Savage Desire
Chapter 4

"What have you done, Jeremy?" Philip asked grupy, slamming the door shut behind him. He'd heard his alpha's anguished growl and knew his friend was no longer in his kill mode. An Ojah in a kill mode wouldn't growl in anguish no matter how badly he acted. Philip therefore knew it was safe to enter the room. He saw the still form of Ryan on the bed and felt his heart drop into his stomach. "Tell me you haven't killed him, please..." Philip's voice was barely above a whisper. He was so focused on the man on the bed that he didn't even notice the misery in his alpha's eyes. Philip concentrated hard on Ryan...he wanted to hear a heartbeat. And when he did, he gave a sigh of relief which ended in a groan when his eyes landed on the bloody tissue on the floor. Philip's eyes widened in horror. "Damnit Jeremy. You could have fought it? F**k!" He racked his fingers through his hair in anger and frustration. "And did you really have to use your alpha command on him that much? Are you trying to fry his brain? Was that the plan? To kill him? Is that it? F**k!" Philip smashed a fist into the wall. "You're going to regret inflicting so much pain on him, mark my words. F**k, I'm so angry right now?"

"Lip..." Jeremy called falteringly but Philip was too angry to even hear him.

"He told us what he was doing here. If you doubted him, why couldn't you just replace out for yourself by opening up and reading his f*****g mind? Is it that you're scared to know he's actually telling the truth? Because that would mean he's not a hunter and therefore you wouldn't have any other tangible excuse to hate him? About him being a guy...you should know you can't challenge Luna, Jeremy. Do you have any idea what the consequences will be? I've loved you like a brother and respected you as my Alpha. But this..." Philip shook his head sadly. "I just can't deal. This Jeremy who actually snaps and sadistically inflicts such pain is not the Jeremy I know. The Jeremy I know has better self-control. The Jeremy I know would have fought to hold on to his humanity. You allowed yourself to be controlled when you could have made an efort and snapped out of whatever haze you were under much earlier. Now, look at what you've done. He's your f*****g mate."

"How long have you been standing outside the door?" Jeremy asked quietly.

"Long enough." Philip snapped. "You really think I wouldn't have heard all the screams?"

The last thing Philip had wanted to do was attract the wrath of an 'insane' alpha by barging into the room whilst he was fucking his mate. So he'd waited tensely, heard every scream, heard every uttered plea, and heard the cruel words that were uttered by Jeremy. Philip had felt so furious but helpless as he couldn't interrupt. He would have been dead already.

"Why didn't you stop me?" Jeremy's voice cracked grupy, causing Philip to take a closer look at his alpha. For the first time since barging into the room, he noticed just how shaken Jeremy looked.

"Oh, Jer..." Philip breathed, his heart going out to his friend despite himself. "You know I couldn't have. You'd turned your humanity op. You would have killed me if I'd interrupted. I know my limits." No matter how close they were, interrupting an Ojah who was in that kill state, whilst he was fucking would have ended in Philip's death. And they both knew it. "At a point, I wanted to damn the consequence and interrupt anyway but we both know that killing me wouldn't have stopped you from continuing with what you were doing." He would have died for nothing.

Jeremy nodded slowly and turned to look down at his still passed-out mate. "I don't know how I'm going to fix this, Lip." Jeremy said quietly. "I just don't know."

"You'll replace a way." Philip said gently. "I know you will. Maybe you should start by linking with him first. Listen to him. I'll be outside if you need me." With that, Philip left Jeremy with his still passed-out mate.

Jeremy entered the bathroom and came back with a wet towel with which he began to wipe his cum of Ryan's thighs and butt. Just as he was about to turn Ryan over to enable him clean his front, he saw Ryan begin to stir and actually froze. Shit! For the first time since setting eyes on Ryan the night before, Jeremy was afraid. He heard Ryan's moan of pain and had to suppress his own groan of distress. The alpha was so terrified of what he'd done to his mate he could feel his wolf cowering inside him. He swallowed hard as he watched Ryan try to move.

"Turn over." Jeremy said softly. It wasn't a command.

