Red Hot Love: The Morningstar Series: Book 5
Red Hot Love – Chapter 17

I can’t believe I went to his bedroom like that. It was like the argument I had with Olive that only fueled me more. I wanted to see Azai anyways. So badly.

Not a day has gone by that I didn’t think of him. All of his texts and calls were so hard to ignore. Guilt was all that consumed me constantly. I never slept, barely ate. And I did it all for Olive. She needed time, and I understood that, but this was getting out of hand.

I begged her to just talk with him. I needed him, and I know that she did too. My girl is just too stubborn to admit it. It was tearing us apart though. Not from each other, but personally. Both of us were struggling every single day, and the longer that Olive held out, the worse it got.

Azai’s calls and texts were hard to ignore. It only made me feel worse when I did. Sometimes, when I couldn’t sleep at night, I would read over the messages he sent me, or listen to the voicemails he left me. I wasn’t sure what made me feel worse, when he was unbelieveably sweet, or when he sounded desperate.

Most of the messages were sweet. He would ask me how we are, tell me about his day, sometimes it was just telling me how much he missed me. Other times he was begging me to just talk. Those voicemails were the hardest, and left me in a constant state of guilt.

No matter what I did or said, Olive refused to see him. I knew she was having a hard time sleeping. She rarely ever ate. Olive doesn’t know that I know, but she’s lost some weight over the last few months. I want her to be happy, but I can’t force her to accept Azai. The more she pulls away, the harder everything is.

It’s hard to breath sometimes too. I only ever feel okay when I’m with Olive. Even then it’s not the same. Something is missing. Azai.

If it weren’t for Ethan and his stupid comments, I might have been able to convince Olive to talk to Azai. Stupid f*****g prick. No matter how many times I kicked his a*s, he never shut the f**k up. Maybe now that Azai is actually here, he’ll learn to shut his damn mouth.

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I stayed with Azai long enough to watch a movie with him. It wasn’t awkward in the slightest. Not even when Azai snuggled up against me. He’s so warm, and surprisingly comfortable to cuddle with.

Through the whole movie I couldn’t help but think about what he said. He had really not been with anyone else. I could see the truth in his eyes. This whole time we thought he was sleeping around to forget about us or to spite us, but no. He was just getting his a*s kicked. I know Olive won’t believe me if I tell her, so, I’ll let her get roped into this bond in her own way.

It’s only a matter of time before she gives in. Olive might be stubborn, but she can only hold out for so long. I bet if I can get her to let Azai fed from her that would do it. Just thinking about her getting fed on by him is exciting to me.

Being fed on felt better than I ever thought it would. I know that Azai told me it was going to feel good, but I wasn’t expecting it to feel like that. All I wanted to do was rip his clothes off, and beg him to let me f**k him. Which was strange to me. I wasn’t even sure how to have s*x with a guy, but I know that it’s only a matter of time before I replace out. I bet he gives f*****g amazing head.

“Well, movies over.” Azai said knocking me from my thoughts.

I looked at him. “Guess I should go.” I said.

“I don’t want you to.” Azai admitted.

f**k, he is so damn cute. I’ve never thought anyone aside from Olive was cute. Especially not a guy. Azai is different though. All I can think about is kissing him.

I cleared my throat, and swung my legs over the bed.

“I don’t want to either.” I admitted. “But we have school in the morning, and I’m sure my parents wouldn’t like it if I stayed out all night.” I told him.

“I could always teleport into your room.” He offered.

I turned around to see him standing behind me.

“That sounds nice, but I think it’s best we part ways right now.” I told him.

Azai nodded, and his cheeks tinged a light shade of pink.

“Yeah, you’re right. B-but I’ll see you tomorrow right?” He asked sounding hopeful.

I nodded. “Yeah.” I said as I walked to the door.

“W-will you, uh, b-be here to get me in the morning?” Azai asked.

His stuttering is so adorable.

“Do you want me to be?” I asked.

Honestly, I knew that Azai was going to say yes. I just… needed to hear it. The moment I saw him my entire body relaxed in ways I have never felt before. It was like I had been tensing all of my muscles for years. One look from this blue eyed devil, and peace had finally found it’s way to me.

Would it feel even better with Olive with us?

Azai nodded frantically. “Yes. I would very much like that.” He said.

I chuckled. “Alright, I’ll see you in the morning then.” I told him as I opened the door.

“O-okay.” He said, and then grabbed my hand. Tingles spread up my arm. “Uhm, do.. d-do you think that m-maybe I c-could h-have a hug?” He stuttered out.

My eyes went wide, and I felt my cheeks heat.

“You want a hug?” I asked.

Azai gave me a shy smile. “I wasn’t sure you’d say yes to a k**s.” He told me.

