It upset me.

“Don’t stare,” I stuttered.

“You’re so erotic,” he bit his lip.

“Stop it,” I cried out. I hate it when he says things like that, it makes it worse. Especially when he’s doing this kind of thing to me. Why does he replace this type of thing amusing for?

I was panting and gasping, trying to ignore him but it was no use. He was the one doing this now so I have to accept it. Its not like I can’t feel him under me or inside me. Its not like I won’t be able to notice his body or his face or anything. His hand tightened in mine; I know he wanted to grab at my waist but I wouldn’t let him, not yet.

Haa...nng....ah...uh....ahhh...hnn.

.......

And that’s not all. I don’t even know how it happens like this but it just does. God, what is wrong with me, I just can’t get him away from me. Is it because I almost said I love him before? I wanted to know what it would be like, I did not know he would take it so seriously. I just want some time alone! Please!

“You need to stop hanging around and go do something for once.” Toby told me.

“I’m fine here. You know I have a lot of work to do anyway so if this is a lead in to set me up for something, just stop,” I warned him. I was trying to eat my food but he was trying to get some too. There’s nothing stopping me from stabbing him with my fork. I’m sure he would still eat my food anyway.

“Set you up? Pssht, what?” he pretended to be clueless. “C’mon man, I got these two girls and they got tickets for a concert,” he said quickly.

“Take them then,” I said.

“That’s shady, I need a wing man.” he complained.

“Oh,” I said plainly. It will not be me so he should know that. I don’t have time to waste when I have all kinds of things I have to do with my life. He poked at my spaghetti which made me want to slap him.

“It’ll be awesome,” he tried to persuade me. He’s sucking at that.

“No-” something caught my attention quickly. I tried to hold in my shock as I watched Kellin sit on my couch. Toby better not turn around or we might have a problem. Maybe I should just let him touch my food then to distract him. Why the hell was Kellin here anyway?

“Dude, you have to get out at least once. The only reason you leave is to work or go take some stupid class,” he picked at the food more. I wasn’t paying attention to him. I was staring at Kellin who was messing with my stuff. He tore off a piece of paper swiftly and began writing on it. What? What is this? He held it up for me when he was finished.

I need to talk to you, it read in perfect cursive. I shook my head at him slightly. There’s no way I’m going to just talk to him like that. Its obvious that there will be more than just talking anyway, that’s what it always is anyway. I don’t have time for that.

“...and you know, sometimes, I just want to chill. Is that so wrong or something, man, for real...” I was ignoring Toby at the fullest. Kellin had flipped the paper over and started writing again. Whatever it is, it will probably be a no again.

I want to fuck. I choked on air as my face became red. What the hell? I tried to cover up my falter like it was nothing but I had to deal with Kellin being a complete fuck. Why would he just write something like that? Oh I know, because he’s an idiot.

“Tell you what, I’ll go out with you tonight, is that okay? Good,” I moved hastily away into the bathroom. I heard Toby’s yelling even though I closed the door. I guess he was okay with that but kind of wasn’t. I turned on the shower water so I wouldn’t be heard when I start yelling at Kellin. I know he’s going to do something stupid.

His arm moved around me and I backed away. I don’t want him touching me when I know what he wants. Horny freak.

“What do you want?” I asked.

“Well,” he pulled me back against him. His body was cold, super cold. Is he supposed to feel like this. I frowned when he wouldn’t let me go. “For starters, I just wanted to see you,” he said.

“You see me everyday, now let go,” I tried to get him away from me but I honestly should have learned that never happens. I sighed and stopped moving.

“The second thing was to tell you that there’s other vampires around that....won’t be merciful to humans.” he questioned how he put that.

“Why?” I asked.

“They’re all distractions, something to set us all off, blah blah blah,” he rolled his eyes. This whole thing has been hurting me too. Kellin is now obligated to do what he must in order to protect me without having people know about it. This is one reason I’m against this whole thing. We could both be killed if he doesn’t stop this. “Just be careful, okay, I don’t want you to get hurt,” he said. I pursed my lips as I looked away. I’m not surprised that he cares or anything, its just overwhelming.

“You’re cold,” I said. It was getting hot in here from the steamed water. But he was still freezing cold no matter what. His arms tightened around me, holding me closer to hard body. I frowned at how tight he was holding me. His head nuzzled onto my shoulder.

“I’m hungry,” he said. Oh.

........

I don’t know how I thought about this whole situation. I don’t even know if he was implying anything with that, he probably wasn’t but still. I thought for a moment, trying to see if I could provoke any emotion from this whole situation but I couldn’t.

