Let Me Love You Again
Chapter 27

Maya

I looked at the clock hanging on the wall and then, for the hundredth time, at the phone in my pocket, and found the text box empty, again. I put the phone in my pocket with a sigh.

It had been two weeks, fourteen days, since the night Nate and I had spent together, since the last time I had seen and heard from him.

From that day on, he was completely off the grid.

He didn’t call me. He didn’t look for me. He didn’t come to my house.

The next day, I had waited for him until 1 a.m, I had spent the whole afternoon shaving, I had wrinkled my whole body, I had settled home, changed the sheets, take extra food, but he had never shown up.

Why I cared so much I didn’t know. But I couldn’t help feeling disappointed every time I looked at my phone and didn’t replace any messages from him.

I’d been avoiding Jeremy for two weeks. For two weeks he had been inviting me out, and for two weeks I had made up excuses not to go, even though I had nothing to do at night. But I spent my nights waiting for something, someone. After all those days, Jeremy just stopped asking me, and maybe I deserved it.

I didn’t want to admit it, but every night I was waiting, with the TV on and the phone in front of me, hoping and waiting for a message, a call, a notification, anything.

What was wrong with me?

What was that all about?

Did I do something wrong?

I even talked to Lucas about it, and he just told me to call Nate myself, ask him to come to me, to spend the night together, but my pride prevented me.

What would I do if Nate got tired of me already? What would I do if Nate found someone better? If he was with someone else?

I don’t know why, but the thought of Nate being with someone else made me tremble, crumble something inside of me like I was really in physical pain.

I shook my head and went to change room. Now my shift was over. I felt much more tired than I had been and my head was beating violently.

Please don’t let anything get to me, don’t let anything get to me.

I changed quickly and got out of the hospital, avoiding anyone who might even be a problem with my return.

As soon as I arrived in the car I tied my belt and locked myself, feeling my head beating more and more.

Maya

I definitely have something, I can feel it.

I collapsed and rested my head on the steering wheel, closing my eyes just for a moment and taking a deep breath.

I opened my eyelids when the ringing of my phone started to make my head beat even more. Blindly, I put my hand in the bag and pulled out my phone, answering without even looking at who was calling me.

“Hello?” I said with a string of my voice.

“Maya! Damn, where the hell are you?!” my mother cried.

“I just disconnected Mom, I’m coming home,” I said, pulling myself up and resting my head on the seat and sighing.

“Do you know what time it is?” my mother continued.

I opened my eyes and looked at the clock on the dashboard.

11:25 pm

f**k!

I looked up and looked around, the parking lot was half empty and a layer of moisture had formed on the front glass.

“Damn it,” I said with my teeth clenched, shivering all over my body.

No no no no no.

I put my hand on my forehead, felt it, and felt it when I was f*****g hot.

“Where have you been all this time?”

“I fell asleep in the car,” I shook my head.

“How did you fall asleep?” my mother chuckled.

“I think I have a fever,” I said with a sigh, “Take Axel’s things and take him to your place, I’m a bacterial weapon until I get over it,” I said, starting the engine.

“And leave you alone?” my worried mother said.

“Yes, Mom! No one can get close, you have to take care of Axel can you do that?” I said, exasperated.

“All right, I’ll call your dad and get you some medicine. Take a cab, Maya. You can’t drive with a fever.”

“Don’t worry, Mom,” I said, hanging up.

Very calmly and carefully I got home, it took me twice the time to avoid crashing into someone else.

As soon as I got out of the elevator, I found an envelope of medicine attached to the door. I opened the door and I closed it behind me, inserting the lock.

Without turning on any light, I walked to my room, gliding along the way, and then I threw myself into bed and covered myself up to my head, before collapsing into a deep sleep.

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I opened my eyes and heard my phone ringing again. The sun filtering from the tents was dim and the sky was darkening, a sign that it was late afternoon. I looked at the alarm clock on the bedside table and noticed that it was after five o’clock and I had slept for almost a day.

I felt my forehead and it felt still hot as my phone rang again. Snorting, I stretched my arm and grabbed it, and I was buried in the blankets.

Nate’s name appeared on the screen accompanied by a stupid picture of himself. While reading his name my heart galloped a little faster but I didn’t give in, I didn’t even have the strength to talk to him, so I put the answering machine and waited.

After a few minutes, I called my mother and asked about my baby, my heart cried for the lack of my little child, of his blue eyes, but I knew that Axel had to stay away from me to prevent him from catching a fever like mine.

I hung up the phone and got up, going to the kitchen to take some medicine and throw myself back on the bed. The fatigue and the effect of the medicine took over and I fell back into a deep sleep.

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My phone woke me up again, making me m**n annoyed. My head had started to beat painfully, I picked up the phone and diverted the call again, obscuring Nate’s cheerful face that appeared on the screen.

I roll over in bed, cursing myself for leaving my meds on the kitchen table, forcing me to get up again.

I coughed and got up, wrapping the blanket around my body.

The lights in my little apartment were all off and I had no visibility when I stumbled across the blanket and slammed into a hallway cabinet cursing like a man, almost choking on the lump of phlegm that had formed in my throat.

I coughed loudly and at that moment someone knocked on the door. The sound rang in my head and I closed my eyes, moaning with pain.

What the hell did I get?

I snorted and went to the door, unlocking the lock and opening the door to the raider who had decided to come and bother me at that very moment and I found him there, in front of me.