I smiled. Turning to face him, I opened my arms. Azai’s entire face light up. He wrapped his arms around me, and pulled me tightly to him. Damn, he smells so good, and he feels even better. So warm. I could stay in his arms forever.

“Thank you for giving me a chance.” He whispered in my ear.

Azai kissed my cheek, making me blush harder. He let me go, and took a step back. I stared at him for a moment.

“I’ll try to get Olive to come with me.” I told him, and then turned on my heal to walk away.

I thought that it would be awkward to be with Azai in any type of way. Yet, it all feels so right, so good. How was I able to stay away from him for so long? Being around him feels so right, like that’s where I belong.

Still, just like before he got here, something was missing. Olive. We all needed to be together. I have to convince her somehow to give Azai a chance. I can’t live without either of them. I’ll figure it out. I have to. Olive will fall in love with Azai, and we will all be mated.

I’ll make sure of it.

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I actually got some sleep last night. I was feeling well rested this morning. Azai has been here less than a day, and already I feel better. Like a weight is lifted from my shoulders.

I woke up early today. I told myself that it was to make sure I had time to get to Azai, but honestly I did it to give myself extra time to get ready. I showered, and put some oil stuff in my hair that Olive loves. I wore her favorite cologne, and hoped that Azai likes it too. I dressed in dark blue jeans, a plain red T-shirt, and a black hoodie. Throwing on my beat up black converse I walked out of my room.

“Good morning honey, you’re up earlier than usual.” Mom said when I walked into the kitchen.

“Yeah I guess.” I said with a smile.

“You look happy this morning.” Dad said from the table.

I nodded. “It’s gonna be a good day.” I said.

Mom and Dad shared a look, but I pretended not to see it. I know that they, and Olive’s parents, only allowed Azai to come because they were worried about us. Anyone could see the change in us. Even though they kept it from me, I was still thankful. I already feel better.

“I’m glad you feel that way.” Dad said.

Mom set a plate down in front of me. French toast, sausage, and hash browns. I looked up at Mom, and raised a brow.

“Kind of a big breakfast for a Monday morning.” I said.

Mom shrugged. “I just hope you’re hungry honey.” She told me.

I nodded, and looked down at my plate.

“I’m starving actually.” I admitted.

Mom beamed. “He already seems to have a change in your mood I see.” She commented.

“Evie.” Dad scolded.

“I’m just saying. It’s nice to see you smile again honey.” Mom told me.

I started to eat my breakfast as her and Dad went back and fourth. They are aruging about some work stuff that I don’t understand. I practically inhaled my breakfast. Food even tastes better now that he’s here.

Did Azai really have this big of affect on us this entire time? Will Olive start to feel better when she see’s him too? Or do I only feel better because I spent time with him?

No, that’s not it. I felt better the moment his eyes looked into mine. That should happen for Olive too. Though, I doubt that she will accept him right away. Even I was apprehensive.

I questioned Azai about sleeping with other people almost immediately. Honestly, I was angry that just looking at him made me feel better. When Olive and I found out what that pain was, we were devasted. Olive wouldn’t admit it, but she can’t hide her feelings from me.

Part of me knew that we had no right to be upset. We wouldn’t even talk to him afterall. Olive just used the pain as a bigger excuse not to talk to him. It was a huge mess, still is kind of.

After Azai had admitted to me that he wasn’t sleeping around, but was getting his a*s kicked, I nearly fell to the floor in laughter. At first I didn’t believe him, but the look in his eyes… I knew he was telling the truth. Part of me felt awful that he was purposely hurting himself though.

Still, he wants us. I didn’t understand why. We ignored him for months. Pretended that he didn’t even exist. We didn’t show up for him for his birthday, or for school, and we didn’t even give him an explaination. Yet, here he is. Hoping to convince us to give him a chance.

Olive is already furious, and I know she’s just going to get more mad. I love her, I do. More than anything, but.. I just can’t anymore. I can’t stay away from Azai. I didn’t want to in the first place, but after last night I refuse to anymore.

I haven’t felt as safe, or comfortable, or warm, or just… peaceful, like the way I did last night. Is it because we spent so much time apart? Or is it because he’s our mate? Probably both.

All I know for sure.. I can’t let him go again. I can’t go back to the pain of not having him around. I can’t go back to that lonely, and empty feeling again. I refuse to. I’ll just have to do what I can to get Olive to give Azai a chance.

Now, how do I do that?

Begging her is out of the question. I tried that already. My little spitfire would not budge. Damn stubborn women.

What else could I do? What would drive Olive crazy enough to give up? Threaten to leave her?

No, I can’t do that. I would never leave Olive. She knows that. And I could never try to use that against her anyways. Olive needs to know that I am on her side, and also Azai’s. Whether she likes it or not.

Then a thought hit me. I smirked to myself. One thing that I could deny Olive that would drive her insane.

s*x.

