Lustful Hearts
Chapter 50: Gоіng Home - P2

Tears filled my eyes at his sweet words, but I had to make him understand. "I need you now, Joel, please, don't make me wait.

I want my head to be filled with only memories of you. I ache for you to be inside me. Please don't deny me this, don't make me beg."

He looked conflicted, struggling with his decision. "Are you sure, baby? I don't want to hurt you."

"The only thing that will hurt is if you are denying me what is mine."

His face dropped, shocked by my words. "I would never do that, you know I'm yours always."

"Then please, love me, make me remember the first time. I need you to remind me just how good it was again."

His face was barely inches away from mine. My thumb skimmed over his soft lips as we stared deep into each other's eyes. "Then promise me if it gets too much you'll stop me. I'm not going any further than what you allow me to."

"Yes." I shifted my head, so my lips brushed lightly against his, but he pulled back much to my annoyance.

"Promise me, Iz, or we go no further." I could tell by the defiant look on his face he meant it.

I rolled my eyes, grabbing his face. "I promise, now please I don't want to have to wait a moment longer."

I caught the look of hesitance in his eyes when his lips tenderly kissed mine. They worked their way leisurely down my neck to stop at my favourite hotspot just below my ear. "Oh god, Joel, just there." "You like that, baby?" he breathed.

I let out a soft moan. "Yes, but I want more..."

His fingers began unbuttoning my top, and I concentrated on relaxing my breathing. Just the thought of his lips working their way down my body had my heart skyrocketing.

I sighed when his lips skimmed over my satin cup. He toyed and teased with my nipple on the outside of the material. They began to harden as my body longed to feel his touch. I panted with desire, but it wasn't enough.

"Joel, please, I need you."

His lust-filled eyes stared deep into mine, I could see his own desire radiating through him. He pushed himself up off the bed, and I watched him strip off every single piece of clothing until he was stood gloriously naked in front of me.

His body looked even better, if that were possible. My eyes took in every inch of him before resting on his erection. My heartbeat quickened at what was about to happen. "Are you sure, Iz? I don't care how long, I will wait."

My eyes instantly snapped up to his concerned ones. "Please, I need you to love me now."

He let out a loud sigh of defeat and gently slipped off my pyjama bottoms. He glided them down my legs, taking extra care over my bandaged foot.

I unhooked my bra dropping it down as his warm hands brushed against my hips, removing the fine satin material leaving me totally naked.

"Like what you see?" he asked smiling shyly. My eyes lingered over his beautiful naked body, but he already knew my answer.

"Always," I whispered as I became breathless from the intensity of his eyes, staring deep into mine. They were filled with so much love, I knew this couldn't be wrong.

He quickly rolled on the condom as his warm body slipped back into my bed, and I closed my eyes. His lips slowly brushed up against mine, and I moaned with pleasure as his tongue circled and teased against my own.

I instantly felt bereft the moment his mouth left mine, but I soon smiled when his lips softly began working their way down my neck.

His feather like kisses left me gasping with pleasure, each one setting my body on fire. His touch ignited the flames inside. My body burned for him and only him. I would never tire of his touch or ever have my fill of him.

After covering every inch of my neck, he began his torturous trail working his way down to my breasts. I groaned in delight when his tongue lapped, circled, and sucked each nipple. They both grew more erect in appreciation of his oral skills.

The sensation of his fingers inside me was my undoing, slowly stroking me to an orgasm, like he had done so many times before.

God, I had missed those magic fingers.

I whimpered when I grew closer, his mouth muffling my moans as his tongue took on the same rhythm as his fingers. My eyes rolled back, and I grabbed handfuls of the pillow, tightly clenching around his fingers.

I was panting so hard I could barely breathe. The pleasure was so intense. My body had gone into shock. I finally managed to come down and opened my eyes to replace Joel staring back.

He kissed me lovingly once again. "Are you sure, Iz?"

I looked longingly into his eyes, not even questioning my own reply. "Yes, more than anything in my whole life. I need you Joel... always." I wanted to savour every touch, every kiss and feeling he evoked inside me.