Ignoring Jeremy's words, Ryan sluggishly pushed to his feet and slowly turned around to look at Jeremy. Although

disoriented and still trembling with the afterefects of his brutal rape, he just wanted to look at the man who had caused him so much pain. Ryan was in so much shock he totally forgot about his state of undress and the fact that his dicks were exposed. And it certainly didn't even register that Jeremy's eyes were no longer red but rather, deep blue as they'd been in his dream. It didn't even click that the jeans around his knees was impeding his movement. He couldn't believe the level of pain that the man had inflicted on him. It was only when he heard Jeremy's sharp gasp, and noticed the direction of his eyes that Ryan realized what he'd done. Oh shit! But even as he quickly tried to pull up his jeans to cover himself, he heard Jeremy's whispered words... "Oh f**k, this is freaky."

Ryan slowly straightened up, releasing his grip on his jeans. He began to shake with the myriad of emotions that were boiling within him...foremost being anger. All the pain he'd been made to go through by Jeremy, all the anger that he'd suppressed, all the bitter tears that he hadn't shed again since he'd cried in his mother's arms when Coach Chris had called him a freak at the age of nine, came together like a grenade and then exploded. He snapped!

Jeremy watched as a change came over his mate. Ryan was trembling so much it was almost as if he was having a seizure. Tears began to slide down his cheeks. Jeremy watched Ryan's fists clench at his sides as he took a little step towards him. Unconsciously, Jeremy took a step back. For the first time in his life, Alpha Jeremy Stanton had some fear...though slightly...in the presence of a lesser wolf.

"I've tolerated all your shit." Ryan began shakily. "I thought you had it in for me because I trespassed on your land but I'm beginning to think you probably think I've done something even worse. Why else would you treat me as cruelly as this? What is it you think I've done exactly? Killed someone? Huh? You've bitten me, thrown me into a cage, turned me into something that I didn't even know was real, humiliated me and held me in your house against my will. As if that wasn't enough, you took away my will and subjected me to a brutal fuck in the arse even though I've never ever had sex with another person in my life." Ryan tilted his head, the tears streaming down in torrents.

"Ryan?" Jeremy breathed cautiously as he watched Ryan begin to slowly transform but it was as if Ryan couldn't even hear him.

"Now you have the nerve to call me a freak? Tell me in all honesty please. Between you and I, who is the bigger freak? Someone who is capable of doing all that you've done, or someone who by some genetic whatever, has two dicks?" Ryan's voice had risen by then. "How dare you use the word freak and me in the same sentence? If anyone should be able to do that, it certainly mustn't be you."

"Ryan, settle down." Jeremy said tentatively. Ryan was hulking out...transforming, but into a wolf-man which only alphas and in very rare cases, their marked mates could do. Ryan wasn't marked. The jeans and t-shirt he was wearing began to fall of his body in tatters. Jeremy had thought mere minutes earlier that a man with two dicks was strange. Well, there was nothing stranger than an unmarked ordinary werewolf hulking out into a wolf-man.

"So now it's Ryan huh?" Ryan's voice was not human. His beast had taken over. "Didn't think you knew my name."

Jeremy was getting very worried. After that talk with Philip, he didn't want to use his alpha tone on Ryan but the situation called for that. In his current form, Ryan could kill him with just a snap of his hand and Jeremy knew it. He just had to use it one more time. "Shift back into human now." Jeremy commanded and heard the door to Ryan's room burst open. He watched as the wolf-man froze. "Stay back Lip." Jeremy ordered without turning to look at his beta. "Human, now." He commanded and watched as Ryan rather transformed into the beautiful white wolf again. "Human." Jeremy growled but Ryan growled right back, baring his teeth and getting into an attack mode.

Jeremy quickly crouched down and bared his neck to his mate, showing submission. He couldn't for the life of him understand why his command was not working on Ryan. Jeremy planned on replaceing out just why, later. He could have transformed and fought to defeat Ryan with cheeky ease. But he didn't think he had the right to do that. At that very moment, Jeremy knew his life was in danger. His mate was ready to attack and possibly kill him. He didn't blame Ryan's wolf at all. He'd brought it upon himself by treating his mate very badly. Jeremy didn't want to agitate Ryan any further. Actually his life probably depended on not doing anything at all.