My girl has always been a horn dog. She would never admit it, and you’d never guess it by looking at her. Olive and I were 14 when we finally had s*x for the first time. I say finally because she had been begging me for months before I finally gave in. I gave her countless o*****s with my fingers and mouth, but it was never enough for her.

After we had s*x for the first time, she was nearly insaitable. Olive couldn’t keep her hands off of me. She still can’t. Even with all this Azai stuff, she still manages to get in my pants. Not that I would ever tell her no.

I wonder if she’s like that because we were always meant to have two mates. Not like I couldn’t keep up, or please her, but adding another to the mix… What would that even be like? Olive and I could go all night, we have before. Being teenagers we didn’t get time like that a lot though. I bet Azai could go all night too. My jeans are growing tight just thinking about it.

How would it work? Would we both have Olive at the same time? And how? I guess as many ways as we want. Would Azai want me to f**k him? Would he want to f**k me? Would I.. Would I like that? I wanted to k**s him last night, desperately, so maybe. Wow, that’s.. a scary thought.

I’m not homophobic or anything, it’s just… I don’t think I could take it in the a*s. I’ve only ever been with Olive. No one else has ever even peaked my interest, and it’s not like she’s ever put anything in my butt. Maybe I would like it? Maybe I won’t, and that would still be okay?

Something tells me that Azai would love and accept me no matter what. That simple thought brought a smile to my face. All I can think about is him and Olive. I just want to make them happy.

“What are you smiling about?” Mom asked knocking me from my thoughts.

I looked up to see her sitting across the table from me.

“Uh, nothing.” I said, and cleared my throat.

“You better get going or you’re going to be late for school. I have Ethan picking up Azai for classes.” Dad said.

I nearly choked on my juice. “Ethan? No. I was going to get him.” I said as I jumped up from my seat. “If I hurry I can beat Ethan there.” I mumbled more to myself. “Love you, see you later.” I said as I walked out the door.

Ethan, really? I know they don’t know what he has been saying about Olive, but I’ve gotten into several fights with the dillhole. Why would they think this is a good idea?

I was in such a rush out the door that I ran right into my favorite person.

“s**t, sorry baby you alright?” I asked as I wrapped my arm around Olive’s waist.

My girl is dressed in a black skirt, ballet flats, and a long sleeved cropped shirt. She looks hot. Her hair is half up in two mini buns. I looked her up and down, and smirked.

“You look sexy this morning. Wouldn’t have anything to do with our third mate being here would it?” I asked her.

Olive scoffed, and crossed her arms.

“Please. I could care less. I plan to ignore him all day.” She stated.

“Well, that’s a shame because we are about to go get him to walk him to class.” I said as I spun her around, and started walking.

Olive stopped. “No. I plan to ignore him. I’m not walking him to class.” She argued.

“You can’t ignore him Olive. He’s here now. He’s going to try to talk to you, and pursue you. And I am not going to ignore him. So are you going to ignore me too?” I asked.

Olive huffed. “People are going to talk, especially Ethan.” She said.

I felt my eyes flash red.

“I will f*****g kill him if he utters even a word to you.” I stated.

Olive rolled her eyes, and c****d her h*p.

“You cannot kill him. He’s just a stupid boy.” She said.

“A stupid boy? Olive, you should tell your parents about how he tried to corner you. What would have happened if I wasn’t just around the corner that day? I felt your panic. He shouldn’t be living right now.” I said.

It was back in late July when that fucker caught my mate alone. Ethan pushed her into a corner, and started saying all kinda of crude things to her. Olive was freaked out. Ethan barely even touched her before I came around the corner, but he took it too far that time. What would have happened if I wasn’t there?

I beat the absolute s**t out of him before Olive’s dad came around and broke up the fight. Olive begged me not to tell, so I didn’t. That didn’t stop me from pushing her to tell though.

What I didn’t understand was why she wanted me to keep it a secret. Or why she didn’t kick his a*s herself. My girl is not weak. She could have taken Ethan. I think that she still would have if I didn’t step in, but something was off with her.

Does she really think all the things he said about her are true? That she is just some w***e because she has two mates? She can’t think that’s true, can she?

“I would have kicked his a*s if he really tried anything. He just got in my face, and started talking a bunch of s**t like normal.” Olive argued.

I sighed. “Well, for his sake I hope he doesn’t say anything in front of our third mate. I’m not so sure a Morningstar would hold back like I did.”

Olive scoffed. “Hold back? Yeah okay.” She said sarcastically.

I chuckled at her. “Come on, let’s go get him. Mom said you had to come anyways.” I lied.

Olive sighed. I wrapped my arm around her shoulders, and we walked to replace our third mate. Hopefully Azai will be happy to see Olive, and hopefully she will feel the same.