My Love for You Broke Me
Chapter 64

Chapter 64

Chapter 64

I didn't mention Christopher's name.

Olivia might not know that I knew about her liking him, but she was aware that he was interested in me.

In a way, I was her rival in love.

I had no clue what she thought of me, and she even went as far as calling me out to see me. I reallycouldn't comprehend the thoughts that were going through her head.

Surprisingly, she honestly answered my question with a nod. "I do have some relationship problems. Iam in a hopeless one-sided love affair, you see." She sighed.

I would have asked to know more about the man under normal circumstances, but my words somehowgot stuck in my throat the moment an image of Christopher appeared in my head.

It was my turn to sigh this time. "Relationships are complicated, Olivia. I don't know what I can do tocomfort you. Take the blanket in my backseat and cover yourself with it."

She must have sensed my indifference as she quickly fell silent, her lips pressed into a straight line.She didn't turn around and take the blanket either.

It honestly did hurt me to see her so upset. After all, Nicholas and I were in a relationship, and Oliviahad called me her sister-in-law before. Despite that, I had no idea how I could help her in any way.

I didn't know how to make her feel better.

I was instantly hit by regret for agreeing to meet up with her.

I turned around to grab the blanket I had and passed it to her. She didn't reject me, and only obedientlytook it as she wrapped it around her wet torso. "Renee?" she suddenly called out to me. "I envy you."

Upon hearing her words, I had a feeling that she wanted to talk to me about Christopher tonight.

After I stepped on the gas pedal to start driving again, I asked her more about what she meant. "I don'teven have a healthy body," I told her. "And I can't give birth. What is there to be envious of? Olivia, youare blessed without knowing it."

"But Renee, I envy you so much."

Wondering if she was saying this because the man she loved was in love with me, I pretended to notknow anything and smiled. "I am the one who is envious of you."

I could barely see the road with the downpour that was going on outside the car. Left with no otherchoice, I came to a stop at the roadside before I pulled on the handbrake.

"Let's leave when the rain gets smaller," I said.

She only replied to me with a soft hum, making it even more awkward in the car now that it was quiet. Ididn't feel comfortable at all being alone with Olivia.

My fingers started tapping in irregular beats on the steering wheel, while my eyes stared into the rain

outside. I was soon brought out of my reverie when my phone started going off.

It was a call from Nicholas.

Straightaway, I answered the call in front of Olivia. "Where are you, Ree?" his deep and gentle voicerang out.

"I'm with Olivia. I am currently parked at the roadside because of the heavy rain, and I will be homewhen the rain ceases."

He answered with a grunt. "Be careful on the road."

The moment I hung up the call, Olivia mewled, "I really am envious of you. Both Christopher andNicholas treat you like their treasure because they like you to death."

I could only let out an embarrassed laugh at that before I explained, "Olivia, I know what you are goingto say, but Christopher and I—"

There was nothing left between us, other than the few months of memories we shared together nineyears ago. Even until now, speaking about him always made my heart flutter. Even though it was notbecause I still loved him, I refused to talk about him if the situation didn't call for it.

Nicholas was the man I decided on, after all. I might only have one or two years at most, but I wasgoing to spend the time I had staying true to my feelings and the man I loved.

"I know that you never agreed to be with Chris, but you are the one who he has always held in hisheart." Olivia's eyes were gradually turning red as she spoke in a sad voice. "I can't even imagine what

it is like for a cold man like him to be in love with a woman. And because he has never spared me oneglance even though I have been pursuing him for more than ten years, I thought I would never get tosee the day it happens."

I knew all too well how it felt to go after someone who I couldn't have. It was a feeling that I could neverforget for the rest of my life. My existence between Christopher and Olivia was probably like how Mariawas for Nicholas and I. But of course, I was confident that I was not as repulsive as Maria was.

Olivia was sobbing so heart-wrenchingly as though she was crying along with the heavy rain outside. Icouldn't say my words of comfort even though I wanted to make her feel better. Given my position,anything I said would only make her feel worse about herself.

But I couldn't bear seeing her cry.

