Sinful Mates 1-3
chapter 4

“The merger document?” I ask, peering at his computer screen. He nods his head, and I hit printbefore walking back to the printer. His document prints out and I staple it before handing it to him.Theo stands there watching me, his intense gaze making me feel uncomfortable, but I can't

look away. He suddenly turns and walks out. I instantly take a breath of air, not realising I washolding my breath. I make my way back to my desk. Theo has been acting weird the last week. Ihave caught him staring more times now than I can count.

Tobias has been on edge lately as well, I heard them arguing over something the other day. Itried to tune it out as best I could as their relationship is none of my business, but it makes it a littleawkward and tense around the office.

The day goes by quickly. Tobias remained in his office all day in one of his moods. The onlytime I heard from him was when I transferred calls to his phone line. Before I knew it, it was 5:30 PM.Mr Kane and Mr Madden left at 5:00. I finished shutting everything down before switching the lightsoff and heading to the carpark. Once at the carpark, I grabbed my phone charger and some warmclothes to change into and piled everything into my bag.

I had to be back at my car before Tom locked up. Tom worked a few hours of a morning andthen came back at night to empty the bins and scrub the floor before locking up the carpark at9:00PM. Giving me plenty of time to visit my mother before heading back.

Walking through the empty parking lot, I came out on the ground floor level, on the park side.Cutting through the park I head towards the big blue neon Sign that sat atop the hospital acrossfrom Kane and Madden Industries. Mater Hospital. Every day I walk over to check on her. Makingmy way to the second floor, I head to the wards. Room Eighteen, bed five.

My mother has been here for just over three months. I take a seat in the sterile room. I hatehospitals, they always smell of hand sanitiser, and this particular ward reeks of death. No, mymother hasn't got some debilitating chronic illness. My mother Lila Riley is in a coma.

My mother was driving home from work at a local bar. A drunk driver ran a red light, smashinginto her. Her car was a total write off, and she had to be cut from the vehicle. She has been in acoma ever since. The doctors say she is brain dead, that the only thing keeping her alive are themachines she is hooked up to.

The hospital said they can keep her alive and hope to see some change even though it wouldbe a miracle. I have managed to push it to nearly four months now, after I appealed their decision toturn off life support. I am still waiting to hear back from the Medical Ethics Council. I know it is abattle I will lose. But for now, it has brought me more time with her.

It is only a matter of time before they pull the plug on her and tell me I have to say goodbye.This is also why I am living in my car. Mum's medical bills are expensive, and even when it comesthe time to switch her off, I will have to live in my car for at least another 2 years before I finishpaying it off. My medical insurance covers a dependent child or spouse. My mother didn't havemedical insurance. She worked cash in hand and struggled to keep a job for long.

I know most people think it would be wishful thinking that she would wake up, but I just can'tgive up on her. She taught me to walk, talk, to use a spoon. How to ride a bike. She has been by myside from the start. She was my first friend. In fact, she is my only friend. She raised me as a singlemum from the time I was born. My father walked out when he found out she was expecting. I nevermet the man and quite frankly don't care to meet him.

I lost our house after three weeks of not being able to pay the mortgage, turns out we werealready months behind when the accident happened, and my mother was keeping it from me. I hadto choose to keep mum alive or keep the house. I chose her. I know she would have done the samefor me. I know I am delaying the inevitable, but how do you kill your mum? Kill the one person whospent your entire life loving and supporting you? When the time comes, I need to know I have triedeverything, or I know I won't be able to live with the guilt.

Looking down at my mother, she looked like she was sleeping besides the tube hanging out ofher mouth that was forcing her to breathe, keeping her alive. She had numerous tubes hanging outof her skinny arms. My mother used to be strong, lively, and a happy woman. She always lookedyounger than her age. With her blonde hair that was just below her shoulder blades, she hadexcellent skin, no wrinkles, pink full lips, and tan complexion. She looked great for a woman whowas 45 years old.

Now her skin was grey, her hair oily and flat. She had lost all her weight and muscle mass andwas now skin and bone. Literally wasting away in this hospital bed. Sitting in the blue chair, Iscooted closer to the bed and grabbed her hand.

“Hey Mumma, I miss you.” I brush her hair off her forehead where it is sticking to her skin.Listening to the beep of her heart monitor, I hear it beeping regularly and the sound of theventilator forcing her to breathe. It is the same thing every day. I used to come every day and sitwith her for hours and tell her about my day or read to her. But after a couple months, I just cometo tell her I love her. I have run out of things to say.

I miss her voice. I miss her telling me everything was going to be okay. I miss the way she madeeverything look easy. Lila Riley may not have been a perfect mother, but she was perfect to me.Yeah, she had a drinking problem, but other than that, I know she did the best she could with thehand she was dealt.

There was never a lack of love, and no matter how bad I fucked up, she was always there tohelp me pick up the pieces and rebuild.

Now I see her, and I think of all the things she will miss. All the memories she won't be a partof.

After sitting with her for a while, I quickly duck into the small bathroom. The nurse Sally is onnight shift tonight and always lets me shower here. It is the only time I get to shower with warmwater. Not hot, but like lukewarm bath water as the showers are temperature regulated. Still, I'm notcomplaining. Warm is better than cold. The other people in this room need assistance and arebedridden like my mother, so I don't have to worry really about anyone opening the door, but Ialways lock it just in case a cleaner or nurse decides to stop in.

Showering quickly, I wash my hair and my body, making sure to scrub extra good while I havethe use of warm water. When I'm done, I quickly get out, dry myself and get into my track pants so Idon't have to try and change in the car. I also slide my feet into some socks before putting on a pairof flats. I then jam everything back into my oversized handbag before making my way back to mymother’s side.

Sitting on the table next to my charging phone are some club sandwiches. Sally must havecome in while I was in the shower. She knows my situation and knows I haven't got much left overafter I pay the hospital repayments, so every shift she is on, I always replace sandwiches or any leftoverfood from the cafeteria on the table waiting for me.00O