I opened my mouth to make a request.

“What if-”

“Don’t give me permission on that.” he cut me off.

“Why?” I asked. I’m sure he would love to do something like this and now he’s denying me. Its kind of a shocker cause he usually doesn’t show self control. I know he would have jumped at this sort of thing if he was given the opportunity to.

“Because I would have to take it if you said yes,” he murmured.

“Are you stupid, that’s the point.” I said.

“I don’t want to hurt you,” he said into my sweat shirt. Oh. I bit down on my lip, thinking. All he’s going to do is kill someone else. I could prevent that if I needed to. Its like saving someone’s life. But Kellin is right I guess, he could hurt me. I doubt he will though. Its not like he ever would. He’s trying so hard not to.

“Fine, whatever. Let go of me,” I said plainly. But he didn’t. I couldn’t even move my arms to shove him away from me. His tongue licked over my neck. I shivered. That was unexpected. Is he going to do it or not? He let go of me and pulled back. The first thing I noticed were his teeth; there were large white fangs in the midst of the rest of line of teeth. It made me a bit nervous to honestly see how sharp they were.

Never mind. I hope he never uses those teeth on me. I pushed him away from me now and he did back off. Of course he would never test himself when he’s like that. So he left like I assumed he would.

I took a shower and got dressed for a pretty boring night. It was when I noticed Toby had dressed up all nice that something was going on. Why would he do that when I look like shit. All I had on was a beanie, a black sweatshirt and jeans. That’s it. And now he looks like his hipster self.

“Okay listen, so I called my girl and she said she and her friend were going to that under ground club downtown. So we’re going.” he said. I groaned obnoxiously. “Please man, lets do this. You need some fun too.” he said. No I don’t, I’m perfectly fine here.

“There’s a dress code, I don’t want to change.” I complained.

“That’s fine, they’ll get you in.” he pushed me out. I really don’t want to go outside. Its still really cold and everything. Even though the snow had melted a long way back, its still freezing. I can see my breath when I breathe. I hated this. He had to struggle to get me out of the lobby. The cold air hit me once we were outside. I groaned and muttered how much I hated him for doing this to me. I don’t want to go out, I don’t want to go to a club, I just want to stay home.

We walked, took the train, and walked some more. The club downtown is just some regular joint sketchy people go to. I know how it is. Nothing good happens there, one reason I don’t want to be there. Another reason is because everyone that goes there are people I know. Then they’ll think I’ll want to go every single night which I don’t. I hate Toby for this.

“Look, its Jesse,” he pointed. I didn’t even take a glance. I just looked forward to the longest line I’ve ever seen.

“You do know we are never getting in, right?” I asked, completely avoiding the fact that he just pointed out my ex girlfriend. I’m not surprised she’s waiting in line anyway, this is her kind of life. I’m not judging, she can do what she wants.

“I have that covered.” he said and instead of going in line, we just went off in the direction of these two blond girls.

“No,” I didn’t believe it. Toby scored the prettiest girls here. I mean they were beautiful, what are they doing in a shady place like this? I’m being serious. Its like they were classy models. No, that doesn’t just happen. He gave me a cheesy smile and waved to one of them. They seemed excited to see us here. I feel like we’re under aged; I know we’re legal and all but I still feel like we’re under aged. This night isn’t going to end so well isn’t it? Its like a disaster waiting to happen.

“I’m sorry for the last minute-”

“No its cool, we made it work,” he said to her sweetly. Made it work my ass. I stared at the two girls. Then I saw something out of the corner of my eye. It was fast movement, something I shouldn’t be able to pick up on. I looked up slightly. There were two people standing around up on the building roof, like they were patrolling. For what? I moved my eyes to the other side. And there was Kellin. I groaned in my head, wanting to bang my head against the concrete wall. What is he doing? I looked back to the girls. One of them seemed uneasy but tried to cover it up.

“Oh, my bad. Pierce this is Donna and Hannah. Girls, this is Pierce.” Toby introduced us. I just waved slightly, being awkward. I was really preoccupied at the moment. WHAT THE HELL IS KELLIN DOING? I tried to shove my curiosity in a hole but I was mad. I wanted to know what he and his friends were doing here. What makes him think I wouldn’t catch it. I guess he’s not as secretive as he thought he could be.

Toby was dragging me behind him. We were cutting the line completely, we didn’t even get in. So that’s how it works then. The only thing good about this was passing Jesse and seeing her shocked face when we walked by. She couldn’t believe it; we were in front of her. I would have fist pumped but that’s rude. The girls showed the usher their IDs and said we were with them. I guess that’s it then. We were in.

