My Secret, My Bully, My Mates.
Chapter 0023

Chapter 0023

She has actually taken to searching for kids misbehaving, and letting me know what her punishmentfor those deeds are. The punishments are always way over the top and far more sadistic than theyshould be. But if I don’t step in and take the punishment, she will really perform it on these kids.

I found out at the end of last year her father appointed her and a few others to ‘monitor’ the schoolfor minor infractions that are beneath the administration's interference, but need to be handled.Then hand out and fulfill punishments accordingly. A few have gone to the principal about theabusive tactics she uses, but our administrators either agree with what she is doing or somethingelse is allowing her to get away with it. It doesn’t matter, I won’t allow her to torture our packmembers and she knows it. So I am her personal punching bag.

I don’t talk about it and neither do the students I am taking the punishment for. We have all decidedthat nothing will be done to her and I refuse to look weak and keep tattling when she comes up withthe best stories for her actions and every adult has been lead to not believe me or fears siding withme. I do know the kids I take punishments for appreciate it, even if they can’t say anything directlyto me. It’s in their eyes, when we pass in the halls. I know they would approach me if they could,and that is part of the reason I endure this, it doesn’t go unnoticed by everyone. I just wish thepeople who could do something to stop it would open their eyes. Kids shouldn’t be afraid of going toschool.

But training, she rarely attends training and manages to get out of most of our ‘mandatory’ trainingstoo. I will never complain about her not being at trainings, the peace is divine. The only reason Idon’t retaliate and fight back is my father. The one time I fought back and punched her in the nosewhich also fractured the bone around her right eye. She went straight to her dad with some sobstory about me bullying her since I was a higher rank and therefore stronger than her. My father wascalled in and the verbal lashing I received in front of Kaley, the principal, and her father is one I willnever forget. I was called worthless, a slacker, spoiled and so difficult that my mother’s body

couldn’t survive having me. I should be working with other ranked members to make the packbetter, not beating up on weaker members.

That was the day I stopped talking to my father. If he didn’t directly talk to me, I no longer made theeffort. My only problem was I thought if I just did better, became stronger, tried harder and was ableto hide the bullying, he would see that I am worthy. So like a crazy person I threw myself intoeverything he made me believe was important like being the top student. I’m sure he knows, but hewill never say anything to me about it. I also have made myself the best warrior in the pack. Justbecause I won’t be the Beta here, doesn’t mean I can’t be a warrior here or even in a different packif my mate happens to be from another. That would be my dream, to meet my mate and get toleave. I would miss Luna Ava and Delta Kyle, maybe even my brother a little bit, but being free towalk around and have friends, to not be looking over my shoulder all of the time or feel like a wasteof someone’s space. That would be heaven.

Mateo and I walk out the door together and I start to turn, out of habit, walking away from thehouses to my usual shortcut to get to the training grounds.

“Where are you going? The packhouse is this way.” He calls over to me.

“Training, where else? It’s faster to cut through the woods behind Oliver’s house.”

“We are not walking.” He scoffs at me. “Cam and Kota are going to drive us, remember?”

“Oh, I figured that was a you guys thing.” I mumbled out, looking down at my shoes. “I didn’t think Iwas included in that, I never have been before.” When he doesn't answer I look up at him and hewinces, just enough for me to notice before he schools his face.

It was mean of me, but I couldn’t help the little jab. Since the twins started driving all five of the guyshave been riding to school together, and I was left walking. I didn’t really mind, it’s not actually thatfar, but there was never even an offer, like I was invisible to them. Which I guess I was until

yesterday. That thought was the little reality check I needed to remember, things will not changeonce we are back at school Monday. They will go back to being the popular guys at school thateveryone fights to talk to and I will go back to being invisible, unless Kaley says otherwise.