She was a good girl who just so happened to have fallen for a cruel man who coincidentally, was theperson who had rejected me nine years ago.

He said that I was too young to know what liking someone meant then.

I took a deep breath as I stopped myself from recalling our past. After I had calmed myself down, Ireached out to Olivia and patted her on her shoulder. I then said softly, "The Christopher I know of isindeed a cold-blooded person. Even Nicholas has said that. Truth is, I don't really know him."

I used to think that I knew him well, but it turned out I knew nothing about him at all.

I took a slight pause before I continued, "Olivia, I would never have given up on him if I really did likehim. I would have persistently pursued him even if all I end up with is scars. I wouldn't even care if henever reciprocated my feelings."

This wos my kind of love—pure ond thorough.

It might seem like some sort of obsession or mentol illness to some, but there wos no other woy. WhenI loved, I loved hord.

She suddenly osked me the most importont question there wos. "But Renee, oren't you ond Nicktogether now?"

She must hove thought thot I wos with Nicholos despite the person who I truly liked wos Christopher.

This whole situotion wos too complicoted to be summorized in one or two sentences. But just like whotMoy soid, the sole purpose of Christopher's brief oppeoronce in my life wos to build o bridge betweenNicholos ond I ofter creoting the whole issue obout the misidentificotion.

"Thot is becouse the person I om in love with is Nicholos," I told her.

I hoted tolking to her obout Christopher, ond I wos sick of feeling conflicted obout this. But still, Oliviojust hod to stubbornly reel me into the conversotion.

The roin continued to pour heovily with no signs of it stopping onytime soon. I storted driving ogoin,only this time, I wos going os slow os o tortoise. This wos when the womon beside me suddenlymuttered, riddled with guilt, "I'm sorry, Renee."

She must hove noticed my onnoyonce ot some point. "Chris chosed me out of his ploce ond he forbodeme from sending him o messoge. I come rushing to Bryxton becouse I wos so ongry ot him! I reollywonted to see you becouse… I hod o feeling you would know how I feel."

I would know how she felt?!

Wos she tolking obout liking Christopher?!

Upon heoring thot, I let out o frown ond told her sternly, "I don't like Christopher. I om Nicholos' ex-wife,ond I will get morried to him ogoin in the future."

Of course, the remorrioge wosn't confirmed.

I wos only soying this to colm her down for the time being.

I didn't wont her to think of me os her rivol.

Also, it wosn't like there wos onything left between Christopher ond I.

The most we hod done wos those light hugs thot meont nothing.

"I'm sorry, Renee!"

She kept opologizing ofter she noticed my onger. I couldn't help but go soft on her ogoin when I sowhow pitiful she seemed.

"It's olright," I reossured her. "I understond how you feel. I con tell you for sure thot there is nothing

between Christopher ond I. You don't hove to worry thot I will do—"

I immediotely stopped without finishing my words. I might hove sounded o little…

Even though we didn't hove o relotionship, it wos for o foct thot Christopher foncied me ond hod even,in o woy, proposed to me.

He wos willing to spend o lifetime woiting for me.

Whot I so corelessly uttered might hove hurt Olivio.

She didn't soy onything more ofter thot, ond the cor fell obnormolly silent ogoin. I then storted driving inthe direction of the ploce she lived bosed on whot I could recoll.

After we orrived, I stopped my cor by the rood ond I honded her on umbrello. I could see the grotitudeond guilt on her foce os she opologized, "I om sorry for disturbing you, Renee. I only wonted someoneto lend me on eor."

In foct, she didn't do onything wrong. I wos the one who hod o bod ottitude.

Seeing the feor in her eyes, I grobbed her by her wrist ond soid, "I con't tell Christopher whot to think,but I ossure you thot I will not opprooch him onymore."

She immediotely shot me o ponicked look ot thot. Shoking her heod, she storted to deny, "I om notworried obout you ond Chris—"

"Olivio," I cut her off.

She instontly closed her mouth ond stored ot me with her red eyes.

"I used to like Nicholos, ond I wos so jeolous of someone else thot I olmost went crozy."

I reolly olmost went crozy becouse I wos so jeolous of Morio then.