The place was dark except for the flashing white lights; they were only on for seconds, flashing way too fast. I got that feeling I get when at a concert like that. Oh this is pretty awesome. The music was so loud, it drowned out any other noise that could be produced. People were going crazy here, just dancing and drinking. But I know I can’t drink, I have to be up tomorrow. One of the blonds took my hand like the other took Toby’s and we were pulled off to the dance floor. Cool. This place was amazingly huge. There was a second floor too, with people dancing and drinking up there. I got into something as cool as this, I might as well have fun. Everyone else is. Its a nice place, I guess I shouldn’t be so bitter and just party.

That is, IF KELLIN WAS NOT HERE. He was up, standing by the railings. With the flashes of the lights, I caught a glimpse of him. He was looking straight at me and it seemed like he was shaking his head somehow but not because of what I thought. I think its a warning. He pointed to the girl and then brought his hands to his mouth, making fangs with his fingers.

I went into a horrified state. The girls dancing next to me, this blond Toby hooked me up with, this beautiful girl is a vampire. Dammit, I should have known. Shady, shady, shady. I looked around, trying to make it seem like I wasn’t having a panic attack. She isn’t hurting me right now so I shouldn’t act on anything. Kellin would take care of it if something were to happen. God, I hope he would though. I turned away, pretending I wasn’t distracted. Just pretend because I have to now. I was scared so how the hell am I supposed to have fun. Toby picked up to vampires, is he out of his freakin mind?!

I could barely focus on one thing just because of the strobe lights. It was hard to not look around. It was like a one second motion picture. And then I was being grinded on. From all directions. Oh my god. I forgot what this was like. Shit. Wait, where the hell is Toby? He and his girl was gone. That’s not even okay now. I tried to at least move away from all these butts but.....no. I stayed put cause this was nice. So I looked around. Kellin was still in the same place, talking to someone across the whole place. They were giving signals and all kinds of things. Way to be discreet. They were gone in the next flash. There was one spot on me that wasn’t warm anymore, the friction stopped, and it felt like that body was gone. The blond girl wasn’t in front of me anymore.

I saw it all happen like it was slow motion. These lights help with that. That friend of Kellin’s, I think his name was Layne, had pinned the blond on the floor. No one noticed. They fought and fought. Its not like anyone could hear all the growling and snarling, the song was too loud for that. What allude me was how NO ONE NOTICED! A head was flown in the air and soon exploded into dust; I feel like people thought it was confetti. My eye twitched. What the hell? I looked back down at the floor. There was dust everywhere. Which one was it? Who died? One of them was gone now. I looked around hastily, looking for a way out, then someone was pulling on me. I was being dragged through the crowd by Kellin. That’s a no no but I let him pull me on with him. He took me upstairs with him. I got a clear view of everything from up here, I could see everything and everyone.

Where’s Toby?! I looked at Kellin in panic. He was scanning the place, just looking around, then he stopped. His hand let go of mine as he climbed up on the railing. What is he doing? He was gone in the next flash and I couldn’t see him again. Well this is just fucking great. I could scream at the world if I truly wanted to because no one would hear me but I better not. I was just going to wait patiently for Kellin to get back here.

I saw fast movements on the ground level. The girl got her head ripped off. I don’t know why but seeing Kellin do something like that kind of set me off. I know what he is, I know what he does, I know his strengths. But I’ve never seen something like that from him yet. And I never expected to. Should this make me scared? I was just neutral now. He could kill anyone he wanted so easily, he doesn’t have to put up one fight or anything. I should know that. But its him.

I had to leave. I was dying in here. I needed fresh air and I was not going to get that in here, there were too many people and I was suffocating. I walked down the stairs and tried to replace my way; I didn’t feel any better till I did. My stomach was churning like I might be sick; it hurt worse than anything. This was not what I hoped to go through. The cold air helped with my quick sickness that I was feeling. I just want to go home.

“Are you okay?” Kellin was behind me. I looked to him slowly, trying not to trigger anything. He didn’t have Toby with him.

“Where’s Toby?” I asked.

“He’ll be fine.” he said. “You are not though,” he pressed his palm to my forehead. His hand was just as cold as this dry air. I moved it, not wanting to be touched. I know its cruel but I can’t deal with it, not at the moment.

“I’m fine.” I murmured and walked on ahead. He followed behind me quietly like he would have, I expected it anyway. I just hated how care free he was with something like this but I guess that’s his life. He does that kind of thing all the time, right? Of course.

When I got home, I ended up going to the bathroom and throwing up.