Let Me Love You Again
Chapter 51

Maya

I shook Nate’s hand, and then I got up, took the dishes off the table, and I took them to the sink, and I took Axel’s. I started to rinse them with water and put them in the dishwasher when he heard Nate move behind me, but I didn’t notice.

I turned off the water and at that moment Axel’s soft voice caught up with me, “Mama!” he screamed at the top of his lungs.

My heart missed a beat and I froze. I turned around and looked at my baby, who was cheering in Nate’s arms. My heart filled with joy and tears rose in my eyes then Axel handed me something and my gaze shifted to what was in his hand.

My breath stuck in my throat and I stared as I looked at the ring inside the case. The central diamond was accompanied by two blue stones, the silver circle was half-hidden by the velvet of the black box.

I looked over at Nate, meeting his love-filled blue eyes.

“Maya…” he began to say before swallowing the saliva “I love you, I love you more than I ever imagined to love someone and I love Axel more than anything else, I know that we are together recently, but I can not imagine a life without you. If I look to the future, the only thing I see is you and Axel and our future kids, so I figured why wait? I know what I want, and it’s you, ever since we were kids, ever since we grew up and hid in the backyard to piss off Jess, I never wanted anyone else as I want you. I want you, I want Axel, I want our family,” he moved Axel in front of him and handed him to me while Axel handed me the box with the ring, then he took a deep breath “So, Maya Sheppar, would you do me the honor of becoming my wife, becoming Maya Dare and allowing me to give Axel my last name?” he asked with his eyes fixed on mine.

I opened my mouth to answer but the words died in my throat while I could no longer hold back the tears that began to flow on my face.

“Mama,” Axel said. He was sorry.

I began to sob and immediately my baby leaned toward me. I took him in my arms and sunk my face into his perfumed collar as he held me tight. I looked up from Axel’s neck and I looked at my beautiful man standing there looking at me, his body stretched, his gaze indecipherable.

Without thinking twice, I threw myself on him and kissed him, kissed him with everything I had, with all of myself, granted myself to him and immediately Nate surrounded me with his arms and pushed me against him, attacking our bodies almost as if he wanted to unite them together and make sure that they did not come apart anymore.

Axel got in the way and stuck his head between mine and Nate’s, interrupting our k**s. I turned my head and rubbed my nose on his chubby cheek as Axel wrapped his other arm around Nate’s neck laughing cheerfully and repeating “Mama, mama, mama, mama, mama” then gave me a mold k**s on the lips and then say “mama, dada, mama, dada” cheerfully.

I laughed and I kissed him on the cheek and then I turned my eyes to Nate, who put a hand on my cheek and wiped my tears with his thumb.

“I haven’t heard the answer yet,” he said seriously.

“If I get naked here, and is that enough for you?”

“As much as I appreciate the idea, I want an answer,” he said, “Will you marry me?” he repeated.

I sighed and approached his face, rubbing his nose with mine “Yes Nate Dare, there is nothing I desire more in the world than become your wife,” I said.

Nate smiled wide and then put a hand in my hair, pushing my head against him and capturing my lips with his.

“Dada,” Axel said, interrupting us.

Nate broke away from me and took Axel, who now had tired eyes. Our child rested his head in the recess of Nate’s neck while he took the box out of his hand and pulled out the ring. I reached out to him, trembling and excited. Nate put the ring on my ring finger and then bent over to k**s it. When he looked up, his eyes were shiny, but he hid immediately.

Axel repeated “Mama” sleepily.

“Since when do you know how to say Mama?” I asked, bending my head to the side.

Nate laughed, “It’s our little secret, isn’t it, Axel?” he said and my baby nodded before yawning and snuggling better in Nate’s arms.

“Mmmh and the other proposal?” he asked, looking me in the eye.

“Do you really want to give him your last name?” I asked with a thread of my voice, Nate nodded confident “What would that mean? Legally speaking,” I asked again.

“It would imply that on paper he would be my actual son,” he said frowning.

“Can it be challenged by anyone?” I asked insecurely.

Nate looked at me with dubious attention, “Who?” he asked.

My body trembled, as well as my lower l*p “Brad” I said with a thread of voice recalling the meeting that morning.

“If he asks for a DNA test and it turns out positive, he has every right to challenge it,” he said seriously.

I felt my body being shaken by tremor and I immediately looked at my baby. What if Brad came to Philadelphia to get Axel? What if he wanted to take me to a court for his custody?

“What scares you?” Nate asked, grabbing my chin and looking at him.

“May he show up one day and take him away from me, may he make demands, may he take me to court and take Axel from me,” I said almost in tears.

“I’ll never let that happen,” Nate confidently said, “I’ll discuss it with Dad and we’ll replace a way to stop it, okay?” Nate came over and laid his forehead on mine.

I breathed deeply, his perfume that invaded me and reassured me like every time. I trusted him like I never trusted anyone in my life.

“I love you,” I said, closing my eyes and letting her perfume lull me.

“Good, because now I put the little brat to bed and I f**k you, just in heels and my ring,” he said in a hoarse voice.

My legs almost trembled and I laughed. I opened my eyes and I saw Axel blissfully asleep. I left a k**s on his lips and turned to the sink, then put my hand in front of me and looked at my ring happy. The diamond shone under the light of the chandelier, the blue stones reminded me of the color of Nate’s eyes that at that moment came up and left a k**s under my ear.

“Mine,” he said. His voice went all over my body, giving me a shiver that consolidated in my core.

He turned and immediately went to Axel’s room. I hurried to put the dishes in the dishwasher and clean the table, then I rushed into the bedroom and took off my dress, took from the drawer a box with underwear I had bought for Valentine’s Day, and put it on.

I kept my heels and my ponytail up.

I went to the mirror and I looked at myself. Lucas knew what he was doing and he hit the spot and convinced me to buy it. The balconette bra highlighted my breasts partially covered by red lace, the red lace thong had threads that intertwined at the h**s and clashed with the garter belt whose pendants fell soft on the thighs. I winked at myself in the mirror, happy and satisfied as I turned and looked at myself in the back uncovered.

I took a deep breath and I heard “Holy s**t” I turn to the door and I found Nate standing on the threshold with his mouth open and almost drooling.

I went around on myself, “Do You like it,” and I asked him, putting my hands on my h**s.