Let Me Love You Again
Chapter 23

Maya

I came out of the bathroom trying to act as if nothing had happened, passing a hand through my hair and trying to untangle it. I looked around and walked over to the bar, pretending I had been there all along, perched on a stool, and ordered a non-alcoholic.

I stayed there for a while before Jess and Lucas caught up with me.

“Where the hell were you?” Jess asked me drunk.

“I’ve always been here, Jess,” I said biting my cheek, I hated lying to her, but I certainly couldn’t tell her I was f****d against the bathroom door by her brother.

“That’s not true!” she said, shaking her head, “I didn’t see you.”

I looked at her and I skimmed my shoulders as Lucas looked down at me, trying to get some information from my reactions, so I remained impassive and kept drinking from my drink.

Nate hadn’t left the bathroom yet. I was a little sorry to have left him with a considerable e******n in the bathroom, but I certainly couldn’t suck his d**k, even though I wanted to, I would certainly have suspected Jess even more.

I looked at the clock on the screen, it was f*****g late.

“Damn it’s late. My mother will be tired,” I said, going to the table and getting my things.

“Do you need a ride?” asked Matthew, Andrew’s friend.

“No thanks I’ll get an Uber,” I said as I put on my coat.

As I grabbed my purse, Nate slumped down on the sofa with a sigh and grabbed his glass, knocking all the contents down in one sip.

“I can accompany you,” Matthew offered as I pulled my hair out of my coat.

Nate immediately pulled himself up and looked at him grimly as Devon watched him subtly, a smile on his face.

“No need,” I said, turning a blind eye.

“Wait May we’ll come too,” Lucas said, pulling Devon’s arm around his boyfriend.

Jess had sat next to Andrew and her eyes were almost closed and her head was resting on her husband’s shoulders.

I bent down and gave her a k**s on the cheek and then did the same with Andrew. I approached Nate and kissed him on the cheek while he whispered in my ear “You owe me an o****m” with all the seriousness of the world.

“Even two,” I answered and stood up, leaving him with eyes that sparkled in a particular way.

I walked to the door with Lucas and Devon on my heels as I wrote a message to my mother.

When we went outside we opted for a taxi instead of waiting for an Uber. We went inside and I grimaced, feeling a pleasant pain between the thighs.

God, I thought that with the end of the novelty, s*x with Nate would become less intense, less passionate, and less dizzying, but the more time passed the more I wanted more, and more my mind did nothing but bring me back to him, to his breaths, m***s, his Hands against my skin, his c**k pounding inside me as I came, o*****s that made my head spin and my legs shake.

No one made me feel this way, no one ever pushed me into a public restroom where anyone could walk in, and yet at the exact moment I saw him come in, All my mind did was tell me to get him naked right now and spread my legs like a f*****g prostitute.

No one made me feel this way, no one ever pushed me into a public restroom where anyone could walk in, and yet at the exact moment I saw him come in, All my mind did was tell me to get him naked right now and spread my legs like a f*****g prostitute.

The inside of my thighs pained me nicely and all I wanted was to get him back between my legs, behind me, or underneath. God, I had a problem because I could feel the humidity in my thighs again just thinking of Nate naked underneath me.

I moved slightly on the seat, closing my legs and feeling a shock from the center and radiating throughout my body.

“Tell me, Maya,” Devon began calmly, drawing my attention, “Why are you moving like someone who’s just been f****d to death? Not to mention that you have another mark on your neck that looks like a bite,” he continued pointing to my neck.

Immediately, I carried a hand around my neck, staring at him as Devon nodded proudly at his discovery.

Lucas snapped next to him and looked at me, grabbing at the door. I thanked God he wasn’t standing next to me.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he said, turning a blind eye.

“You let Nate f**k you again!” Lucas yelled, looking at me and frowning, “What a b***h! You said you wouldn’t do that again!”

“Oh please! I didn’t say I wouldn’t do it again!” I defended myself immediately.

“What a b***h! You Admit it too!” Lucas laughed.

I folded my arms across my chest, pretending to be offended and looking out the window.

“And?” said Lucas.

“What?” I asked without looking at him.

“How is he sober?” he asked curiously.

“By the way she’s shaking every time she closes or rubs her legs, I’d say very good,” Devon said.

“Do you spend a lot of time watching me?” I asked curiously.

Devon laughed as Lucas looked at me.

“All right! Sometimes he f***s me so hard that I can hardly walk!” I admitted remembering the quickie in the car this week and how my legs were aching all shift, not that I had complained, I didn’t know who had given me the strength to get out of that car.

“Sometimes?! How many times did you f**k him?!” Lucas asked, shocked as Devon laughed.

“I just saw him once!” I defended myself.

“Where and when Sheppar! I want the details!” Lucas chirped.

“I’m certainly not going to give you the details, Lucas,” he glared at me, “OK, he came on Monday night and we did it in the car,” I said immediately under his gaze, “And first in the bathroom. The real problem is, that he didn’t want to do it in the bathroom. It’s like I’m possessed when he’s around, I can’t think straight unless I get naked in front of him.” I admitted a bit uncomfortable. “I thought the memories I had of the night of the party had been diverted a bit by alcohol, the memories of what we had done and how, but then in the car… I thought if we did as sober, that new taste would go away, and once we did, I would stop… want to… but later” I sighed closing my eyes and thinking about the nights when I couldn’t sleep during that week and I had touched myself imagining that my hands were his, that the fingers that entered me were Nate’s “I just thought about that moment and how much I wanted to do it again and when he came to the bathroom, it’s as if my mind had gone out and my legs opened by themselves, I can’t explain it” I concluded my monologue and he opened his eyes to replace Lucas and Devon staring at me as the cab rushed through the streets of the city.

“You’re horny,” said Lucas

“You’re in love,” Devon said at the same time.

I opened my mouth wide and looked at Devon as Lucas did next to him.

“In love? Don’t be stupid! Please! I don’t have time for certain things and I certainly wouldn’t go looking for love in Nate Dare. He broke my heart! He was my first love and the first to break it!” I said shaking my head.

“Some say that first love never forgets, you know?” replied Devon seriously.

“What are you… Lucas, please shut your boyfriend up,” I said, looking at the seat in front of me.

“I’m sorry, May, but I agree with him,” my friend admitted. I opened my mouth and looked at them both, “Who’s to say you’re just not falling in love again? Maybe you never stopped”.

“We’ve had s*x, a few times, and that’s it! There’s nothing! It’s just s****l chemistry. We f**k and it’s great. Stop. Nate’s not the man for me,” I said, looking out the window.

“Sorry, May,” Lucas said, but I didn’t turn around.

“It doesn’t matter,” I answered.

The taxi came to my apartment and I got out, paid for the ride, and said goodbye to my friends.

When I got home, after saying goodbye to my mother, I threw myself in the shower and I stayed there more than I had to, trying to remove Nate’s marks from my body but not being able to eliminate them from my mind.

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NB: Ehi guys! Sorry for these days without any updates but i got the flu and I slept for like two days. So this is the first chapter of the day. Stay tuned, I’ll post more!