Once My Mate, Always My Mate
Chapter 6- Is That What You Want?

Sabrina’s POV

I left things in the air. With everyone shocked by my words... I just hadto get out of there.

Maybe this was the time to make a choice once and for all, without anymanipulation of the heart or what the people need for me.

This is my life at the end of the day and whom I spend it with has to beup to me, for my life however long it is going to be.

"We all get it little moon. This is completely up to you and even thoughwe all don't want you making the same mistake again by giving Xandershared immortality, it is all up to you. You do what the heart wantsbecause even I know that one cannot simply ignore matters of theheart, they will kill you." Mother says to me, walking into my room andclosing the door.

Goddess knows where Xander was, or even Aiden. I just stormed out ofthat room without thinking but I hope my family has it handled.

"I just want to feel supported. Not questioned and treated like a childwith every decision that I make. Allow me to be my own being, if this isa mistake, allow me to make it myself and hope that it isn't with me...And if it is, give me the grace to handle it on my own and if I can't, I willcome to you as my parents to help me fix what I couldn't. You just haveto let me go and that is the only way I will allow you in my life." I sayand mother pulls me in for a hug before I start to cry.

Josey walks in carrying a tray of food and places it on the bed. Motherand I pull away from each other as Anthony walks in after my sister andcloses the door. We all quietly sit on the bed, around the tray, and digin.

"To break the ice, I think it was very brave of you to say what you saidout loud. You have the power to choose your own path and even if thatcan be scary and just blurting it out loud makes it all so real, you werebrave to come out and say it. Make it your decision and never acceptwhat is handed to you, especially if it affects your life. I will take thiswith me, for the rest of my life." Josey says to me before taking a bite ofher rare steak.

Anthony just nods his head, maybe in agreement with Josey, I will neverknow until he says it. Anthony and I were not close anymore... Ourrelationship is strained at the moment and I want to fix it, I do but Iwould like to see some effort from his side.

"l will leave you, kids, to it." My mother gets to her feet and opens thedoor to almost bump into Cj who was carrying bottles of wine. Hewalks in and our mother closes the door for him, putting the bottlesdown and grabbing one. Anthony walks over to my alcohol tray to grabsome glasses as Cj opens the wine and he pours it into the glasses.Josey giggles in excitement as she is handed a glass and she gulps itdown before getting a refill.

"You know what? Josey is on to something.” Anthony finally speaks andgulps down his wine before refilling his glass and we all join in andbefore we know it, we are four bottles down. Being a werewolf stealsthe joy of being a little drunk and four bottles is like taking sips for usbut it broke the ice, as Josey intended and we were all laughing andjoking around, finally lifting my spirits.

Soon, the sun has set and it was dark outside. My siblings bid mefarewell and left with the empty tray and bottles as I undressed tofinally get to sleep. Xander walks in a few minutes later and sits on thebed.

"I have been waiting for them to leave." He says to me and I finallyopen my eyes to look at him, still keeping my head on the pillow."Baby, I don't want you to ever think I don't want to spend eternity withyou. I want to be wherever you are but I will not be selfish about beingwith you if it harms those that we both care about. If me being with youever puts Drastos in danger or gives him a shorter life then I don't wantit but don't think my heart does not ache when I say no. I love you withevery part of me and I am fighting with myself, I have been sincerefusing the immortality you want to give me. I do everything for me, Ilive for myself but trust me when I say that I do not want to live a lifewithout you and I don't want you living a life without me.” Xander saysto me as he caressed my cheek.

I finally sit up and look into his eyes...

"Then allow me this one favor to put my heart at ease, please,” I say tohim and he smiles.

"And Drastos?" He asks me.

"He will be fine. Every child of mine has a future in this realm, even if heis not full-blooded like I am, my blood runs in his veins, the blood ofmy ancestors which means his strength will be like one of thethousands. He is part of the first family... his birth has meaning, I justknow it." I say to Xander.

"Then let us be sure and when we are, you can give me a life that isstuck by your side forever,” Xander says and I chuckle as I shake myhead no.

"No... I will gift you immortality now and while I work to prove to youthat our child will be just fine, you will stay alive until then.” I say andwe both smile, Xander, giving up because he knows I will stop atnothing to get what I want and what I want is for him to be able to livepast every threat to his life.