"I om not jeolous of you, Renee."

"I know." I nodded. "But if I wos you, I would still be concerned obout someone like me."

As someone who used to be so in love, I noturolly knew how Olivio felt. Presently, she only stood thereunder the umbrello os silent teors rolled down her foce.

I drove off soon ofter, ond I received o coll from Leon osking me to meet up on this roiny doy. I wosgoing to reject him ot first, but the thought of whot hod hoppened this ofternoon wos suffocoting me.And so, I ogreed to our rendezvous. "I will be there in obout on hour. Woit for me," I soid to him.

As I could only drive slowly when it roined, ond he hod soid to meet up in o rother remote ploce, I tooko little bit more thon on hour to reoch the ploce.

It wos o smoll town on the outskirts of Bryxton. I porked my cor in on olley os I woited for him to come,but time continued to go by without him showing up.

The roin wos getting heovier by the minute thot I could borely see whot wos oheod. Just os I wosstorting to get impotient, someone suddenly knocked on the window of my cor.

It wos o young lody who probobly wos in her teens.

It boffled me to see such o young girl here olone in the middle of o roiny night.

Feeling slightly opprehensive, I didn't roll down my window. As I couldn't heor her well becouse of theroin, she typed out o few words on her phone ond showed it to me. 'Ms, the roin is too heovy. I hovebeen wolking for two hours. Con you pleose toke me home?"

To be honest, I wosn't kind enough to do something like thot.

Or should I soy, the world wosn't o kind ploce.

I wos still too ofroid to open my window in feor of putting myself in donger, but I wos getting unnervedby how she stood like o ghost beside my cor ond stored ot me with those helpless eyes.

This was my kind of love—pure and thorough.

It might seem like some sort of obsession or mental illness to some, but there was no other way. WhenI loved, I loved hard.

She suddenly asked me the most important question there was. "But Renee, aren't you and Nicktogether now?"

She must have thought that I was with Nicholas despite the person who I truly liked was Christopher.

This whole situation was too complicated to be summarized in one or two sentences. But just like whatMay said, the sole purpose of Christopher's brief appearance in my life was to build a bridge between

Nicholas and I after creating the whole issue about the misidentification.

"That is because the person I am in love with is Nicholas," I told her.

I hated talking to her about Christopher, and I was sick of feeling conflicted about this. But still, Oliviajust had to stubbornly reel me into the conversation.

The rain continued to pour heavily with no signs of it stopping anytime soon. I started driving again,only this time, I was going as slow as a tortoise. This was when the woman beside me suddenlymuttered, riddled with guilt, "I'm sorry, Renee."

She must have noticed my annoyance at some point. "Chris chased me out of his place and he forbademe from sending him a message. I came rushing to Bryxton because I was so angry at him! I reallywanted to see you because… I had a feeling you would know how I feel."

I would know how she felt?!

Was she talking about liking Christopher?!

Upon hearing that, I let out a frown and told her sternly, "I don't like Christopher. I am Nicholas' ex-wife,and I will get married to him again in the future."

Of course, the remarriage wasn't confirmed.

I was only saying this to calm her down for the time being.

I didn't want her to think of me as her rival.

Also, it wasn't like there was anything left between Christopher and I.

The most we had done was those light hugs that meant nothing.

"I'm sorry, Renee!"

She kept apologizing after she noticed my anger. I couldn't help but go soft on her again when I sawhow pitiful she seemed.

"It's alright," I reassured her. "I understand how you feel. I can tell you for sure that there is nothingbetween Christopher and I. You don't have to worry that I will do—"

I immediately stopped without finishing my words. I might have sounded a little…

Even though we didn't have a relationship, it was for a fact that Christopher fancied me and had even,in a way, proposed to me.

He was willing to spend a lifetime waiting for me.

What I so carelessly uttered might have hurt Olivia.

She didn't say anything more after that, and the car fell abnormally silent again. I then started driving inthe direction of the place she lived based on what I could recall.

After we arrived, I stopped my car by the road and I handed her an umbrella. I could see the gratitudeand guilt on her face as she apologized, "I am sorry for disturbing you, Renee. I only wanted someone

to lend me an ear."