The wolf sprung towards Jeremy, giving a ferocious growl which drowned out Philip's terrified scream. Jeremy saw his life flash before his eyes but didn't move, hoping it was going to be a quick death. He deserved to die for what he'd done to his mate. But then he realized, after not feeling any impact after some seconds, that Ryan's aim hadn't been to attack him. The wolf had rather jumped out of the opened window. Jeremy almost had a heart attack. With a cry of terror, he rushed to the window and looked out just in time to see Ryan's wolf jump down from ledge to ledge on the building. Jeremy breathed a sigh of relief. He knew Ryan wouldn't have survived the jump if he had attempted to jump straight down. But Jeremy's relief was short-lived. He remembered that his warriors wouldn't hesitate to kill Ryan on sight. After all, no one knew he was the alpha's mate. As far as they were concerned, the alpha had only turned the hunter as a form of punishment.

"Philip!" Jeremy screamed as he tore of his clothes. "Tell them not to harm him." With that, Jeremy shifted into the huge red wolf and jumped out of the window.

Then he went after his mate.

'Stand down, everyone. Don't harm the white wolf! Philip desperately instructed the warriors through his mind-link. He knew for a fact that some of the warriors were already chasing after Ryan.

'But he's trying to escape, Sir.' One of the warriors said, sounding surprised at Philip's command.

'The alpha will take care of it. I repeat, stand down.' Philip growled.

Stan, the head warrior chuckled. 'Well let's hope my squad doesn't maim the idiot too much with their arrows.' He said, not sounding too concerned.

'Stan, no arrow should hit that wolf. Philip reduced his link to just the head of the warriors who was also a close friend of both Jeremy and Philip. The three of them were very close, with Stan being the joker amongst them. As the head warrior, he thrived on violence. But he was also very good at what he did.

'Jeez. Don't get your panties in a twist, Lip.' Stan chuckled. 'An arrow won't kill the fool. Why are you so fussy over that...

'I'm being fussy because he's the alpha's mate. Philip finally screamed through the link.

'What did you...oh shit. Stan was screaming orders at his team even as he transformed and dashed of] after his warriors.

Jeremy heard the howl of misery from his mate and howled right back. His wolf was furious at him but they both knew they had to work together on this one. He knew he could have handled this whole thing with his mate better if he hadn't allowed himself to switch o. F**k! He clearly remembered his wicked thoughts about his mate whilst under the influence of the Ojah power. He couldn't believe he'd actually considered killing his mate. That was sick and he could never have ever contemplated that no matter how much he disliked the fact that his mate was male. Not being strong enough to resist losing control had cost him a lot. And Jeremy had no idea where to even start rectifying the problem at hand.

'I swear if you don't make things right with our mate, by Luna I'm going to tear you up from inside.' His furious wolf growled, making Jeremy cringe inside. 'The pain I will inflict on you whilst taking your life will come nowhere near what you did to him.' That was the first time he'd been threatened by his wolf and Jeremy knew his wolf meant every word. He also knew he deserved it. After all, losing his mate meant the end of his wolf's and eventually his own life. So his wolf would have nothing to lose if he actually did as he'd threatened.

Jeremy had never acted so cruel towards anyone before, unless of course he was in battle or faced with a mortal enemy...which as far as he was concerned, Ryan sorta was. A hunter killed his father and brother for fuck's sake. Well, time to replace out exactly what Ryan had been up to on his property. Jeremy opened up his mind-link to his mate and started pushing gently...pleading with him to stop running and wait for him. But his mate kept right on running because he obviously didn't even know what the mind-link was all about. Jeremy growled in frustration. At least he'd closed the gap between them considerably so he knew that he was going to catch up with Ryan soon. When the alpha rounded a corner and saw his mate lying between two boulders, whining painfully, he almost passed out with dread. Ryan was obviously hurt.

'Don't move Ryan.' Jeremy said softly through their link as he circled his mate. Ryan's leg was stuck in a hole but it didn't seem to be broken. It was twisted in a rather unnatural way though.

Jeremy wanted to transform back into his human form and pull Ryan's stuck leg out of the hole but he knew there was no way Ryan was going to allow him to touch him if he was human. His mate hated him.... And with good reason too. The huge red wolf tentatively went closer till he was standing over his mate who had begun to growl despite his pain.

