not his first mate now
chapter 30

The darkness stayed with me as I walked around like a blind man, finallya small light shines a head so I run towards it, but it starts to moveaway. I growl in frustration as I push my body ahead faster in the hopesto catch the light, again it moves just out of my reach.

"Why are you moving?" I scream out into the darkness know to well Iwasn't going to get an answer.

"Where am i? and why the hell am I her" I scream once more.

Finally the light starts to come closer only to appear as a glass ball, thismade me glare at it. I move closer and see an image pop into the ball. Igasp as I see my son on a bed crying his little heart out as he holdstightly to something, I couldn't see what it was he held onto.

The image changed to Xander pacing a room with blue walls and afrustrated look on his face. His fist was clenched at his side's, I frown asI watch him throw a lamp at the wall mumbling to himself.

the next image shows my parents, my mother was balling her eyes outwhile my father held her tightly in his arms. He had no emotion on hisface as he stared at something across from him.

"What's wrong with them all? Why can't I hear them ?" once again Iscream out to the darkness and receive no reply. I was confused onwhere I was, had I died? is this what's goin’ on? Suddenly the lightdisappeared on me and I was once again in complete darkness.

I sat down and closed my eyes mumbling to myself.

"Please take me back, I want my baby, take me back I want my baby." Irepeated it over and over.

The sounds around me started off slowly like a buzz and then it turnedinto unfocused mumbling, finally I could hear a little voice beside me."Mummy please wake up.” I tried to move my left arm but paininstantly shot through it, I tried to move my right arm but got the samereaction. I was getting annoyed, all I wanted was to comfort my baby."Xaiden sweetheart come get some lunch.” I hear my mother's voicesoftly say.

" Will you stay with her Nana?" my little boy begs, I wanted to screamout that I was okay, I needed to hold him close and kiss his little face."Of course I will, you go down with grandpa and eat."l felt him moveaway, I tried to move again so I could stop him but I still couldn't movemy limbs, I herd the door close.

"Hey baby girl, I wish you would wake up, your baby boy needs you." Icould hear her sob as she grabs my hand, I wanted so badly to cry withher and tell her it's okay. She grabs my hand and places it on her cheek,I try again to open my eyes but pain just radiates throughout my head Ihiss in pain but no words where heard

(Fucking crap, move you stupid body, open your eyes.) I groan tomyself.

"So Xaiden should be shifting hopefully tomorrow night.” was sheserious, had I already missed that much time and now his turning sixand meeting his wolf for the first time. I wasn't sure how tocomprehend those words.

"Your dad should be bringing coffee up soon." I realised she was justtalking to keep her mind busy.

"I made apple and pear pie for you today." I couldn't help but smile atthat thought. My mother bakes a storm when she's stressed out orworried, she says it helps to take her mind off things. where my fatherwould go out and train just to clear his head.

A knock is herd at the door, my mother tells them to come in.

"Hi I've just come to do Lilliana observations.” I think it was a nurse said,no reply came from my mother only foot steps where herd in the room."How is she Marcy?"my mother ask in a soft voice.

"her heart rate is really good, the bruising have all gone, it's taking awhile for her bones to mend but that would be because of the silver inher system still." I could feel the nurse moving my limbs, pain wentthrough my body making me suck in a deep breath.

"Will she wake up soon?" my mother's words came out just barelyabove a whisper.

"I believe it won't be long, it looks like she can feel pain but is unable tomove just yet." finally someone was able to see that I'm doing fine."That's good news, I'll tell the boys the good news.” Mums cheery voiceechoes through the room along with her running feet.

"your mother is a sweetheart."The nurse laughs and then followed herout, my mind started to get tired and drifts back off into the land ofpeace.

"Hey little flower I hear your starting to get better now, Xaiden can'twait for you to wake up." Xander a words wake me up and Iautomatically go to open my eyes but still can't, I can just feel my wolfwho is trying to fix our broken body.

"Your dad thinks he will shift soon which means his father will berecognised. I wish you would wake up lil we all need you, even mybrother." I was surprised he was mentioning his brother and moresurprised he was talking to me, last time we spoke we where in a fight.He soon left the room and another took his spot.

"Why Lilliana?" Dontae says harshly, I frown in my head wonderingwhat he was talking about.

(Why what?) I wanted to ask.

"You should have stayed in your area not go wondering around.” hisanger is heard as he growls out.

"I almost lost you, I will not loose you to death or anyone. You are minemy little mate.” His words sent a shiver down my spine. I feel him kissmy hand then both cheeks, my forehead, nose, eye lids and then finallymy lips. He made me want to pull him close and have my wicked waywith him. I groan at the feel of his touch upon my body. He pulls awayto soon for my liking and leaves the room, Damn that man will send mecrazy one day.

I laid there for hours just feeling the cool air hit my body, the castle wasextra quiet so I figured it was now dark. But strangely enoughsomething just didn't feel right, I managed to move my fingers andtoes. My wolf paced in my head, we both where on edge for somereason. A whimper was coming from the hall way. I new instantly it wasmy baby boy. My wolf took the pain as my eyes shot open, I didn't takein my surroundings, instead I shot up out of bed biting my lip from thepain as I ran out of the room and down the hall. I followed my son'sscent which leads me to outside in the garden.

His little scream made me run faster, I see my parents and Dontae'sparents standing around him in a circle, I growl out in warning as I dropby my son's side and pull him into my arms.

"Shh baby mama has got you."l tell him softly, people start to comecloser but I growl out at them to not move. I feel them take a step backfrom us, whole I held my son close to my chest to ease his pain.