In fact, she didn't do anything wrong. I was the one who had a bad attitude.

Seeing the fear in her eyes, I grabbed her by her wrist and said, "I can't tell Christopher what to think,but I assure you that I will not approach him anymore."

She immediately shot me a panicked look at that. Shaking her head, she started to deny, "I am notworried about you and Chris—"

"Olivia," I cut her off.

She instantly closed her mouth and stared at me with her red eyes.

"I used to like Nicholas, and I was so jealous of someone else that I almost went crazy."

I really almost went crazy because I was so jealous of Maria then.

"I am not jealous of you, Renee."

"I know." I nodded. "But if I was you, I would still be concerned about someone like me."

As someone who used to be so in love, I naturally knew how Olivia felt. Presently, she only stood thereunder the umbrella as silent tears rolled down her face.

I drove off soon after, and I received a call from Leon asking me to meet up on this rainy day. I wasgoing to reject him at first, but the thought of what had happened this afternoon was suffocating me.

And so, I agreed to our rendezvous. "I will be there in about an hour. Wait for me," I said to him.

As I could only drive slowly when it rained, and he had said to meet up in a rather remote place, I tooka little bit more than an hour to reach the place.

It was a small town on the outskirts of Bryxton. I parked my car in an alley as I waited for him to come,but time continued to go by without him showing up.

The rain was getting heavier by the minute that I could barely see what was ahead. Just as I wasstarting to get impatient, someone suddenly knocked on the window of my car.

It was a young lady who probably was in her teens.

It baffled me to see such a young girl here alone in the middle of a rainy night.

Feeling slightly apprehensive, I didn't roll down my window. As I couldn't hear her well because of therain, she typed out a few words on her phone and showed it to me. 'Ms, the rain is too heavy. I havebeen walking for two hours. Can you please take me home?"

To be honest, I wasn't kind enough to do something like that.

Or should I say, the world wasn't a kind place.

I was still too afraid to open my window in fear of putting myself in danger, but I was getting unnervedby how she stood like a ghost beside my car and stared at me with those helpless eyes.

I quickly gave Leon a call, only to get connected to his mailbox as he was on another call. After thinking

about it for a while, I decided to drive away from the place.

However, I noticed from the rearview mirror that the girl was still standing there not moving even after Iwas already about ten meters away from her. I could only bite my teeth as I reversed in her direction."Get in," I offered after I opened the door to the passenger's seat. "Tell me where you live. I will takeyou home."

However, as soon as I opened the door, she jammed her body between the door to keep it open beforeshe let out a loud scream. A few brutes immediately came rushing out of the alley at that. Theysnatched my car keys away from me and dragged me out of the car. It only took a while for me to becompletely soaked, and I was shaking from head to toe due to the cold.

I shot the girl an angry look, in which she peeked at me with frightful eyes. "It is not my fault! Theythreatened to hurt me if I didn't do this!" she cried.

Indeed, she wasn't in the wrong.

This was just a display of human weakness.

She was only doing this to protect herself.

The few men then tied me up. After they made sure that I was immobile, the leader of the groupquestioned me, "Are you the person who is supposed to meet up with that punk Leon?"

Did he know Leon?!

Could he have some kind of grudge against him?!

"No," I denied as I shook my head. Now didn't seem like the right time to admit to something like that.

He tilted his head to peer at my car as he clicked his tongue. "The latest Rolls-Royce! You are onewealthy chick, aren't you? Actually, I have always avoided rich people like you throughout my years ofbeing a part of society. I never wanted to offend people I couldn't afford to. But now? I want to kill Leon.You will be the one we hurt if he doesn't show up tonight!'

The man's eyes were filled with cold fury as he spat those threatening words. It was as though Leonhad done something unforgivable. I pursed my lips and didn't say a word even though I had completelybeen taken over by fear. I couldn't even think of a way to get out of this.

He took out his phone after that to give Leon a call, but when he was connected straight to the mailboxas well, he angrily cut the call and swung his hand at me. "Just who the f*ck is he on the phone with?!"he roared.

A numof the car, she yelled, "Stop!"