'I'm just trying to help!' Jeremy said softly through their link. 'Please let me help you. Please Ryan'

'Don't you dare touch me you monster. If I should die right here right now, I'm sure you'll throw a party in the next... oh f**k... He gasped in pain.

'Ryan please...' Jeremy was getting desperate. Now that he was himself, watching Ryan in pain was killing him. But

he also knew he couldn't touch Ryan without his permission. 'I'm so sorry for all that has happened, Ryan. So, so sorry! But Ryan remained quiet. 'Let me help you please!' Jeremy couldn't keep the pleading out of his voice.

After a very long silence, Ryan finally spoke through their link. 'I'm not a freak! He said quietly, trying very hard not to think about the pain in his leg.

'I never said you were a freak! Jeremy protested. 'I said it was freaky!

'Same shit. Don't insult my intelligence.' Ryan said in a quiet voice.

'I'm sorry. It just took me by surprise that's all.

For the first time since he became a werewolf, Ryan didn't have any desire for Jeremy. In fact he couldn't even stand the sound of his voice. But for his stuck foot, he would have stood up and kept some distance between himself and the arrogant, sadistic prick. Jeremy cleared his throat on their mind-link. 'I can hear you, you know. Ryan we need to get your leg out of there so you can heal.

'What do you care?' Ryan sneered. 'Tell me... are you getting hard with the thought of me being in pain? Why do you hate me so much?' He asked with so much pain in his voice.

'Because you're a hunter, okay?' Jeremy responded exasperatedly. 'I hate hunters because you are murderers. You hunt and kill innocent people.'

'What the f**k are you talking about?' Ryan couldn't help the surprise in his voice. 'I'm a college professor. I've never hunted anything in my life. I love animals. I study them. That's my job.

'So what were you doing on my property?'

'Some kid I teach wanted to show me a new species which he said was going to blow my mind. They assured me that that part of the property was open to the public.

'Fuck! Jeremy swore. Ryan was being truthful. 'Shit.' Ryan didn't miss Jeremy's words. Somehow he could sense the other wolf's misery. Jeremy had made a mistake.

'So it's just as I thought. All this sadistic treatment was not because I trespassed. I was mistaken for some hunter? Why would anyone want to hunt this close to town? They may hurt someone. I'm not stup... Wait a minute... you meant hunters who hunt your kind didn't you? I didn't even know you existed, how much more... Are you fucking kidding me?'

Jeremy cringed inside his wolf. 'I'm sorry! The alpha wolf said quietly.

'I kept telling you I'd done nothing wrong. Now look at what you've done to me. You've turned me into an animal. My whole life I've stayed out of trouble. Kept to myself. Now this. Some sentences are incomplete if you are not reading this novel on Ebookex.com. Visit Ebookex.com to read the complete chapters for free. All because some arrogant fool couldn't listen to me for a second. Ryan's wolf whimpered as Ryan's emotional pain spiraled. The only reason Ryan wasn't crying at that very moment was because he was in his wolf form. 'Now I'm ruined. Tell me you can restore me not just to my human form, but to my original self. Please!

The pain within Jeremy at that very moment...hearing that heartfelt plea from his mate, was like nothing he'd ever felt. He didn't blame Ryan for wanting no part of his wolf side. He'd done that to him. He had to somehow fix it...make it better...help Ryan accept what he had become, because there was no going back.

'I'm sorry Ryan but I can't. No one can. I'm so sorry!

Ryan didn't say a word after that. He just kept quiet and laid his head down. His life was over. How could he even go back to work? What if in the middle of teaching he shifted into a wolf?

'I'll guide you.' Jeremy said quietly, listening to Ryan's inner thoughts. He didn't know how to shield himself yet so everything he thought about was open to Jeremy as they were linked. Ryan didn't acknowledge his words.

What if he not only shifted in the middle of a lecture, but he actually hurt one of his students? What if his shifting caused a stampede and people got hurt in the process? That was all the life he knew...teaching. Was it over? 'No it's not over.' Jeremy answered. 'I'll take care of you.

'Get the fuck out of my head, you psycho. Ryan growled, attempting to stand but he howled in pain and fell back down. Fuck! He hoped his foot wasn't broken.