I gasped the moment he slipped inside, this time there was no pain, only pleasure. He filled me so deep, and it was better than anything I ever remembered.

"Oh god, Joel," I moaned, the moment he started to slowly rock back and forwards inside me. His tongue gently swirled and caressed against mine.

My hand made its way up into his hair, and I grabbed onto it as the other hand glided slowly down his skin, to stop and stroke the small dimples at the small of his back.

"Oh god, Izzy, there were times I never thought—”

"Shhh baby, I know me too." My fingers grabbed him tighter when he began to take me higher and higher, but then I froze.

It was like my body was scared once it reached that moment of euphoria, everything would be taken away again like last time.

Joel's eyes instantly snapped open. "Izzy, are you okay?"

"No." I shook my head, feeling the tears already.

Why was I freaking out now?

His eyes filled with concern. "Do you want me to stop?"

My face dropped to the side, unable to look at him. "No . . . I'm just scared that once it's over you'll leave me again, and all I'll be left with are the memories." A tear rolled down my cheek at the very thought.

His thumb gently grazed my cheek, wiping away the tear. His fingers slowly turned my face back around, and he pressed his lips lightly against mine. My eyes fluttered open to stare into his beautiful blue.

"I'm not going anywhere. Seriously, I am never leaving your side. We may as well become surgically attached."

His words brought an instant smile to my face. I laughed as I rolled my hips.

Now that wouldn't be a bad thing.

"Ahh, you like that idea." His hips ground into me again, and my eyes rolled back as a surge of pleasure filled my body.

He began his slow torture again, and my body began to climb, this time I couldn't stop even if I wanted to. The pleasure became so intense, I needed a release.

"Joel, I'm close," I panted, gripping him tighter, my nails biting into his skin.

"Me too, baby-oh god, Iz, please open your eyes."

I shook my head in frustration. "I can't I need to concentrate."

"Please . . . for me, baby. I need this, I need to see you." His nose nudged against mine, and my eyes slowly opened to see the intensity in his shining back.

"Joel-oh-god-Joel." I groaned loudly when the orgasm hit me like an explosion, shattering me into pieces.

Joel rocked inside me a few more times. "Izzy, Izzy, oh god-Izzy." Our eyes stayed connected, watching him reach his own climax.

The intense pleasure crossed his beautiful face, and I knew even after a lifetime of orgasms, I would never get tired of watching him.

My body slowly came down from the high. He lay down panting on top of me, his head pressed into my chest. "Oh god, Izzy, that was amazing. It feels so different with you, the connection, I've never felt anything like it before."

I kissed his head and stroked his hair as a tear rolled down my cheek. I felt his head leave my chest, pulling himself up to look at me. "Oh god, did I hurt you? I'm so sorry, baby."

I placed my finger over his lips. "It was perfect."

His eyes widened, silently questioning my tears.

I soothingly stroked his face. "You were perfect, Joel. You are my perfect slice of heaven."

A shy smile crossed his face. "Then you are my perfect little angel."

"Not anymore..." My eyes instantly closed, David had long stolen that from me.

"Hey, you'll never be less than perfect to me. I should be the one embarrassed, if I could have gone back in time and waited for you, I would. I wished things were different. I wished you could have been my first."

My eyes opened in surprise. "I was."

"What?" he gasped. I pressed my hand onto his steadily fast beating heart.

"I was the first person you loved, gave your heart to, the other things are just insignificant. You own me body and soul, wherever you go you take me with you, you carry my heart in your heart."

A tear rolled down my cheek, and he tenderly wiped it away with his thumb, pressing his lips against mine. More tears trickled after, and I pulled away, I had to finish telling him exactly how I felt.

"This body burns only for you, Joel. My heartbeats only for you, and I will never feel this way about anyone else. If you leave me, then I will be nothing but an empty cold shell. I need you to breathe, to function, to live."

His finger caressed against my cheek. "Then I am yours, all yours. You... me... forever."

"Perfect," I breathed. His lips once again merged with mine, our union now complete.☐☐☐☐☐☐☐